yes absolutely...
this is something i think about often, especially when im on fire with w/d. the thing is, 50-60-80 mg cold-turky oxy w/d, is more of a great sense of malaise and discomfort, very irritating.
what really takes its toal, is the reason i take these short lived high potential for mental addiction tic-tac 7.5 endocet, for near eight months, after 18 months of day and night, un able to actually fully recall, brilliant perfect pain, of all sorts, devastation for all close to me progressive permanent pain that will kill me eventually.
this is what others and myself withdraw back into, not societal or self escape/sobriety. they can be vital for some to live and function, contribute to society, and retain their sanity.
this is what it is, awful migratory pain, and fearing or fighting is only more self destructive.
im wasting rapidly, my sense of hunger seems destroyed, as well as my libido, in all honesty, after fucking several times a day, or as much as seems fair, and some wanks often, now it hits me every couple months or less, its just switched off...
during the infusion of the drug
Remicade , i made them stop because of awful chest pain, on november 23 2009, and it hasnt stopped since.
i, and other for life chronic pain patients do need these drugs, the other options unless called for specifically are horrendous.
doctors and patients, with no real pain, or who are unwilling to try other therapies or drugs, need to be reevaluated. it makes for people suffering, families ruined, suicide, street narcotics being seen as the only/easiest option.
i know fiends have a major impact on my quality of life... in fucking deed.
