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beengerman

beengerman

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Who here is ready to dive headfirst back into drugs and smash there head on the rocks?

Anyone who has been sober for some time and fucking ready to give it up ,

Whats keeps you going?
 
Nothing keeps me going, I just wake up every day and everything is still here, everything is still all just going on, it doesn't seem to require any effort on my part.

As for smashing my head onto the rocks, I don't really get that analogy, it doesn't sound like any of the experiences I've has altering my consciousness with drugs nor something I would shoot for, can you explain a bit more what you mean by this.
 
I did before, I did this last month, worst than any month of my life. I had a 48 hour binge on MXE, then well 5.5 grams of 6-apb is gone, I bought all of it "THIS SHOULD LAST FOREVER" Nope, It's all gone, pretty surprising. Glad I didn't get back on my old drugs. I even made a huge progress for me. Gave someone back a Klonipin for the first time ever. I handed someone back a benzo.
 
I hope none of you make the decision to relapse, because I'd hate to see you all fall back into the pains of your addiction. Drugs are still only a temporary solution with an outcome that will end up leaving you more hurt, especially with a relapse.
 
Concentrating on how messed up my life would surely be by now if I hadn't made the intelligent decision to quit...I don't necessarily really believe it, but I know it. You know where you are now without drugs but you have no clue how deep you might have sunk with them.
 
Expect it to be hard. 4 months clean is amazing, you need to learn to appreciate life without drugs :) Keep up the good work, and you'll start to see life hopefully pay off for itself.
 
I just came back from "diving in head first". It always seems like such a good idea and seems like its gonna be different this time and be so fun all again. But it never is. Once youve gone so far with drugs and addiction. The fun has gone out the window, and every time is gonna be the same if not worse than before. I can comfortably smoke some pot and drink and have a good time. But when I thow some dope in the mix, some coke or anyother hard drug shit starts to turn to shit real fast and before I can stop it I realize why the urge to be sober is strong in addicts. There IS a reason we all strive for sobriety.
 
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