Left to go to the city at about 10:00am and didnt get back until after 4:00pm. I hate living a hour from the city there is nothing more frustrating then a hours commute just to see my doctor or psychiatrist.
If only i had enough cash to live there because i hate living up here. I can feel my mood drop when the sight of the city skyline falls out of my view. Out of civilisation and back into the wilderness though living up here certainly has it's perks. I like the nature up here, the silence as well as the various cute animals that come into our yard . If only i had some actual friends up here i might be happier. Though my heart still lives in the city because there is such a thing as too much quiet and there is nothing to do up here. Plus i love being able to get pizza, smokes and drugs at 4 in the morning.
I went to see my psychiatrist and GP and made out good with both. My psychiatrist gave me 3 weeks worth of zyprexa zydis thats if i take em everyday which i don't cause i usually only take them as needed. That is good since even the generic olanzapine costs a fucking fortune . I also had my lamotrigine dose increased to 175mg's a day so hopefully that will help things as well. That and i got refills on all my meds.
My GP gave me another 30 percocet which is great since i can't get anymore MScontin until wendsday atleast and my fucking left arm is killing me. I fucked it up lifting weights the other day since ive been trying to get back into shape as of late. I havent done any arm curls in a year so im not used to them i guess.
I am trying to keep my weight down and get back into shape so ive mostly been doing knuckle pushups and the like which build up my strength quite abit. But i want to get back into weight training as well since i want to pack on more muscle and burn the fat off.
I also need to start doing cardio even though my lungs arent the best from all the cigarettes i smoke. i tipped the scales today at 190lbs (86.18 kilos) which is the heaviest ive been in about 3 years. Strangely enough i don't look overweight at all even though im only 5 foot 8 (172.72 centimeteres). When i got to this weight before id look kinda puffy which sucked ass bad but now i don't. Im pretty broad so i carry my weight well.
I have to call a few people tonight and im off to bed because i am pretty fucking tired. I feel dragged out and tired but im not going to sleep until atleast 11:00pm. If i go to bed before then i might wake up early and when i wake up really early as in 3 in the morning i often get a visit from the black dog. That black dog can stay out in the cold tonight instead of being inside and sucking the life out of me like a vampire.
Peace to everyone.
Currant medication regimen:
Psychiatric meds:
Lamotrigine 175mg's per day
Clonazepam 4-6mg's per day
Zyprexa 10mg's a day as needed
wellbutrin 300mg's a day
zopiclone 7.5mg's a day
Pain medication:
MScontin 60mg's twice a day
Percocets As much as i need
Gabapentin 1800mg's per day
Lyrica (just got some samples) 300mg's a day or however much i feel like taking
Ibuprofen 600-800mg's every 4-6 hours as needed
If only i had enough cash to live there because i hate living up here. I can feel my mood drop when the sight of the city skyline falls out of my view. Out of civilisation and back into the wilderness though living up here certainly has it's perks. I like the nature up here, the silence as well as the various cute animals that come into our yard . If only i had some actual friends up here i might be happier. Though my heart still lives in the city because there is such a thing as too much quiet and there is nothing to do up here. Plus i love being able to get pizza, smokes and drugs at 4 in the morning.
I went to see my psychiatrist and GP and made out good with both. My psychiatrist gave me 3 weeks worth of zyprexa zydis thats if i take em everyday which i don't cause i usually only take them as needed. That is good since even the generic olanzapine costs a fucking fortune . I also had my lamotrigine dose increased to 175mg's a day so hopefully that will help things as well. That and i got refills on all my meds.
My GP gave me another 30 percocet which is great since i can't get anymore MScontin until wendsday atleast and my fucking left arm is killing me. I fucked it up lifting weights the other day since ive been trying to get back into shape as of late. I havent done any arm curls in a year so im not used to them i guess.
I am trying to keep my weight down and get back into shape so ive mostly been doing knuckle pushups and the like which build up my strength quite abit. But i want to get back into weight training as well since i want to pack on more muscle and burn the fat off.
I also need to start doing cardio even though my lungs arent the best from all the cigarettes i smoke. i tipped the scales today at 190lbs (86.18 kilos) which is the heaviest ive been in about 3 years. Strangely enough i don't look overweight at all even though im only 5 foot 8 (172.72 centimeteres). When i got to this weight before id look kinda puffy which sucked ass bad but now i don't. Im pretty broad so i carry my weight well.
I have to call a few people tonight and im off to bed because i am pretty fucking tired. I feel dragged out and tired but im not going to sleep until atleast 11:00pm. If i go to bed before then i might wake up early and when i wake up really early as in 3 in the morning i often get a visit from the black dog. That black dog can stay out in the cold tonight instead of being inside and sucking the life out of me like a vampire.
Peace to everyone.
Currant medication regimen:
Psychiatric meds:
Lamotrigine 175mg's per day
Clonazepam 4-6mg's per day
Zyprexa 10mg's a day as needed
wellbutrin 300mg's a day
zopiclone 7.5mg's a day
Pain medication:
MScontin 60mg's twice a day
Percocets As much as i need
Gabapentin 1800mg's per day
Lyrica (just got some samples) 300mg's a day or however much i feel like taking
Ibuprofen 600-800mg's every 4-6 hours as needed
.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
im just trying to get back in shape. I used to be about 185lbs of solid muscle about 3 years ago and id like to get back to that. It's gonna take me awile though and i need to start out slow or i'll fuck myself up real bad.