do you get worried when you feel its too easy!?

[Bernc1]

its one thing if you actually didnt use but since you are continuing to use you might as well give suboxone a try; it has helped many, many people out and completely changed their lives for the better.

many say its a good pain killer and also kill the urge to use other pain killers.

give it a shot; you have nothing to lose.

Thanks for the reply, Boston. One last question though: I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday. Right now I'm in between pain management clinics because the old one I went to stopped accepting my insurance. My taper IS going well but the craving isn't going away. My source (my sister who also takes methadone will be getting both tomorrow and I'm sure will drop by for a visit and I'm not sure I'll ever be able to decline 100 oxy's for free in a pop), plus then I'd be getting my own from my doctor the next day. I just want to lead a "normal" life again. Be the carefree, fun loving gal I once was so anyway....does a Primary Care Physician prescribe them usually or pain management? I'm just scared because this would all be a huge "shocker" to my PCP who thinks the world of me. Yet then to find out that his patient is a "fake"? My friend gets hers through a special clinic. I did take the 1st step and called there and found out that they don't accept my insurance.

I've heard so many times from different people: "Well, if you're spending what you are on the oxy's then you can afford the subs". Yet the fact is I've never payed for one single pill.

Anyway, again, just curious as for if a "regular" doctor can prescribe them? And depending upon where you live, you may not even know the answer. Again, I just know it's time to make a change. I've begun secluding myself and just totally not being "me". I definitely don't want to live the rest of my life like this, that's for sure.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Thanks for the reply, Boston. One last question though: I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday. Right now I'm in between pain management clinics because the old one I went to stopped accepting my insurance. My taper IS going well but the craving isn't going away. My source (my sister who also takes methadone will be getting both tomorrow and I'm sure will drop by for a visit and I'm not sure I'll ever be able to decline 100 oxy's for free in a pop), plus then I'd be getting my own from my doctor the next day. I just want to lead a "normal" life again. Be the carefree, fun loving gal I once was so anyway....does a Primary Care Physician prescribe them usually or pain management? I'm just scared because this would all be a huge "shocker" to my PCP who thinks the world of me. Yet then to find out that his patient is a "fake"? My friend gets hers through a special clinic. I did take the 1st step and called there and found out that they don't accept my insurance.

I've heard so many times from different people: "Well, if you're spending what you are on the oxy's then you can afford the subs". Yet the fact is I've never payed for one single pill.

Anyway, again, just curious as for if a "regular" doctor can prescribe them? And depending upon where you live, you may not even know the answer. Again, I just know it's time to make a change. I've begun secluding myself and just totally not being "me". I definitely don't want to live the rest of my life like this, that's for sure.

Doctors need special certification to prescribe suboxone.

Find a Suboxone doctor

 

[Jabberwocky]

yea, you need a Suboxone Dr. not sure if someone you already see my have the license or what but you have to start asking since you put yourself in a spot where you'll be withdrawing or possibly facing some trouble if your sister were to get that script cut or something were to happen. you put yourself in a tough situation, but luckily your sis is still coming through and dropping all the painkillers off, so hopefully all goes well and things continue to go well for you. cheer up and be happy you get 100's of free pills.

 

[Bernc1]

Doctors need special certification to prescribe suboxone.

Find a Suboxone doctor

Thank you, Captain Heroin. That is a very helpful link. I had actually googled "Suboxone Clinics in my area" and got results saying that the nearest clinic was 2 hours away. This link actually provided me with a doctor who is actually located in the same town as my doctor who is only 15 miles away from my home and whom I've heard of. Thanks much

 

[Bernc1]

yea, you need a Suboxone Dr. not sure if someone you already see my have the license or what but you have to start asking since you put yourself in a spot where you'll be withdrawing or possibly facing some trouble if your sister were to get that script cut or something were to happen. you put yourself in a tough situation, but luckily your sis is still coming through and dropping all the painkillers off, so hopefully all goes well and things continue to go well for you. cheer up and be happy you get 100's of free pills.

Nah, because they really don't make me happy anymore but rather just make me not sick. They don't even produce the "euphoric" effect they once did. Plus the inevitable with me: "well, I'll just have one day of taking some "extras" so I can go out and get some things done or go visit some friends." The one day turns to 3 or 5 or til I'm out and back puking and shaking and shivering in cold sweats, curled up into a ball thinking death is coming. Not for me anymore. My body just can't handle it. It'll never be something I can control. Am I happy she'll be getting them in 14 hours? Yeah. Just so I can make it to my own appointment on Wednesday (I have health issues...some pretty serious ones.) It's not a way to live. It quickly "traps you" and drags you right down.

And you're right, she's already being tapered off of her methadone (she gets them for pain). Either way, the time will eventually come so I would rather do it because I want to. Not because I'm in a jam and need to.

I've just been so curious about this for so long but the friend I have is a "talker". I've always been afraid to question her because as I've said somehow none of my friends know I take a narcotic. In a small town like mine? I'd suddenly have a thousand friends if anyone knew or else I'd have my totally "anti drug" friends hating me. I'm not wanting to do this for anyone but me though. I'm at the point now that I'd never consider heroin since it's being laced with some deadly things in my tiny little town which has led to deaths of people I'd have never have guessed "used". I don't want to get to that point and I feel that it too would probably soon come. Especially if I was sick. Plus the guy I'm with was "once" a heroin addict and I never even knew (yet our money kept just "going away" mysteriously as did my pills)...that's a whole different topic but it's not a healthy relationship. Something I also need to address.

Anyway, again congratulations on your success! Keep up the great work! Thank you much for your replies. My pain in the a*s long rambles are over

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Bernc1 did you ever get to the suboxone doctor?

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

In a word, no. I'm finding it pretty easy at the moment and I think to respond to this by starting to worry is extremely counterproductive. I say a little word of thanks in my head, maybe check myself for denial, examine what I might be doing that has lead to getting to this point and then go get on with my life and try to repeat those actions that I feel have been having a positive influence.

 

[Bernc1]

Bernc1 did you ever get to the suboxone doctor?

Captain Heroin, I want to thank you again gratuitously! I remember you back from my very 1st post (greeting me) quite a few months ago. I then gave up for awhile. Continued to "up my dose" to try to numb 1st my physical and emotional pain caused by abuse (that in which I "got rid of"). Then when I had legit pain issues? Oh, VOILA!! I had an EXCUSE to want to use more (and was prescribed it too)!

Yet kept thinking, "this is NOT me"!! I LOVE people! I don't avoid friends. All the more that are in my life the happier I am. Yet guess what? I didn't care about them anymore. I cared about how many pills I had left.

Well, I'm happy to say that due to people such as yourself (who lend a loving hand whenever you can...I've seen many things you've written on threads), Boston who gave some great advise and quite a few others on here that I decided I WANTED and NEEDED to be DONE and "FREE".

I had made several calls though and got no where. Initially I was told the nearest doctor was a quite a bit away from my home (another excuse not to try) yet guess what? The link you shared? The doctor that showed up for my area happens to be approximately a quarter of a mile away from my doctor. Anyway, sorry for the ramble (but this IS me. A chatty, polite, loving people, loving life type of person no matter what life always tossed her way yet I lost that over pills): anyway, I had a doctors appointment yesterday and sat there shaking and trembling (I did get some pretty bad health news...besides the RSD I have and spinal cord issues, I also have a tumor in my stomach that has to be removed yet alls that was going through my mind? It's curable but am I? Are they going to think they are giving me enough pain meds for a partially sedated surgery not knowing my real tolerance? As this did happen before during a minor spine surgery and I felt it all.

Anyway, sorry again....onto my good news: he handed me my script for 120 (my sister got hers the day before) and I just sat there staring at it. I then handed it back and "came clean". I thought he'd hate me, think I'm worthless. Yet you know what? I was crying and he got up and hugged me. A hug that never felt so good and he told me: "We will work together and fix you all up, sweety, in all ways. He's actually even affiliated with this other doctor.

My 1st appointment is on Monday. I couldn't just give you a "yes or no" when you asked but rather wanted to share all because I TRULY thank blue light for this. Yes, it was I that needed to make this 1st step but was given the extra "boost" I needed on here to finally be able to do it. Lots and lots and lots of love!!!

Oh and don't get me wrong, he did still give me some meds so I'm not "sick" but I also did something else that I've been wanting to do for so very long...I brought my sister her pills back and told her my "trading days are over". Seeing as how I traded Xanax for them? There were plenty of times I jeopardized my life by running out of them due to these "trades". The thing is? She knew it was possible but never seemed to care. She didn't seem please but ya know what? If she wants a sister? That I will be. If she wants a "drug buddy"? That I won't be anymore. I feel SOOO at ease today. I REALLY want this!!!!