Baker
Bluelighter
DMT: 55mg
8:30pm Had my first toke, trying to hold it in before I started getting my second hit ready, by the time it comes around for my second pull, I can hardly see the pipe as a single form, I’m seeing loads of tracers and geometrical patterns starting to infiltrate my vision. I light the second one and suck it deep trying to hold it in, but it’s trying to be pushed out, I eventually cough it out, but quickly try to pull a third before I can’t hold I can’t focus enough and lay down and eventually exhale and switch off the light
8:34pm after the initial intenseness of flashing hallucinations passed, got up and took 4th toke to assure I’d smoked all that was in the pipe. Instantly I was rocketed back to a place that felt much like I do on Salvia, it felt like all these doors were opening and closing inside my brain. I was looking at these boards that were opening and closing that made me feel like I was folding up as they were swinging past me. It felt like there were parts of my body with bad energy, through poor chi flow (I hadn’t done any yoga, stretching or exercise that day) and there were parts of me receiving extremely positive energy to my head. The hallucinations continued and I started to realize that the positive energy was coming from my open window next to my head. Everything that was fresh and natural felt like positive energy and everything in my room that was man-made was stale and filled with negative energy. I suddenly had images of living away from it all in a tiny shack in the middle of nowhere and living a minimalist lifestyle away from society in my own little world amongst nature. These images eventually turned into strong geometric patterns again and then flowed down to what felt like a brief 7g mushroom trip.
8:44 when I next looked at my clock and just stared at it for a while zoning in and out of contemplation wondering what to do with this fleeting insights I just had.
8:50 I felt able to get up and walk around, but still had lingering spacey effects
9pm to 9:30 was still feeling a little psychedelic like how one feels after LSD wheres off but is still energized
10pm I feel completely down with perhaps a mild headache and slightly sore lungs.
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Reflections
It really felt like all society does is close ourselves off from nature and as a result live longer, but the longer we live the further we hide away from our spirituality and the more afraid we become of death. Using this analogy, I hate the smell of new car, could it be because I know it’s carcinogenic, or is it because there is practically no life in there, no balance of yin and yang at all. Living with the constant possibility of being wiped out, one cell isn’t able to rapidly multiply and eventually take over all its surrounding cells. I too have thought very heavily about the idea of humans being cancer before. During a heavy acid trip and a pile of weed, I think I had my first breakthrough, where I realized the shear infinite nature of the universe. And one possibility I thought up was that our solar system is in the process of translation as our complex structures uses the amino acids (the arrangement of the sun, planets and moons to create DNA. We are part of an organism and so are all the other stars around us. But the part that opens up to infinity is not this concept, but that if possible that this is able to exist and that we can transcend into this higher being that we are actually only a slight fragment of its make up, we are able to hide within the depths of ourselves transcend into other beings. But instead essentially travel as far as we want, as there is no ending to it all. The DNA travels in both directions forever, it exists without time, it is unaffected by size, it is unaffected by all worldly measures that we bind to it… It is infinite, we only superficially try to understand what we can see using science, but if we can see the depth with which we can see within ourselves, there is entire infinite universe to be assumed to be inside ourselves while simultaneously there is infinite universes outside ourselves too in space, above the creatures we are a part of. But to think in just backwards and forwards motions is primitive as true infinity extends beyond every dimension one could possibly think of.
Infinity was the insight that I had on 2 microdots of LSD and some strong marijuana, but it is one that I am constantly reminded of in my following trips, just never quite as humbled, which is why I think I find DMT not to live up to expectations, even though it is up there with ketamine and salvia with most effective distance from my own consciousness I have achieved, I think I have travelled further down the rabbit hole of perception on that one trip of LSD and since then, tripping has always been relatively simple.
It was that trip that pushed me into Buddhism, Taoism, spiritual searching and clearer more positive approaches to living my life and mindfulness. The Buddha says, "Do not accept anything through mere faith because it will make it difficult for you to understand the truth, because that faith can make you a blind follower.” And I take that to mean, truth is infinite and trying to place meaning on infinity is impossible all one can ever hope to accomplish is to be infinite, and find harmony between chaos and order, yin and yang, female into male. Instead of getting distracted by worldly pleasures. Sadly it’s worldly pleasures that hurt our soul. Psychedelic drugs are like doorways into realizing how much of our lives are based around worldly pleasures, but I think it’s quite easy to replace the need to get rid of them by continuing their use as a form of reminding ourselves that we are dealing with this subconscious desires that need to be dealt with. But psychedelics don’t run with us and so I think in the end I must leave psychedelic drugs and the hedonistic ones too of course and attempt a healthier life of meditation and clear thinking.
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8:30pm Had my first toke, trying to hold it in before I started getting my second hit ready, by the time it comes around for my second pull, I can hardly see the pipe as a single form, I’m seeing loads of tracers and geometrical patterns starting to infiltrate my vision. I light the second one and suck it deep trying to hold it in, but it’s trying to be pushed out, I eventually cough it out, but quickly try to pull a third before I can’t hold I can’t focus enough and lay down and eventually exhale and switch off the light
8:34pm after the initial intenseness of flashing hallucinations passed, got up and took 4th toke to assure I’d smoked all that was in the pipe. Instantly I was rocketed back to a place that felt much like I do on Salvia, it felt like all these doors were opening and closing inside my brain. I was looking at these boards that were opening and closing that made me feel like I was folding up as they were swinging past me. It felt like there were parts of my body with bad energy, through poor chi flow (I hadn’t done any yoga, stretching or exercise that day) and there were parts of me receiving extremely positive energy to my head. The hallucinations continued and I started to realize that the positive energy was coming from my open window next to my head. Everything that was fresh and natural felt like positive energy and everything in my room that was man-made was stale and filled with negative energy. I suddenly had images of living away from it all in a tiny shack in the middle of nowhere and living a minimalist lifestyle away from society in my own little world amongst nature. These images eventually turned into strong geometric patterns again and then flowed down to what felt like a brief 7g mushroom trip.
8:44 when I next looked at my clock and just stared at it for a while zoning in and out of contemplation wondering what to do with this fleeting insights I just had.
8:50 I felt able to get up and walk around, but still had lingering spacey effects
9pm to 9:30 was still feeling a little psychedelic like how one feels after LSD wheres off but is still energized
10pm I feel completely down with perhaps a mild headache and slightly sore lungs.
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Reflections
It really felt like all society does is close ourselves off from nature and as a result live longer, but the longer we live the further we hide away from our spirituality and the more afraid we become of death. Using this analogy, I hate the smell of new car, could it be because I know it’s carcinogenic, or is it because there is practically no life in there, no balance of yin and yang at all. Living with the constant possibility of being wiped out, one cell isn’t able to rapidly multiply and eventually take over all its surrounding cells. I too have thought very heavily about the idea of humans being cancer before. During a heavy acid trip and a pile of weed, I think I had my first breakthrough, where I realized the shear infinite nature of the universe. And one possibility I thought up was that our solar system is in the process of translation as our complex structures uses the amino acids (the arrangement of the sun, planets and moons to create DNA. We are part of an organism and so are all the other stars around us. But the part that opens up to infinity is not this concept, but that if possible that this is able to exist and that we can transcend into this higher being that we are actually only a slight fragment of its make up, we are able to hide within the depths of ourselves transcend into other beings. But instead essentially travel as far as we want, as there is no ending to it all. The DNA travels in both directions forever, it exists without time, it is unaffected by size, it is unaffected by all worldly measures that we bind to it… It is infinite, we only superficially try to understand what we can see using science, but if we can see the depth with which we can see within ourselves, there is entire infinite universe to be assumed to be inside ourselves while simultaneously there is infinite universes outside ourselves too in space, above the creatures we are a part of. But to think in just backwards and forwards motions is primitive as true infinity extends beyond every dimension one could possibly think of.
Infinity was the insight that I had on 2 microdots of LSD and some strong marijuana, but it is one that I am constantly reminded of in my following trips, just never quite as humbled, which is why I think I find DMT not to live up to expectations, even though it is up there with ketamine and salvia with most effective distance from my own consciousness I have achieved, I think I have travelled further down the rabbit hole of perception on that one trip of LSD and since then, tripping has always been relatively simple.
It was that trip that pushed me into Buddhism, Taoism, spiritual searching and clearer more positive approaches to living my life and mindfulness. The Buddha says, "Do not accept anything through mere faith because it will make it difficult for you to understand the truth, because that faith can make you a blind follower.” And I take that to mean, truth is infinite and trying to place meaning on infinity is impossible all one can ever hope to accomplish is to be infinite, and find harmony between chaos and order, yin and yang, female into male. Instead of getting distracted by worldly pleasures. Sadly it’s worldly pleasures that hurt our soul. Psychedelic drugs are like doorways into realizing how much of our lives are based around worldly pleasures, but I think it’s quite easy to replace the need to get rid of them by continuing their use as a form of reminding ourselves that we are dealing with this subconscious desires that need to be dealt with. But psychedelics don’t run with us and so I think in the end I must leave psychedelic drugs and the hedonistic ones too of course and attempt a healthier life of meditation and clear thinking.
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