At the end of the day drugs aren't good for you, but I'm not happy living a standard life. I wana be 'outside of the box' sometimes. I wana learn more about myself. I honestly think I've developed as a person since my first rave, my first dose of MDMA, my first line etc etc. It's damaged my brain but nourished my soul, and made me closer to some friends, while realising others arent worth it.
As long as I stick to using drugs not abusing them, and being sensible about it, I don't think I'm mutiliating myself.