Ok so let me start by letting you know my past drug use and also letting you know that I've never had a psychotic episode up until now and with a specific dissociative.
Past dissociative use..
DXM.. over 200 trips dosage ranged between 200 and 1000, never had a direct problem with the drug. never did enough to hole though
MXE.. real 2 hour long MXE. guessing 50 trips with about 5 M-holes, never had a problem with the dissociative, or controlling myself while I was holed
4-meo-pcp, a few trips, no problems
3-meo-pce, 20 trips and roughly 5 holes, no direct problems or problems controlling myself while I was in the hole
Alright now we come to a couple months ago in september, I found a seemingly promising non UK MXE vendor, you guess where i went from there.
At first after testing my first dose of the new stuff a couple times, because it had been so long since I did MXE i was convinced it was real MXE.. well no. the three major differences were:
1. 40 Minute duration before coming down. instead of 2 hours.
2. More gentle, aka weaker dopamine re-updake inhbor.
3. dosage was about between 1.5-2x greater than MXE,
Ill also note the appearance and the smell were exactly what I remembered real MXE being, obviously this isn't though..?
I still liked it though and i thought it was worth it, until something happened.. I'm still not exactly sure wether it was the substance.. or me? it happened 3 times but it wasnt until the third time that it got me into trouble.
lets talk about the first time, right when I was so high on it that It felt like I was nearing the hole is when this weird thing takes place, I was biking on a back trail, tripping as usual, effects still increasing, when suddenly I go into this state of mind where... I lose control? I thought a spiritual event was taking place and I was here to save the world(or something like that) and there was these curtain actions I must do, it was almost like... something was controlling me, the first time this happened it lasted... maybe 5 mins, after that 5 mins when I started gaining my control back I came to a stop, somewhat in shock saying to myself "what just happened" "mind control?"
I won't talk about the other two times because I think this explains enough. was this a psychotic episode? I don't know... was it the substance? I would like to think so but still not 100 percent sure.. Was it me? and the three times this happened it would happen at a cirtain level of peak, maybe not right before the Hole but somewhere up there..
Has anyone ever had anything like this or heard about it or have any idea why or what this is...?
Thank you for any help or insight!!
Past dissociative use..
DXM.. over 200 trips dosage ranged between 200 and 1000, never had a direct problem with the drug. never did enough to hole though
MXE.. real 2 hour long MXE. guessing 50 trips with about 5 M-holes, never had a problem with the dissociative, or controlling myself while I was holed
4-meo-pcp, a few trips, no problems
3-meo-pce, 20 trips and roughly 5 holes, no direct problems or problems controlling myself while I was in the hole
Alright now we come to a couple months ago in september, I found a seemingly promising non UK MXE vendor, you guess where i went from there.
At first after testing my first dose of the new stuff a couple times, because it had been so long since I did MXE i was convinced it was real MXE.. well no. the three major differences were:
1. 40 Minute duration before coming down. instead of 2 hours.
2. More gentle, aka weaker dopamine re-updake inhbor.
3. dosage was about between 1.5-2x greater than MXE,
Ill also note the appearance and the smell were exactly what I remembered real MXE being, obviously this isn't though..?
I still liked it though and i thought it was worth it, until something happened.. I'm still not exactly sure wether it was the substance.. or me? it happened 3 times but it wasnt until the third time that it got me into trouble.
lets talk about the first time, right when I was so high on it that It felt like I was nearing the hole is when this weird thing takes place, I was biking on a back trail, tripping as usual, effects still increasing, when suddenly I go into this state of mind where... I lose control? I thought a spiritual event was taking place and I was here to save the world(or something like that) and there was these curtain actions I must do, it was almost like... something was controlling me, the first time this happened it lasted... maybe 5 mins, after that 5 mins when I started gaining my control back I came to a stop, somewhat in shock saying to myself "what just happened" "mind control?"
I won't talk about the other two times because I think this explains enough. was this a psychotic episode? I don't know... was it the substance? I would like to think so but still not 100 percent sure.. Was it me? and the three times this happened it would happen at a cirtain level of peak, maybe not right before the Hole but somewhere up there..
Has anyone ever had anything like this or heard about it or have any idea why or what this is...?
Thank you for any help or insight!!
