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DMT - Experienced - Remeber you are always loved

bikki_muncher69

bikki_muncher69

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Last night I had one of the most profound experiences of my life, the night started off with typical drinking and planning to go out to a club but ended up going to this dudes house. Started drinking and chatting and found out this guy was an awakened tripper, next thing I know some dmt has been found and offered to me and my friend. I get the hit in a bong and the dose i was given was devinely perfect, the DMT was an Mixed wattle extract. I hit the bong hard and deep and did a nice inhalation, held it in for about 30 seconds and slowly exhaled. Instantly my consiousness expanded and my ego was still intact but i became the true I AM.

When I closed my eyes i saw the devine mother and father flowing past me holding me within them within infinity, I have never felt so much love in my entire life, the song that was playing synced perfectly with the trip and can be downloaded from my ftp at ftp://jono: [email protected] <-- (You will have to take the space out of where password is) its called andy moore - halcyon. The dude who was catering the trip for me and my friend had a interdimensional entity channeled through him which had bothered me on acid trips and caused me to suffer psychosis, I learnt that these beings feed on fear, the being tested me and said your eternall soul can be destroyed, i replied saying that even if that was the case and i was nothing i would still be aware of the infinate because spacelessness knows space and that nothing ios everything and everything is nothing, it is the pure unconditional love of the universe both choatic and serene. I learnt that fear and love are exactly the same thing as they are still part of the source which esentially is love.

I have also been suffering head pressure as a result of abuse of drugs which was baught on one time when i smoked weed and became horribly unaligned. The devine earth mother caressed every aeon of my being and kissed me on my 3rd eye and said "this is my gift to you child no matter what you do you are allways loved and there is no seperation" and I felt somthing leave my head, today I woke up with no head pressure.

This trip blew every other psychedelic trip ive ever had out of the water and was utterly life changeing, shattered my ego, but repeiced it back in a way that can only be described as devine. Every waking moment of my life is beautiful wether it be good and bad. Can only keep spreading love

Today is the first day of the rest of my life
 
bikki_muncher69 said:
I learnt that fear and love are exactly the same thing as they are still part of the source which esentially is love.
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An amazonian shaman said me quiet the same thing as you typed, the day I asked him what was the source for hate, fear, destruction, misery, .... And he
answered that the good and the bad are the two faces of the same coin. You can't imagine love without hate, even if I have the impression that you're going a little bit further by saying that the source is the same.

The title of your post remembered my some of my own trips, using different kind of methods. Sometimes a feeling of love can come into your heart and your mind, making you feel that "everything is in it's right place", kind of feeling
that remains even when the trip finished, a feeling that even the most cynical persons are able to feel. Anyway, an inspiring experience.
 
bikki_muncher69 said:
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
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Beautiful! Congratuations, man! I'm very glad that you got to have this kind of a peak psychedelic experience. Now just remember that real lasting change comes from the sober integration of it into your daily life, and that trying to reach that state again too often is counterproductive.
 
I'm happy for you bikki I really am, but what does it mean that fear and love are the same thing, both being made from love? Fear I perceive as something negative, it doesn't make people feel good, love on the other hand I see as almost polar opposite.
 
I have also been suffering head pressure as a result of abuse of drugs which was baught on one time when i smoked weed and became horribly unaligned. The devine earth mother caressed every aeon of my being and kissed me on my 3rd eye and said "this is my gift to you child no matter what you do you are allways loved and there is no seperation" and I felt somthing leave my head, today I woke up with no head pressure.

I've read your posts about suffering from head pressure and was feeling sorry for you cause of it but glad to hear its gone!! Great report. Whoever said that 'drugs only mask problems?' They don't know wtf they're on about...yeah, some drugs you use just to get fucked can only mask them, but drugs like these can change you for the better in the long term!
 
^^ literally.

My friend who went schizophrenic after a 3+ day meth binge, well long story, his "self" was pulled apart, 4 voices etc..

After a year and a half, smoked ONE hit of DMT, and everything "went back together"..

said it felt like "everything went back together again", and the "feeling" in the back of his head - thats always been there since the schizophrenia, was gone. The voices were gone, he said he felt like his true "self" again, it basically CURED his schizophrenia - ONE HIT.
 
maybe it has to do with DMT being the 1 endogenous psychedelic that we know of?
 
My first time with DMT was like that! Once you know that smell/taste you never forget it ;-) I HATE LSD and even mushrooms arn't too good for me but DMT is the single best drug ever. I cannot figure why in a world with DMT we see it so infrequently. When 5-MeO DMT was legal I made some. I thought it was yuk, like being stamped on. Methyl Ethyl Tryptamine is a close second, BTW.
 
bikki_muncher69 said:
utterly life changeing, shattered my ego, but repeiced it back in a way that can only be described as devine. Every waking moment of my life is beautiful wether it be good and bad. Can only keep spreading love

Today is the first day of the rest of my life
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Me too, my friend. A spell more than a year ago I tried oral DMT (I agree with MGS's opinion on what is and what is not actually Aya...) I have never been so utterly helpless. I was pulled apart. I was scared like I 've never been. There was something in my house, in my room, in my head. I had my loving gf and my dogs come sit with me while I closed my eyes and dissolved into this infinite and eternal living energy. I was turned inside out like I travelled to the ends of the universe and folded back on myself. I was wrung out, all the crazy weird energy that stores itself in the body was squeezed up. I still feel better today. I still feel more aligned, more centered, more compassionate, more beautiful. I really think I awoke to something, like you said, that day was the first day... .

If there were more of us I'd say welcome home. But I don't think I need to.;)
 
Nice one Bikki. And if the positive feeling ever wears off, just take some more. As someone once said, the truly incredible thing about DMT is that as well being so beautiful it's also good for you :D
 
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