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Do you consider yourself an addict?

fuck knows i may be percived as a addict but belive im not i do a lot of drugs tho but i dont belive thats what makes you a addict
 
Absolutely!

I finally came to accept this part of myself, and I don't see why it has to be a bad thing.

Almost anything I get into, I go into it full bore. I'm not an addict just because of my drug use.

Our brains are wired differently, and it's not a good thing or a bad thing. It's whatever you make it.

Variety is the spice of life! That's a major reason I love drugs -- I don't have to pick and choose just one.
 
I get me a little something every now and then now...I think I moved away from where I was because I secretly didn't want to be an addict anymore...I pretty much just accepted w/d's and feel a lot better now...I was pretty much pushing straight junkie status (I mean that in a bad way, there's a difference between an addict an a junkie right?) I would lie, sell shit that wasn't mine, and steal from anyone just to get high...and I felt really bad about what I was doing. But, I guess, in a way, I'm still addicted to my doc...and my add meds...lol
 
Interesting question, since the answer really depends on how you define addict; my pain doc clearly draws a line between people who are ADDICTED to drugs and those who are DEPENDENT.

If you use drugs often enough to experience withdrawls, you are definitely dependent - but addicted? I think it would come down to how much in your life are you willing to sacrifice to stay on drugs. If you get behind in bills to pay for drugs, or have destroyed relationships because of drugs, or simply cant be happy without them, then yeah, you're addicted.

Ask yourself "aside from drugs, what else in life do i actively pursue that makes me happy?"

If you still go record shopping and maintain a good romantic relationship with someone and make time to hang out with friends and are still doing well at work, then personally I would say no matter how much drugs you do, you're probably not addicted.

But if the list of things in your life that make you happy have all fallen to the wayside and been replaced with a needle, then you might have a problem.

Personally, I admit I spend a lot more time at home than I used to so I can get high, and because of withdrawals I pretty much HAVE to be sure I'm home at regular intervals so I can fix... But all the other elements in my life are as they were; my job is fine, I still see my friends and my bills are paid. So maybe I'm a functioning addict, who knows.

But at the same time, I have it easy - because of chronic pain (which isn't really so chronic), I get a monthly script for a healthy amount of dilaudid. It's basically handed to me on a silver platter and feeding my addiction couldn't be easier.

But what would happen if my doc decided I wasn't really that bad and cut off my meds? Would I seek them out on the street? Would I turn everything upside down to continue my fix? Simply from a financial standpoint, I'd probably have to taper down and quit, since it would cost $1800 a month to keep going!

But since I'm willing to (at least hypothetically) give up the drugs and aren't contemplating what I could do to keep it going, then no, chances are I'm not actually addicted.

And there ya have it, John Burrows' thinking-out-loud self diagnosis!

Good question - it may be simple but it's something everyone should look in the mirror and ask themselves.

Actually, this can be answered even by an even simpler test: if you have more than 1,000 posts here on BL then yes, you're an addict!
 
Well.. That's a hard question to answer...

Do I have physical dependence to anything? No.

However, I often put myself in negative situations to get high. I find that when its been a while (say.... a week) since I've gotten high on anything, I become moody, agitated and unpleasant to be around. I also find that my whole life (friends, hobbies, hopes/dreams, thoughts, conversations, etc..) revolves around drugs.

So physically, no. Psychologically, yes.

I believe I am a functioning addict though, as I can handle everyday situations fairly well sober, and I have managed to keep my GPA at about a 3.5.

Do I care though? Not really. It's just a path of life. We only get one shot at life, so we might as well do what we enjoy. :)
 
Id have to say that i was addicted at one point when i was IV'in H... but i guess one never really over comes the addiction so ya im an addict... that is sober? lol

when i say sober i mean off opiates... the only drug that my body seems to love wayyyy to much for its own good
 
Though I am new to the site, I am not new to usage. I started off 420 as a teen, and I for one can say it is not the gateway drug, I did not use other heavier drugs (no needles ever) till MANY years later. I do realize that age plays a HUGE factor in it, but also just how far you want to go.

For me, it is more a hippie mentality, about mental and sexual exploration and not about escape, which is one of the primary platform of addicts. There have been nights that I had it in front of me, and I was just not in the mood. Or, a night that I thought I maybe had too much or did not like the affects, and I stopped. I am an extremely self aware person and realize how much this needs to be kept under control or it can destroy a person.
 
Yep I have no illusions as to whether I'm a drug addict these days or not. And while it has definetely caused more than its fair share of problems, I do manage to keep myself atleast moderately on track usually when I want too. Like I'm a senior now at the big university here, althought I'm 27, so yeah I definetely squandered some time in my day because of my love for drugs.
 
Most definitely..its pretty hard to be an iv heroin user and not be an 'addict'...But ya totally I basically cant function without for the most part. I work outdoors canvassing in the downtown chicago winter and I refuse to stand in the cold if I am dopesick. But if I do indeed have dope I barely feel the cold, I meet great sales numbers, and my day flys.

Unfortunately it has gotten so bad for me that I need like $30 worth of dope in the AM or I cant do my job. I get terrible w/d symptoms where I sweat profusely, get hot and cold flashes, restless legs and cramps, constant sneezing, feel super cold while outside, I get extreme anxiety as well. If I start tto have withdrawals at night I have insomnia and dont have any energy the next morning.

If I dont have some dope for the morning I call off work and try to hustle on the street for a wakeup and it takes about 2-3 hrs of hustlin (panhandling at union station or gas stations) to make $30-$40. This absolutely fucks up my money situation because if I can work I make $10 p/hr full time and anywhere from $40 to $150 a day in cash on top of my hourly pay rate.

But like for example I had $60 on tuesday and that was gonna be like 3 bags for after work 2 bags for a wakeup and 1 bag midway through my work shift but my regular spot was being raided so I hit a different block and got sold empty foils. So I was super sick come wednesday morning and I couldnt work in my condition so I had to hustle and then I missed out on all the money I could have made if I had worked that day.
 
With my current inability to say 'No', I think it's safe to say I'm an addict. I have very poor willpower all around which extends itself to non-substances too.
 
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