thegreenhand
Bluelight Crew
I've had enough of wallowing in my own problems. idk if ~talking to a professional~ will help but i suppose it can't hurt to try
but i'm really overwhelmed with finding a provider. i've found a list from my insurance provider of mental health psychologists, psychiatrists, etc
some of them seem to have really specific focus like "traumatic brain injury" or "cancer patients" and of course "addiction"
i have been dependent on weed in the past when i first started using it in high school, but i haven't used it chronically like that in 2+ years. yeah i do drugs still but i don't feel as if i'm addicted. i just like to do drugs sometimes. i feel like most "addiction specialists" will expect me to not use anything, which frankly isn't gonna happen
at the core, i feel this overwhelming sense of emptiness. not depression, not anxiety, and not addiction. just a general feeling of all consuming dread that is there some days and gone the next. do i just pick a random name off the list and try it? or find someone who specializes in certain things?
but i'm really overwhelmed with finding a provider. i've found a list from my insurance provider of mental health psychologists, psychiatrists, etc
some of them seem to have really specific focus like "traumatic brain injury" or "cancer patients" and of course "addiction"
i have been dependent on weed in the past when i first started using it in high school, but i haven't used it chronically like that in 2+ years. yeah i do drugs still but i don't feel as if i'm addicted. i just like to do drugs sometimes. i feel like most "addiction specialists" will expect me to not use anything, which frankly isn't gonna happen
at the core, i feel this overwhelming sense of emptiness. not depression, not anxiety, and not addiction. just a general feeling of all consuming dread that is there some days and gone the next. do i just pick a random name off the list and try it? or find someone who specializes in certain things?