The ketamine, though I agree is not necessarily a good drug for the body or mind, despite some of the articles you'll read on the net...anyway, the ketamine ironically was what slowed it all down enough for me to actually communicate, rather than being shown flashes of it or being told "we won't let you remember," etc. like it always is for me other times. I've had many close contacts with this being before, but every time some beautiful vision or some ever-changing thought or realization of some other kind would distract me, and then it's lost. Sometimes I even get the feeling there is an "evil" force also trying to distract me from communicating. I've heard many others say the same duality existed in their trips. This time was different. And like I said in my OP, whether it was actually "god" or just my own mind expaned so far open that I was able to understand things on a far deeper level, it doesn't matter, in fact I almost even knew at the time I was communicating with my own brain and not an outside force...but who's to say that god doesn't exist within each of us to begin with, and instead of "talking" to god, we are just reaching the depths of our consciousness to the point where we can communicate through our own selves, understand & see what we couldn't sober...then it's STILL god....if that makes sense haha.
Either way, the message sent to me was all good, all positive in nature,'good advice for being a more healthy and sober person, etc. along with some potential clues for the forces in the universe beyond our comprehension.... So whether it's god or not, it's still God, even if just the "light" of god being shined on us, or whatever...ya dig?