DOC – 3 mg – Nothing happened, and that was everything.

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# DOC
2,5-Dimethoxy-4-chloroamphetamine

(with 3.0–3.5 mg, orally, in aqueous solution, after ~15 years storage in dry form)

Onset gradual, without push. After 45–60 minutes – light energy in the body, desire to move. Not stimulation, just the body woke up. Movement was pleasant but not insistent. After 2–3 hours the energy left by itself. And silence remained.

At peak (4–12 h) – complete absence of anxiety. Not “became calmer”. Anxiety simply wasn't there. Decades of constant tension, fear, “what if”, “I'm not enough” – simply disappeared. Not “I overcame them”. They didn't come. Thoughts about the past, about pain, about “I must” – didn't arise. Not because “forgot”. Because there was no need to remember. The body relaxed completely. Not flabbiness. As if I had carried a backpack all my life, and then took it off. And didn't notice when.

Throughout – no visuals. No “journey”. No “entry into another world”. Just – sitting. And that's all. Time doesn't flow. It – is. 20 hours – like 5 minutes. But not “compressed”. Simply didn't count.

On the comedown (after 20 h) – the body still remembers “I was in mode”. Light dryness, light fatigue in muscles. But not pain. Not tension. Just the body returning. And anxiety didn't return. Not “became less”. It isn't there. Even when I recall the past – it's just a fact. Without pain. Without “what if”.

This is not a trip. This – was. And now – is. Without “more”. Without “must”. Just – silence. And the body. And I. And all.

Remark: this is my personal experience. I had chronic anxiety – not episodic, but constant, for decades. DOC is not a panacea. Not a medicine. Not for everyone. But for me – it simply removed what I carried all my life. Without work. Without therapy. Without “I tried”. Just – removed. And I remained. Without it.

 

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Preamble

The decision to document this experience in detail was made after the fact, when the magnitude of the change became apparent. The effect was more dramatic than anything experienced over three decades of attempting to address the same issue through various means.

I do not promise a strict schedule for updates. Additional posts will appear as circumstances allow and as new observations seem worth recording. The goal is to create a factual record that may have value beyond personal documentation — possibly for scientific or clinical reference, should anyone find it useful in that context.

This is not advocacy. This is observation. The substance in question carries unknown risks and is not approved for any therapeutic use. What follows is simply an attempt to document what happened, as accurately and objectively as possible.

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Follow-up: Detailed history of anxiety disorder (and paranoid features)

Note: Until recently, I understood my condition solely as chronic anxiety. The paranoid component — pervasive distrust, perception of others as threats — was not recognized as a distinct clinical feature. It was simply "how things were." Only after the experience, when these patterns dissolved, did it become clear that this was not merely anxiety but something more complex. The retrospective paranoia screening confirmed what had been invisible to me for decades: the issue was not anxiety alone.

Continuation of the DOC 3 mg experience report.


History of symptoms

- Anxiety has been present since early childhood — likely before conscious memory.
- First recollections of constant internal tension go back to preschool and early school years.
- Many childhood memories are faint or missing.



In childhood and adolescence, there was no significant male figure:

- Father was present nominally but did not communicate or participate in upbringing.
- No grandfather either.



Social functioning was normal on the surface: no particular problems with communication or meeting people (including girls).

Yet always internally closed off.


Anxiety was constant (not episodic), background, and grew stronger over the years.

Total duration at the time of the experience — more than 30 years.



Symptoms in the severe period (years leading up to the experience):

Emotional and perceptual:​

- Everything around became grey and indifferent.
- Any event (positive or neutral) caused aversion or disgust.
- Food, achievements, purchases, contracts — all perceived without emotion, only with revulsion.
- Constant feeling that life lacked meaning and colour.

Interpersonal:​

- Complete alienation from people: distanced from everyone, even the closest ones.
- All people were perceived as potential enemies. Intellectually understood that a person might behave normally and have no ill intent, but emotionally still felt them as a threat. This applied to absolutely everyone, without exception. Trust was entirely absent. No one was safe.

Social anxiety (communication):​

- Writing any post, comment, or message to someone required extremely long deliberation — from days to weeks or even longer.
- Intense fear would arise just before sending/posting.
- After sending a message, severe anxiety would set in while waiting for a reaction.
- Constant internal thoughts: "How will I be judged? What will they think of me?"
- This pattern severely impaired everyday communication and created significant delays in responding to people.



Previous attempts to cope


Over the decades tried many approaches:

- Breathing practices, physical exercises (yoga, sports).
- Reading spiritual and psychological literature, various meditative techniques.
- Repeated use of psychedelics from different groups: tryptamines, phenethylamines, lysergamides, psilocybin mushrooms, and many others (a very large number of experiences).


Result: during the effects it sometimes seemed relief was coming, but afterward the state always returned to the previous level or became worse.



At some point lost hope for improvement through psychedelics.

Began using other (non-psychedelic) substances solely for temporary muting of anxiety, just to endure the state for at least a short time.



Objective assessment before the experience

GAD-7 and online paranoia screening test (IDRlabs, based on DSM-5 PPD criteria) were filled retrospectively 2 days after the experience, reflecting the state during the 2 weeks prior to ingestion.

GAD-7: 16 points (severe anxiety disorder).

Paranoia screening: "Strong indication of paranoid personality disorder".

Both assessments matched the subjective recollection of the pre-experience state — performing ordinary life tasks was very difficult.



Subjective observations — Day 2 after experience

• Anxiety level:

- First 24 hours (Day 0-1): completely absent.

- Day 2 (current): minimal background level. Sometimes may slightly emerge when dealing with a problem or decision, but so low it's unclear whether it qualifies as anxiety at all. Incomparable to the previous baseline.

• Social anxiety pattern:

- The entire construct of "prolonged deliberation → intense fear before sending → post-action anxiety while awaiting judgment" is gone.
- Thoughts about "How will I be judged?" do not arise spontaneously.
- Simply don't think about it anymore.
- Communication and posting happen without internal tension or delay.

• Perception of people:

- Became much calmer.
- The automatic sense of others as threats has diminished significantly.

• Emotional engagement (anhedonia):

- Changed noticeably. Started experiencing pleasure from ordinary things.
- For example: cooking or eating food now feels normal and pleasant.
- Previously these activities caused aversion — they were grey, indifferent, and even unpleasant.

• Daily functioning:

- Performing routine tasks became much easier.
- The internal loop of "rumination → action → waiting for evaluation → self-judgment" is absent.
- Actions simply happen, without constant internal commentary or anticipation of consequences.



This remains a purely personal observational report. No generalizations, no conclusions about causes, no recommendations. DOC is a research chemical with an unknown safety profile and is not approved for human use. This documentation is for informational purposes only.

 

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PRE-LOAD PROTOCOL (DOC 3.5 mg)
For full trip report, see Post 1

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Context and Preparation Notes

This protocol was developed with careful consideration of DOC's extended duration (18-30+ hours). Preparation was deliberate, not improvised. Key considerations:

Duration planning: DOC requires extended session preparation. Recommend having food and water supplies for 2-3 days minimum (preferably 3 days). This ensures you won't need to leave for supplies during the second day when still affected. Better to have options available and choose whether to go out, rather than being forced to.

Food selection: Items were chosen specifically for this substance - addressing stimulant effects (hydration, electrolytes), providing easy-to-consume nutrition during appetite suppression, and supporting recovery (magnesium-rich foods, antioxidants, neurotransmitter precursors).

Supplement timing: Pre-load designed to reduce baseline anxiety before session and maintain coverage through peak phase.

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How to read timestamps:

T-5:00 = 5 hours BEFORE substance administration
T-0:30 = 30 minutes BEFORE administration
T+10 = 10 hours AFTER administration

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SUPPLEMENTATION

T-3:00 (3 hours before):

CBD Complex: 2 capsules
- CBD isolate: 50 mg
- L-Tryptophan: 200 mg
- L-Theanine: 200 mg
- Vitamin B12: 1 mg

MgB6 Complex: 1 tablet
- Magnesium: ~50-100 mg (estimated)
- Vitamin B6: ~5-10 mg (estimated)

Rationale: Reduce baseline anxiety. CBD + L-Theanine provide anxiolytic effects; L-Tryptophan + B6/B12 support serotonin synthesis; Magnesium prevents muscle tension and acts as NMDA antagonist.

T-0:30 (30 minutes before):

CBD Complex: 2 capsules (same composition)
MgB6 Complex: 1 tablet

Rationale: Maintain steady-state anxiolytic coverage through come-up and peak.

Cumulative doses:
- CBD isolate: 100 mg
- L-Tryptophan: 400 mg
- L-Theanine: 400 mg
- Vitamin B12: 2 mg
- Magnesium: ~100-200 mg
- Vitamin B6: ~10-20 mg

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NUTRITION

T-5:00: Pizza (1 slice) - chicken, mushrooms, cheese

T-1:30: Apple (1 piece)

T+10 to T+12 (in-session):

Salad prepared and consumed: avocado, cherry tomatoes, feta cheese, lettuce, mixed nuts (almonds, cashews, peanuts), raisins

Appetite: normal, no difficulty eating

Rationale: Magnesium-rich foods (nuts, avocado), antioxidants (tomatoes), neurotransmitter precursors. Manual food preparation provided tactile engagement and sensory anchoring during late phase.

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Hydration: Mineral water + regular water (continuous throughout session)

Rationale: Critical for maintaining electrolyte balance during extended stimulation.

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PROTOCOL DESIGN

Timing strategy:

- Split dosing (T-3:00 and T-0:30) maintains consistent anxiolytic coverage
- Early magnesium loading prevents stimulant-induced depletion
- Food timing (T-5:00) provides energy without GI discomfort during peak