B9
Bluelight Crew
The following is a brief description (the best I can manage as it's fading fast) of two different "breakthrough" experiences with smoked DMT !
(hit 1 trip 1)
The freshest experience is taken from the tail end of an emotional downer !
Basically from onset to approaching breakthrough all was fine then "questions" began to be asked of myself, very deep stuff and unanswerable; except in the most basic of terms ! Basically i was forced into questioning my worth as a person (not exactly unexpected given my fragile state emotionally at the time ~ too much MD ! ) This questioning lead me to unexpected places ~ childhood etcetera ~ but moved too fast to actually glean anything concrete from it ~ such as actual events just a feeling of being a bad person !
I'm guessing ~ but I got the distinct impression of being severely reprimanded ~ but had no idea why ~ now or then I believe !
So I decided to immediately retry the pipe after I was able to half function , (why do people say wait at least an hour ? I always find that if good enough a second hit straight away is = to or more potent than the first ?? I'd agree a third is wasteful though )
(hit 2 trip 1) Expecting that I would be encountering similar "questions" as previously, I prepared myself to try and seek deeper when it happened ~ or rather didn't happen ! What I got instead was the rocket propelled journey into hyperspace as per usual ! No thoughts as such were audible/discernable but it was again emotionally turbulent (more so as the feelings from pipe 1 were still there but unfathomable as anything but extreme emotions from deep sadness to hope ~ love and confusion ! This was very very intense and put me into a very emotional/tearful state upon beginning to return to Earth ~ so to speak !
No explanations were found or given ~ I conclude that it simply accessed some deep fear and my emotional state magnified it !
Nothing not stated in Erowid ! But all the same a surprise to myself who rarely if ever seems to lose it with this sort of drug (there's a statement ready to bite me in the arse ~ if ever there was one ! )
(Trip 2 ) ~ Actually taken about 7 days previously to the aforementioned trip 1 !
Pipe was prepared and headphones applied ~ A friend was waiting to take the pipe and switch on a fantastic choice of music for this experience !
So I tokes the pipe ~ and again ~ hands it to him and settles back ! The music chosen was by some Spanish IDM (intelligent dance music) outfit ~ name unknown unfortunately !
The intense beauty and complete freedom of this experience is impossible to articulate ~ unless one has been to similar places!
At first the music and visuals began to begin to merge ~ 10 ~25 seconds(ish ?) then i was propelled into a universe comprised of huge intensely coloured musical notes ~ which I passed through ( or they through me ) with perfect synchronization to the music ~ which was a tad complex in places and unpredictable making the effect even more impressive!!!!
Ecstatic is the only word that springs to mind ~ pure sheer beauty, unrivalled ~ all my senses were simply being this music in its visual and audible and emotional (ecstatic) form ! it was like taking a trip through the universe or the galaxies of stars that inhabit parts of it with the exception that the stars were gorgeously coloured musical note shaped stars ~ immense experience ~ at one with myself and the universe !
The sheer joy is so nice as to render my (probably limited vocabulary) incapable of doing justice to the blissfulness of this experience !
In summation ~ great stuff ! But set & setting ~ as with all psychs !They need careful thought and consideration ~ on balance I feel I gained a lot even from the (yes ill advised i am aware ! ) first trip but overall the feeling i have is that a very positive one ~ the power of letting go is a blessing IMHO !!!!!
(hit 1 trip 1)
The freshest experience is taken from the tail end of an emotional downer !
Basically from onset to approaching breakthrough all was fine then "questions" began to be asked of myself, very deep stuff and unanswerable; except in the most basic of terms ! Basically i was forced into questioning my worth as a person (not exactly unexpected given my fragile state emotionally at the time ~ too much MD ! ) This questioning lead me to unexpected places ~ childhood etcetera ~ but moved too fast to actually glean anything concrete from it ~ such as actual events just a feeling of being a bad person !
I'm guessing ~ but I got the distinct impression of being severely reprimanded ~ but had no idea why ~ now or then I believe !
So I decided to immediately retry the pipe after I was able to half function , (why do people say wait at least an hour ? I always find that if good enough a second hit straight away is = to or more potent than the first ?? I'd agree a third is wasteful though )
(hit 2 trip 1) Expecting that I would be encountering similar "questions" as previously, I prepared myself to try and seek deeper when it happened ~ or rather didn't happen ! What I got instead was the rocket propelled journey into hyperspace as per usual ! No thoughts as such were audible/discernable but it was again emotionally turbulent (more so as the feelings from pipe 1 were still there but unfathomable as anything but extreme emotions from deep sadness to hope ~ love and confusion ! This was very very intense and put me into a very emotional/tearful state upon beginning to return to Earth ~ so to speak !
No explanations were found or given ~ I conclude that it simply accessed some deep fear and my emotional state magnified it !
Nothing not stated in Erowid ! But all the same a surprise to myself who rarely if ever seems to lose it with this sort of drug (there's a statement ready to bite me in the arse ~ if ever there was one ! )
(Trip 2 ) ~ Actually taken about 7 days previously to the aforementioned trip 1 !
Pipe was prepared and headphones applied ~ A friend was waiting to take the pipe and switch on a fantastic choice of music for this experience !
So I tokes the pipe ~ and again ~ hands it to him and settles back ! The music chosen was by some Spanish IDM (intelligent dance music) outfit ~ name unknown unfortunately !
The intense beauty and complete freedom of this experience is impossible to articulate ~ unless one has been to similar places!
At first the music and visuals began to begin to merge ~ 10 ~25 seconds(ish ?) then i was propelled into a universe comprised of huge intensely coloured musical notes ~ which I passed through ( or they through me ) with perfect synchronization to the music ~ which was a tad complex in places and unpredictable making the effect even more impressive!!!!
Ecstatic is the only word that springs to mind ~ pure sheer beauty, unrivalled ~ all my senses were simply being this music in its visual and audible and emotional (ecstatic) form ! it was like taking a trip through the universe or the galaxies of stars that inhabit parts of it with the exception that the stars were gorgeously coloured musical note shaped stars ~ immense experience ~ at one with myself and the universe !
The sheer joy is so nice as to render my (probably limited vocabulary) incapable of doing justice to the blissfulness of this experience !
In summation ~ great stuff ! But set & setting ~ as with all psychs !They need careful thought and consideration ~ on balance I feel I gained a lot even from the (yes ill advised i am aware ! ) first trip but overall the feeling i have is that a very positive one ~ the power of letting go is a blessing IMHO !!!!!
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