does everyone around you want you to quit heroin? but you dont ?

[alcy42]

I have heard it a million times before, you cant quit unless you WANT to quit. im in sort of a predicament, as are all heroin users. My whole family is on my ass about staying clean. The only harm my addiction has caused me so far is i sold a bunch of my shit (its not the worst i could do), but still, its bad..... Ive been giving my family the run around about quitting for 2 months now, so much that at this point, my little sister, brother, and dad all think my mom is in denial about me STILL doing heroin, as of today, im 7 days clean....So our family is split up a little bit. my mom and i vs everyone else.... I dont want to use, because then everyone will say I TOLD YOU SO to my mom, and basically prove that i suck at life...... I know the simple answer is to stay clean..but DAMN the cravings are unbearable.. to fill up all the time in my day with positive activities seems inviting, but not nearly as pleasurable as buying a half g and shooting up.... anyway, is every user basically going through the same shit?

 

[BIGsherm7272]

same thing kinda happened to me, my whole family thought I was using oxy again, but I kept telling my mom that I was clean (I was taking suboxone, but cheating here and there). She kept insisting to the rest of the family that I was clean, when infact I had pretty much quit suboxone and was selling whit at an alarming rate in order to keep up with my new needle habit, and ended up getting caught, blah blah blah........I feel bad cause I kinda made my mom look like a stupid naive bitch cause the whole family kept telling her that they though I was using again and out of her love for me defended me.......what a manipulative bastard I am