Methadone is no joke. Seriously. My boyfriend fell out on 120mg (recreational) plus Xanax this weekend, and I spent an entire day keeping him upright and breathing. It was the scariest, most fucked up thing I have ever seen, and I've seen some shit over the years. I started MMT today, and I'm really not happy about doing it. But I don't think there's any other way for me to stay sober. My tolerance is high, and 40mg even makes me tired. Not sleepy, but enough that I'll notice it a bit. Methadone, even just for a short time, should be a last-ditch emergency temporary solution.
I started using various substances before the internet was really a thing. So after my first week using dope, I didn't even know what withdrawal was. I didn't have all this horrifying information available to scare me. (If anything, it would more likely have scared some sense into me, not scared me into the arms of the ultimate opiate.) Found out at the clinic today I'm considered a person who has abused drugs for 23 years, despite long stretches of abstinence. And after more than two decades, this year is the first year I've resorted to anything more than clonidine and Ativan. I go in with a heavy heart, a lot of research under my belt, and a lot of research yet to do to determine how to succeed and get off the methadone as soon as possible. To resort to such a beast after a week is totally crazy.
I really hope the OP and other people who pop in to this thread realize that it's serious to deal with this shit. Yeah, heroin is serious, it can kill you, it takes everything, and the withdrawal sucks. But in my life, I've met just one person who has anything good to say about methadone, except as a detox from a real habit, not a little binge. The consensus online seems to be the same. I've been told it's called liquid handcuffs for good reason, and I am sad my life has come to this point. Even withdrawal after a 2-month binge was tolerable not long ago, but I'm finally too old and too tired to go through it. I'm saying this at 35. Cancer, drug abuse, malnourishment, lack of housing, stress, etc, all wear a body down. My boyfriend is in his 40s and drugs have taken his youth away, too. It's sad. I like this forum but I hate seeing the younger people who have no clue what they are in for.
Dope is the best thing ever. But if you're only one week in, walk away and forget all about it. Forever. It's never going to be that good again.