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Do you consider yourself an addict?

I tell my self I'm not an addict but then always second guess myself.

I started the love for opiates after a nurse gave me multiple (10 or so over 3 days) morphine injections that I didn't need (actually told her I didn't need them, well the first one...). 5 operations later (over 2 years) and all is good but I'm still taking opiates... I tell myself it's for pain but now the condition is totally different (to the point it's actually unidentified) and I wonder if it's just my head making up the pain so I can justify taking opiates :/ I can go off for weeks to months but I always come back, every time (I stockpile when I'm not using).

So there it is, after writing that I'm actually pretty convinced I'm an addict. Although a fully functioning one.
 
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Yes and no. I feel like I /could/ stop if I wanted to, I just don't want to. I know deep deep down that I am but am in such denial all the time x__x
My drug use has horribly affected my life at school, home and friends and what not. Basically everything.

I'm a happy person, however.
 
The term "high-functioning addict" cracks me up. It's a pretty sweet gig, but I'm waiting for an even more benign label, something like "part-time drug expert" or "super-duper drug enthusiast." 8)
 
fuck yeah i am and i love it and everything about it, the life, my friends, the rush, the thrill, the excitement... everything. Even before I was using, the thought of a normal life sounded awful. The thought of being a suburban soccer mom makes me want to kill myself. It's strange how I know I am addicted to all this but at the same time I feel free, happy...way more free now than a decade ago when my using started. I guess I was always searching for that something more and when I found heroin it was like I met my soul mate.
 
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fuck yeah i am and i love it and everything about it, the life, my friends, the rush, the thrill, the excitement... everything. Even before I was using, the thought of a normal life sounded awful. The thought of being a suburban soccer mom makes me want to kill myself. It's strange how I know I am addicted to all this but at the same time I feel free, happy...way more free now than a decade ago when my using started. I guess I was always searching for that something more and when I found heroin it was like I met my soul mate.
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It sounds like you're good at what you do and enjoy it, so I can't knock you for that.
 
I try to stay intoxicated on just about anything I can get my hands on, been this way for several years. I guess that's a YES.
 
I can pretty safely say I am benzo dependent. Yay me! 8) I wanted something PRN, but when I got my first Klonopin script I just said "well, I can take it for a little while everyday, and then as needed". Well, I ended up taking them everyday, with only a five day stop somewhere in December. I switched to Xanax recently, which is even scarier dependence wise. I know I should stop while the dependence is fairly young, but keep making excuses. Even that five day stop in early December was quite unpleasant, and it wasn't but 4 weeks I was on k-pins. Am I an addict? No, I wouldn't say addict, not to benzos. I just don't think addict fits in my situation, not saying I am better or whatever, because I am not, I just don't see myself as an addict. When it comes to opiates I have almost no control, and I absolutely love them. But, they come by so rarely I haven't been able to become dependent. I obviously don't want to become an opiate addict, but I know I have a good chance of becoming one in time because opiates are just too good to pass up. I am certainly an "enthusiast" in all drugs, but that is different than addict. Am I functioning? Ehh, enough, but that is just because I am me, not the drugs.
 
onthenodintulsa said:
fuck yeah i am and i love it and everything about it, the life, my friends, the rush, the thrill, the excitement... everything. Even before I was using, the thought of a normal life sounded awful. The thought of being a suburban soccer mom makes me want to kill myself. It's strange how I know I am addicted to all this but at the same time I feel free, happy...way more free now than a decade ago when my using started. I guess I was always searching for that something more and when I found heroin it was like I met my soul mate.
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Honestly thats your goal in life to become a drug addict?

You realise a non-normal life dosn't have to be one addicted to drugs.

Sounds like you are kinda shallow and missing something else in your life, heroin fills this gap. It wont forever though. Remember that, inevitably you will have to solve your problems properly, instead of just masking them and beleiving all is cured.

Anyways fuck yeah im addicted, but in the same breath i'm fully aware that there is much more to life than opiates though, and i aint lying to myself beleiving i need them to live, or beleiving that i have found something more like the poster above me, shit makes me cringe. Such a strong level of denile, anyone would think this dude found his magical wonder drug.
 
I spend way more money gambling than I do on drugs. In fact, its not even close. I know im a gambling addict & not a drug addict but none the less, im an addict of some kind.
 
I'm not an addict, but I do have an annoyingly increasing tolerance. I really wish there was some way to slow it down or stop it effectively.
 
Absolutley I'm an addict! I like almost all drugs too. I never deny I'm an addict! I've known for years and there's not many thing I can do in moderation, it's not just drugs. I got the addictive personality. Fucking curse
 
you bet im an addict and resigned to the fact. Im on a meth and morphine script but cant wait for some decent gear to arrive back on the scene or to find a decent supply of some exotic rx products like oxys, hydros, or fentanyl that are so difficult to find in the uk.
 
No, I mean not right now. 2 months ago I got off of my script of Xanax (120 a month) and suboxone oh and tramadol (the ssri effect at least I think it's that,makes this shit nastier than expected to kick). However I do have an addictive personality and I'm sure I will be an adicct once again in the future if the past is any indicator. It's nice to be able to just dip out and for example I'm going on a sailing trip (crew duties pay for trip :)) and not have to worry about getting sick, but it seems that I am able to function Better while using (opiates and benzos) also it's like life is wearing shades, a nice filter
 
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Honestly thats your goal in life to become a drug addict?

You realise a non-normal life dosn't have to be one addicted to drugs.

Sounds like you are kinda shallow and missing something else in your life, heroin fills this gap. It wont forever though. Remember that, inevitably you will have to solve your problems properly, instead of just masking them and beleiving all is cured.

Anyways fuck yeah im addicted, but in the same breath i'm fully aware that there is much more to life than opiates though, and i aint lying to myself beleiving i need them to live, or beleiving that i have found something more like the poster above me, shit makes me cringe. Such a strong level of denile, anyone would think this dude found his magical wonder drug.
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Maybe the poster doesnt see fit living unless they are high. If that makes them shallow, then so be it.......it beats taking a gun to your head. Everyone had problems & whether they will face them now or later, it doesnt matter because their problems will always be there. If doing heroin brings happiness to someones life, who are we to say it wont work out for them. Maybe they have a death wish & if they are gonna die, it will be by a needle & enjoying it while dying instead of blasting a hole threw their head.

Everyone is missing something in their life & we can sit here & talk all we want about how drugs wont fill that gap forever & we are probably right but we dont know what the persons pain is so we should leave it at that.
 
Such a strong level of denile, anyone would think this dude found his magical wonder drug.

First, it's spelled "denial." Second, I am a female. Besides all that, I do believe I said that if I ever stopped enjoying the way I live, I would change it. I don't "believe all is cured" by my drug use. It does, however, bring happiness to my life. I would rather live my life in a way that gives me pleasure than in a way that does not. It is, after all, my life. I don't have a death wish. I fully understand the risks associated with the life I choose to live. If I do die from an overdose I would at least die happy so it is what it is. To each his own, right?
 
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