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Bluelighter
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- Sep 16, 2012
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Lately I've been obsessing about doing DMT again. I didn't feel like I went far enough in my last 3 trips, although I definitely went to that familiar place - hyperdimensional carnival/circus with entities interacting with the space and me in a bizarre and ineffable manner.
However, I'm also intensely apprehensive about doing DMT again, the anxiety being so bad that I'm losing sleep just thinking about it. I want to do DMT again just to get it out of the way, so I don't have to worry about it anymore, and so I can beat this insomnia that I'm having. Last night I had one of the worst sleeps, and in the 2/3 hours I did sleep, I dreamt about trying to smoke DMT but various circumstances stopped me from doing so. The trouble is is that I live with my parents and brother, so I would rather not blast off when they're in the house, making noise, wanting to come into my room etc.
This obsession and intense apprehension happened after the first time I smoked DMT as well. I wanted to try it again, but the fear was too intense that I never bit the bullet. Eventually, some time after that first trip, I got the craving to smoke DMT again, not to dispel my fear of it, but out of curiosity.
I was wondering if anyone has had a similar experience or has advice on what to do. Should I smoke DMT again, essentially to stop the worrying and beat the insomnia, or should I give it some time and approach it when (or if) my attitude changes?
Thanks
However, I'm also intensely apprehensive about doing DMT again, the anxiety being so bad that I'm losing sleep just thinking about it. I want to do DMT again just to get it out of the way, so I don't have to worry about it anymore, and so I can beat this insomnia that I'm having. Last night I had one of the worst sleeps, and in the 2/3 hours I did sleep, I dreamt about trying to smoke DMT but various circumstances stopped me from doing so. The trouble is is that I live with my parents and brother, so I would rather not blast off when they're in the house, making noise, wanting to come into my room etc.
This obsession and intense apprehension happened after the first time I smoked DMT as well. I wanted to try it again, but the fear was too intense that I never bit the bullet. Eventually, some time after that first trip, I got the craving to smoke DMT again, not to dispel my fear of it, but out of curiosity.
I was wondering if anyone has had a similar experience or has advice on what to do. Should I smoke DMT again, essentially to stop the worrying and beat the insomnia, or should I give it some time and approach it when (or if) my attitude changes?
Thanks