hamhurricane
Bluelighter
First off to get started i have wanted to do dmt practically my entire life, i first read about it in this book "buzzed" when i was in 6th grade, i have been asking around trying to get it for literally nine years! i remember the first time i was ever approached by a drug dealer on the street when i was like 12 he offered me weed and i was like "do you have any DMT!?" and he was like "what the fuck are you talking about" this was the beginning of a life long desire for drugs that nobody else seems to care about (out side of the BL community of course) now to the trip...
i finally got some DMT i load a pipe made out of a light bulb and try to vaporize 40mg and get practically no effects, i try this again with an additional 40mg still practically no effects some underwater woozy 90s t-shit scribble type patterns and some mild nausea but nothing really that interesting. i try again the next day after doing even more research on correct smoking methods still practically no effects! i am really fucking pissed off i had incredibly high expectations for this drug. No Joe Rogan fear factor manic rants. just a totally shrug type experience.
after trying about five times to smoke it unsucccessfully i decided to snort it which i knew would be painful, but i did it anyway.
65mg up the dollar bill into the right nostril. the pain is incredible tears flow from my eyes, no blood, but the pain is really really intense. i lay back except the pain and prepare for the journey. suddenly things get really strange, underwater blurry shroom like vision, then i am over come by geometrics. the open eye visuals are very pleasing everything folds and flaps and snaps as if it is hinged onto a giant grid. i like this. like a circus of hinged boxes. i close my eyes. i see figures etched with geometric lines creatures with heads the shape of pizza boxes everything is in primary colors. slowly this aesthetic degrades and becomes more bland. i see vivid closed eye visuals but they are formless, ethereal, and hard to describe, they are not very funny or interesting to me. some things that look like the cartoon"aaaah real monsters" this annoys me. the aesthetic continues to degrade im seeing things that look like tool album covers, this really pisses me off, i keep thinking "im better than this" my mind can create more beautiful images than this cliche erowid art vault-cum-tool album cover bullshit.
there is little to no change in my thought processing light tripyness, but nothing significant. Annoyingly similar to psilocybin. i am not thinking absurd, funny, beautiful, inspirational, or creative thoughts. i am seriously pissed at my own brain. my girlfriend looks like a drawing that some bad artist at my highschool would have done, i see some rainbows some bridges, my skin appears somewhat translucent and waxy, i have macroscopic vision. i snort some vinegar to try to counteract the freebase burn, incredibly unpleasant but it did seem to neutralize the burn somewhat.
what is at the heart of my anger is i know that psychedelic drugs themselves dont give you anything, they unlock parts of your brain, usually this unlocking yields incredible beauty and awe, funny absurd thought, i pride myself my my ability to let go and think new and insane thoughts, i pride myself on creativity. this time i got angry at my brain for not showing me something that i hadn't seen before.
to summarize ive got to figure out how to smoke it right, if i snort it again i will do more like 100mg perhaps divided into two piles and snorted up each nostril simultaneously for maximum absorbtion. ive waited years to do this i wont give up but i walked away from the first attempt having gained nothing.
i finally got some DMT i load a pipe made out of a light bulb and try to vaporize 40mg and get practically no effects, i try this again with an additional 40mg still practically no effects some underwater woozy 90s t-shit scribble type patterns and some mild nausea but nothing really that interesting. i try again the next day after doing even more research on correct smoking methods still practically no effects! i am really fucking pissed off i had incredibly high expectations for this drug. No Joe Rogan fear factor manic rants. just a totally shrug type experience.
after trying about five times to smoke it unsucccessfully i decided to snort it which i knew would be painful, but i did it anyway.
65mg up the dollar bill into the right nostril. the pain is incredible tears flow from my eyes, no blood, but the pain is really really intense. i lay back except the pain and prepare for the journey. suddenly things get really strange, underwater blurry shroom like vision, then i am over come by geometrics. the open eye visuals are very pleasing everything folds and flaps and snaps as if it is hinged onto a giant grid. i like this. like a circus of hinged boxes. i close my eyes. i see figures etched with geometric lines creatures with heads the shape of pizza boxes everything is in primary colors. slowly this aesthetic degrades and becomes more bland. i see vivid closed eye visuals but they are formless, ethereal, and hard to describe, they are not very funny or interesting to me. some things that look like the cartoon"aaaah real monsters" this annoys me. the aesthetic continues to degrade im seeing things that look like tool album covers, this really pisses me off, i keep thinking "im better than this" my mind can create more beautiful images than this cliche erowid art vault-cum-tool album cover bullshit.
there is little to no change in my thought processing light tripyness, but nothing significant. Annoyingly similar to psilocybin. i am not thinking absurd, funny, beautiful, inspirational, or creative thoughts. i am seriously pissed at my own brain. my girlfriend looks like a drawing that some bad artist at my highschool would have done, i see some rainbows some bridges, my skin appears somewhat translucent and waxy, i have macroscopic vision. i snort some vinegar to try to counteract the freebase burn, incredibly unpleasant but it did seem to neutralize the burn somewhat.
what is at the heart of my anger is i know that psychedelic drugs themselves dont give you anything, they unlock parts of your brain, usually this unlocking yields incredible beauty and awe, funny absurd thought, i pride myself my my ability to let go and think new and insane thoughts, i pride myself on creativity. this time i got angry at my brain for not showing me something that i hadn't seen before.
to summarize ive got to figure out how to smoke it right, if i snort it again i will do more like 100mg perhaps divided into two piles and snorted up each nostril simultaneously for maximum absorbtion. ive waited years to do this i wont give up but i walked away from the first attempt having gained nothing.
