I do a lot of dissociatives. Well, I used to. DXM, Diphenhydramine, Salvia, Nitrous, etc.
Here's the problem. After a terrible, regrettable experience involving DXM + Diphenhydramine (just thinking about that combo makes me cringe now) + Weed, every time I get high, I dissociate.
I have quit DXM and Diph permanently because they both are terrible for my mind and body in the long run and I get sick and nauseous just thinking about either of them. However, the dissociative effects to my high persists.
It's a really weird flavoring to have to your weed highs, really. I know people get more introspective when they smoke weed after shrooms and shit like that, but I've never heard anything about dissociating.
Looking in the mirror is so awkward now. The person in the mirror is me and I'm fully aware of that, but at the same time it is a completely different person staring back at me. Unsettling, to say the least.