suki_lives
Bluelighter
I've been sat in the dock for two days now
Hands cuffed behind me with chains of words
Monstrous policemen pushing me down
Heavy hands on sore shoulders
You just cannot see
That what you think
I did not do
Pain like the judge's gavel smashing through my heart
It's nearly five years
Since we met
And still you do not see me
Well, maybe you do
But only through a hall of mirrors
Distorted
The accusations held against me are false
The charges are unfair
But I have no proof
Even my heart is not enough evidence for you
You don't see the girl who has waltzed with you
Through thunder and through glorious sun
Never letting go of your hands even when you wanted to let go
Always standing at your shoulder waiting
For a chance to ask you to dance again
I live in fear now
Unable to return to my home
Hiding in a house of childhood memories
On my own with nobody to hear my tears
See the dark circles under my eyes
A crease developing for every hour I do not sleep
Because I am haunted by an unforgiving jury
Who don't have all the facts
You're unable to see that it has always been
And will always be
Only your face in my heart
Even when you've walked away
I've kept walking behind you
Trying to catch up
I've always tried to give you all that's in me
Poetry, art, music and love
If I wanted anybody else
I wouldn't be giving it all to you
There's a distinction between friendship and love
You are love
You have always been love
You will always be love
All that I can do is carry your memory in my heart
I'm safe in the knowledge that my love was true
But I will crumble like dust inside
Because you will never believe me
Even after all we've been through
Even though I've always fought for us
Even though I'd do anything to prove that my heart was always true to you
You will never see my tears or feel my hurt
There's just no way of changing a mind that's been made up
By misinformation
There was no post-coital guilt
Because there was no coitus
Nothing
And even if I never get the chance to show you or make you understand
I will find a way of proving that you were wrong about me
I am not the monster you think I am
If I could get down on bloodied knees
If I could rip my heart out and show you its contents
Then maybe you would see that you are the only one in there
That I did not betray you
Nor laugh at you
Nor use you
You will never believe that nobody
Could ever match the measure of you
But all I can do now is lay my head in my hands and howl out my grief
At a bond killed by something that did not happen.
(youwillnevereverknowthatyouhadmeforeverandthatithasalwaysbeenyouilovedandiwouldneverforsakeyouforanyreasonandyouwillnevereverknowthatiworshippedyouandthatevenifyouwouldntcommitistillthoughtofyouasmypartner)
You were, and always will be, the love of my life and the king of my heart.
Hands cuffed behind me with chains of words
Monstrous policemen pushing me down
Heavy hands on sore shoulders
You just cannot see
That what you think
I did not do
Pain like the judge's gavel smashing through my heart
It's nearly five years
Since we met
And still you do not see me
Well, maybe you do
But only through a hall of mirrors
Distorted
The accusations held against me are false
The charges are unfair
But I have no proof
Even my heart is not enough evidence for you
You don't see the girl who has waltzed with you
Through thunder and through glorious sun
Never letting go of your hands even when you wanted to let go
Always standing at your shoulder waiting
For a chance to ask you to dance again
I live in fear now
Unable to return to my home
Hiding in a house of childhood memories
On my own with nobody to hear my tears
See the dark circles under my eyes
A crease developing for every hour I do not sleep
Because I am haunted by an unforgiving jury
Who don't have all the facts
You're unable to see that it has always been
And will always be
Only your face in my heart
Even when you've walked away
I've kept walking behind you
Trying to catch up
I've always tried to give you all that's in me
Poetry, art, music and love
If I wanted anybody else
I wouldn't be giving it all to you
There's a distinction between friendship and love
You are love
You have always been love
You will always be love
All that I can do is carry your memory in my heart
I'm safe in the knowledge that my love was true
But I will crumble like dust inside
Because you will never believe me
Even after all we've been through
Even though I've always fought for us
Even though I'd do anything to prove that my heart was always true to you
You will never see my tears or feel my hurt
There's just no way of changing a mind that's been made up
By misinformation
There was no post-coital guilt
Because there was no coitus
Nothing
And even if I never get the chance to show you or make you understand
I will find a way of proving that you were wrong about me
I am not the monster you think I am
If I could get down on bloodied knees
If I could rip my heart out and show you its contents
Then maybe you would see that you are the only one in there
That I did not betray you
Nor laugh at you
Nor use you
You will never believe that nobody
Could ever match the measure of you
But all I can do now is lay my head in my hands and howl out my grief
At a bond killed by something that did not happen.
(youwillnevereverknowthatyouhadmeforeverandthatithasalwaysbeenyouilovedandiwouldneverforsakeyouforanyreasonandyouwillnevereverknowthatiworshippedyouandthatevenifyouwouldntcommitistillthoughtofyouasmypartner)
You were, and always will be, the love of my life and the king of my heart.
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