My personal "rock bottom" came when no matter what I used I didn't get high. It was so fucking depressing; I was using a lot of h at the time and it stopped my dopesick, but all the guilt and bad shit was there-a low point.
Even during this time, when I was in peak withdrawal and slammed some, the relief was beautiful.that sense of relief was what kept me going when I should have stopped. Thanks to tolerance, I'd consider a full time opiate "career" completely unsustainable. Imo tolerance is evil; taking you're regular shot, only to find out you're in mild WD is bad shit.
I wonder if it's scientifically possible to provide a non-opiate drug that can totally eliminate withdrawal symptoms?
Edit: I've heard good things about britlofex, or clonidine in the US, it eliminates excess noradrenaline, that horrible sense of energy and restlessness. I've also heard negative side effects such as extreme lethargy, however; this is no magic bullet. Also I hear loperamide can reduce symptoms, although the jurys out on that one, and I cant say I understand how it works for WD, considering it targets the gut? (none the less I have 800 of the things. You never know...I wish there was a pill that can eliminate 100% of heroin WD; all we can do is dream...