irisdrunkass
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Looooooooooooooooooooooong time lurker, first post:
So the way I surmise it, withdrawl symptoms are like a penance, a fee owed to something greater, a quatifiable amount of suffering I'm due for my drug use and length of drug use.
Is this about right
I've went through withdrawals a few times. The worst was Oct 2019. I was using lots of oxy, and then using subs afterwards to skip the withdrawl. Eventually this turned into just having to use suboxone to maintain. This was about 14 months and then i decided to taper down the subs to jump off, I went from 2mg a day, to 1mg, to .5mg, to .25mg and then jumped. It was living hell. 14 days in and i was still cold sweats/restless leg, couldn't sleep. I only took a week of PTO from work to do this so that was REAALY bad. Around Week 3.5 I started to feel someone normal, I would say I wasn't actually back to nomral until 3 months. Suboxone is the DEVIL....straight up.
Recently, for a year straight, I've been smoking those mexi blue fentayl pills off the street. a LOT of them...A LOT. I'd say 15 a day on average for 6 months, 10 a day for the first 6 months. Until last week I binged a bunch on Sept 29th, 2023, and had 3 left, used 2.5 on Sat, and .5 of them on Sunday and then that's it. Been in withdrawl since about 8pm on Sunday night (Oct 1). I had a friend goto a 5 day detox in Seattle and come back with a buttton of medication, and they put him on subs. OK subs = devil to me. He gave me a bunch of his. Seoquil, muscle relaxer, anti-nause etc etc, and I've been basically in a nice coma sleeping for days.
But last night it got particularly bad, and I took 1mg and then another 1mg of subs. I don't think it was full on preciptated withdrawl, but it hit me. My body was in nots i couldn't sit still, i basically had to stretch ever muscles i posses....It was hell. Somehow I fell asleep around 3am, and I woke up at 1:15 pm today feeling fine.
So my big question. When this sub wears off, and I going to go back to experiencing the WD symptoms of the fentanyl pills? Does subs/bup just "delay" the inevitable? Or am I passing thru my fent wd's as we speak even though I can't feel them?
I will not take anymore more subs for any reason, IDC how bad it gets. the WD's up until I took them were really mild with all the drugs and the seroquil/klonopin, and all the sleep. Restless leg is all I care about. I'd rather shit and piss out my eyeholes then have restless leg syndrome.
So yes are WD's something I owe as pennance, that suboxone just delays, or am i progressing on my fentanyl withdrawls while this sub is in me?
Cheers loves, all of you, Been reading here since day one
PS; I have a very high functioning job, 180k a year....so any kind of traveling detox/rehab is out of the question...but I also proclaim to myself that I have decent willpower and when I stop something, I stop it. Ive never submitted to cravings or anything. I quit drinking this way, I quit meth this way bak in the 90s. etc etc
So the way I surmise it, withdrawl symptoms are like a penance, a fee owed to something greater, a quatifiable amount of suffering I'm due for my drug use and length of drug use.
Is this about right
I've went through withdrawals a few times. The worst was Oct 2019. I was using lots of oxy, and then using subs afterwards to skip the withdrawl. Eventually this turned into just having to use suboxone to maintain. This was about 14 months and then i decided to taper down the subs to jump off, I went from 2mg a day, to 1mg, to .5mg, to .25mg and then jumped. It was living hell. 14 days in and i was still cold sweats/restless leg, couldn't sleep. I only took a week of PTO from work to do this so that was REAALY bad. Around Week 3.5 I started to feel someone normal, I would say I wasn't actually back to nomral until 3 months. Suboxone is the DEVIL....straight up.
Recently, for a year straight, I've been smoking those mexi blue fentayl pills off the street. a LOT of them...A LOT. I'd say 15 a day on average for 6 months, 10 a day for the first 6 months. Until last week I binged a bunch on Sept 29th, 2023, and had 3 left, used 2.5 on Sat, and .5 of them on Sunday and then that's it. Been in withdrawl since about 8pm on Sunday night (Oct 1). I had a friend goto a 5 day detox in Seattle and come back with a buttton of medication, and they put him on subs. OK subs = devil to me. He gave me a bunch of his. Seoquil, muscle relaxer, anti-nause etc etc, and I've been basically in a nice coma sleeping for days.
But last night it got particularly bad, and I took 1mg and then another 1mg of subs. I don't think it was full on preciptated withdrawl, but it hit me. My body was in nots i couldn't sit still, i basically had to stretch ever muscles i posses....It was hell. Somehow I fell asleep around 3am, and I woke up at 1:15 pm today feeling fine.
So my big question. When this sub wears off, and I going to go back to experiencing the WD symptoms of the fentanyl pills? Does subs/bup just "delay" the inevitable? Or am I passing thru my fent wd's as we speak even though I can't feel them?
I will not take anymore more subs for any reason, IDC how bad it gets. the WD's up until I took them were really mild with all the drugs and the seroquil/klonopin, and all the sleep. Restless leg is all I care about. I'd rather shit and piss out my eyeholes then have restless leg syndrome.
So yes are WD's something I owe as pennance, that suboxone just delays, or am i progressing on my fentanyl withdrawls while this sub is in me?
Cheers loves, all of you, Been reading here since day one
PS; I have a very high functioning job, 180k a year....so any kind of traveling detox/rehab is out of the question...but I also proclaim to myself that I have decent willpower and when I stop something, I stop it. Ive never submitted to cravings or anything. I quit drinking this way, I quit meth this way bak in the 90s. etc etc
