i been living on my own for the past three years and ive had a lot of time to reflect on my childhood
amongst a million things there have been some memories that i just cant shake. when i used to live with my mom, there were times where we would cuddle before i went to sleep and i remember a few times she would lightly pat/spank my butt in bed and joke that its jiggly. this always made me rly angry and i would tell her to stop. it made me angrier that she didnt seem to think it was inappropriate.. and still repeated it in a few other instances. also, i remember one night i was going to bed and i had the covers over me, my mom came to say goodnight but she made a comment..she said sort of jokingly "what are you doing under there?".. implying that i was touching myself... and i jsut remember feeling angry and disgusted that she would even ask that. like who says that you know? btw this took place during my mid-teens... edit: oh and one other memory... i remmeber one summer we were int he backyard and i had short shorts on. i was sitting somewhere across my mom and she said she could see my pubic hair, like she was surprised they were growing in. that also made me feel rly violated. i just remember getting angry adn shouting at her dont look at me
anyways, who knows if anything else has happened... my biggest fear is being molested as a kid and not ever remembering it properly or at all. and the thing is, even if what my mom did is considered as harrassment, what am i supposed to do? she had a stroke 4 years ago and is living in a group home, disabled. so do i just confront her even though her situation is shitty enough
amongst a million things there have been some memories that i just cant shake. when i used to live with my mom, there were times where we would cuddle before i went to sleep and i remember a few times she would lightly pat/spank my butt in bed and joke that its jiggly. this always made me rly angry and i would tell her to stop. it made me angrier that she didnt seem to think it was inappropriate.. and still repeated it in a few other instances. also, i remember one night i was going to bed and i had the covers over me, my mom came to say goodnight but she made a comment..she said sort of jokingly "what are you doing under there?".. implying that i was touching myself... and i jsut remember feeling angry and disgusted that she would even ask that. like who says that you know? btw this took place during my mid-teens... edit: oh and one other memory... i remmeber one summer we were int he backyard and i had short shorts on. i was sitting somewhere across my mom and she said she could see my pubic hair, like she was surprised they were growing in. that also made me feel rly violated. i just remember getting angry adn shouting at her dont look at me
anyways, who knows if anything else has happened... my biggest fear is being molested as a kid and not ever remembering it properly or at all. and the thing is, even if what my mom did is considered as harrassment, what am i supposed to do? she had a stroke 4 years ago and is living in a group home, disabled. so do i just confront her even though her situation is shitty enough