4thAndGone
Bluelighter
I would like to start by saying that I am not one to write trip reports. To date, this will be my first, so hopefully you will accept it for what it is! 
I was introduced to DMT at an amazing outdoor festival at the beginning of this summer. It was of less than desirable quality, but it opened up a yearning to experience the drug further. 2 months after my first encounter a friend of mine extracted a large yield of DMT from Mimosa Hostilis root bark. I was given the chance to sample his product a number of times before I decided to purchase one gram for personal exploration. I would like to note that I am very experienced with 5-meo-dmt, which probably left me feeling overconfident prior to the trip. This isn't the same animal and I shouldn't have approached it with that attitude. This was the first of what will be many journeys to come.
I hadn't really planned on smoking any last night, but spontaneity is common with my drug use. I had gotten off work a couple of hours prior and bummed around my apartment, the thought of a journey hovering in the back of my mind. At 2:00a.m. I decided that there was something to be learned and I weighed out 60mg on my mg scale. I turned on Telefon Tel Aviv-Immolate Yourself, a CD that I recommend you check out, regardless of your taste in music. Charlies untimely death after its release only adds to the weight of the music. I meditated on the act I was about to commit for a couple of minutes and then slowly lowered the flame into the bowl of my pipe. Ah... the taste of DMT filled my lungs.
I had about 5 seconds to realize that I might have gone in over my head. A sense of unmeasurable dread suddenly came over me as I looked down the hallway out of my room. Standing in the door was a dark silhouette, a stranger in my home. Instinctively I shied away and covered my eyes, panic threatening to overtake me...
"Don't be afraid"
A thought, not my own, was transmitted into my mind. Gathering courage, I opened my eyes and was greeted with pure joy. The silhouette was gone and the familiarity of my room had melted away and transformed into something new. A new universe built of perfect geometry. No faults, just perfect geometry kaleidoscopic across my visual field.
"Don't be afraid"
This phrase repeated itself in my mind. The past couple months have been a difficult time for me. I am living in a emotionally difficult situation involving my brother and his girlfriend. Questions involving my personality, sexuality, and beliefs have been tormenting me. Not knowing who you are is a difficult thing. My solution was to wall myself off with fear and depression. It has now been lifted.
"Don't be afraid"
Don't be afraid to be myself? Don't be afraid to express myself as I feel I must? Don't be afraid to BE! I burst into tears at this realization. My mind has been my worst enemy, stalling any development of self. How can one move forward if they are hell bent on holding themselves back?
I will hold this message, this gift, at heart as I progress away from this experience. Perhaps this has given me the tool I need to answer the questions that have been bothering me to such an extent.
I apologize for the lack intricate detail but it happened so quick that it is hard to paint a good image for the reader. I am sure you will understand.
Thank you for reading :D
I was introduced to DMT at an amazing outdoor festival at the beginning of this summer. It was of less than desirable quality, but it opened up a yearning to experience the drug further. 2 months after my first encounter a friend of mine extracted a large yield of DMT from Mimosa Hostilis root bark. I was given the chance to sample his product a number of times before I decided to purchase one gram for personal exploration. I would like to note that I am very experienced with 5-meo-dmt, which probably left me feeling overconfident prior to the trip. This isn't the same animal and I shouldn't have approached it with that attitude. This was the first of what will be many journeys to come.
I hadn't really planned on smoking any last night, but spontaneity is common with my drug use. I had gotten off work a couple of hours prior and bummed around my apartment, the thought of a journey hovering in the back of my mind. At 2:00a.m. I decided that there was something to be learned and I weighed out 60mg on my mg scale. I turned on Telefon Tel Aviv-Immolate Yourself, a CD that I recommend you check out, regardless of your taste in music. Charlies untimely death after its release only adds to the weight of the music. I meditated on the act I was about to commit for a couple of minutes and then slowly lowered the flame into the bowl of my pipe. Ah... the taste of DMT filled my lungs.
I had about 5 seconds to realize that I might have gone in over my head. A sense of unmeasurable dread suddenly came over me as I looked down the hallway out of my room. Standing in the door was a dark silhouette, a stranger in my home. Instinctively I shied away and covered my eyes, panic threatening to overtake me...
"Don't be afraid"
A thought, not my own, was transmitted into my mind. Gathering courage, I opened my eyes and was greeted with pure joy. The silhouette was gone and the familiarity of my room had melted away and transformed into something new. A new universe built of perfect geometry. No faults, just perfect geometry kaleidoscopic across my visual field.
"Don't be afraid"
This phrase repeated itself in my mind. The past couple months have been a difficult time for me. I am living in a emotionally difficult situation involving my brother and his girlfriend. Questions involving my personality, sexuality, and beliefs have been tormenting me. Not knowing who you are is a difficult thing. My solution was to wall myself off with fear and depression. It has now been lifted.
"Don't be afraid"
Don't be afraid to be myself? Don't be afraid to express myself as I feel I must? Don't be afraid to BE! I burst into tears at this realization. My mind has been my worst enemy, stalling any development of self. How can one move forward if they are hell bent on holding themselves back?
I will hold this message, this gift, at heart as I progress away from this experience. Perhaps this has given me the tool I need to answer the questions that have been bothering me to such an extent.
I apologize for the lack intricate detail but it happened so quick that it is hard to paint a good image for the reader. I am sure you will understand.
Thank you for reading :D
