I tried San Pedro for the second time on Friday night. The first time I tried it with a friend, but I'm pretty sure we didn't boil it for long enough and it didn't do a great deal.
This time round was weird... I tried it on my own and I certainly felt it did something, it might have done quite a great deal, and I'm pretty sure things like the ceiling were moving while I was sitting down and looking at things. But I got stuck in this realm of thought trying to work out whether or not it was working or I was just seeing things because I wanted / expected to see them. If that makes any sense. Or perhaps I was stopping myself seeing more things because I was thinking about it so much.
I lay down in bed and with eyes open and when I relaxed and tried to "let go" I watched the patterns on my roof move, but when this was happening I was wondering whether or not I'm just convincing myself this is what I am seeing because that's what I was expecting. Because I could certainly get up, walk around, everything looked normal. It was just when I sat down and looked at things, things looked a little weird. No colours, patterns, or massive changes, so I couldn't "work out" if i was tripping or not.
I felt that if I saw something like that, I would know the mescaline was working and I could stop thinking about it.
I definitely had a massive body high and changes in thinking, as well as some time dilation. And did I mention nausea early on? : P It was an enjoyable experience that's for sure. Sorry to be crude, but I got bored and aroused at one point and "cleaned out the pipes" and afterwards my body felt ridiculously good... i was just lying in bed listening to music and feeling great.
But the "trip" only lasted 6 hours or so, and I heard mescaline lasts longer than that anyway.
Does this sound like I was tripping properly on san pedro, or maybe just halfway there? I was definitely thinking too much, but it was very hard to do anything else at the time
This time round was weird... I tried it on my own and I certainly felt it did something, it might have done quite a great deal, and I'm pretty sure things like the ceiling were moving while I was sitting down and looking at things. But I got stuck in this realm of thought trying to work out whether or not it was working or I was just seeing things because I wanted / expected to see them. If that makes any sense. Or perhaps I was stopping myself seeing more things because I was thinking about it so much.
I lay down in bed and with eyes open and when I relaxed and tried to "let go" I watched the patterns on my roof move, but when this was happening I was wondering whether or not I'm just convincing myself this is what I am seeing because that's what I was expecting. Because I could certainly get up, walk around, everything looked normal. It was just when I sat down and looked at things, things looked a little weird. No colours, patterns, or massive changes, so I couldn't "work out" if i was tripping or not.
I felt that if I saw something like that, I would know the mescaline was working and I could stop thinking about it.
I definitely had a massive body high and changes in thinking, as well as some time dilation. And did I mention nausea early on? : P It was an enjoyable experience that's for sure. Sorry to be crude, but I got bored and aroused at one point and "cleaned out the pipes" and afterwards my body felt ridiculously good... i was just lying in bed listening to music and feeling great.
But the "trip" only lasted 6 hours or so, and I heard mescaline lasts longer than that anyway.
Does this sound like I was tripping properly on san pedro, or maybe just halfway there? I was definitely thinking too much, but it was very hard to do anything else at the time