clue_liss
Bluelighter
It’s all so clear yet I don’t want to believe it.
Self is powered by self
Motivated by self
Driven by self
I don’t care about the money you never returned
The promises you broke
The times you let me down
When I cut my own wrists
And you didn’t talk to me because I didn’t feel like going out the next week.
It doesn’t worry me that I am not a part of your life
Unless you need a shopping partner
Or are short of cash
Or need sympathy
But
When you start to hurt those that are even closer to you
The few family members you have left
I cringe inside
I know you have been through a lot
But for gods sakes your brother has lost his parents too
Why is it ok for you to treat him like dirt
Has he not felt the same agony as you?
Take care of yourself, YES
Make your health and happiness your priority
BUT
Don’t push away the people you need the most
How much longer do you think they will be your punching bag?
And
Someday you might find that
You will be alone
And the pain will be yours to bear
In utter isolation
As bad as things may seem
The world actually owes you nothing
We all have our pain
Our pretences
We all hurt
Take from me all I have to offer you…
But stop pretending you feel more pain than anybody ever has
MY disappointment in you scares me
I am so tempted to turn my back on you
Disolve into one of your miserable memories
But fortunately for you
I care too much
and my annoying optimism and faith in humanity always comes back and changes my perceptions.
[ 13 August 2002: Message edited by: clue_liss ]
[ 13 August 2002: Message edited by: clue_liss ]
Self is powered by self
Motivated by self
Driven by self
I don’t care about the money you never returned
The promises you broke
The times you let me down
When I cut my own wrists
And you didn’t talk to me because I didn’t feel like going out the next week.
It doesn’t worry me that I am not a part of your life
Unless you need a shopping partner
Or are short of cash
Or need sympathy
But
When you start to hurt those that are even closer to you
The few family members you have left
I cringe inside
I know you have been through a lot
But for gods sakes your brother has lost his parents too
Why is it ok for you to treat him like dirt
Has he not felt the same agony as you?
Take care of yourself, YES
Make your health and happiness your priority
BUT
Don’t push away the people you need the most
How much longer do you think they will be your punching bag?
And
Someday you might find that
You will be alone
And the pain will be yours to bear
In utter isolation
As bad as things may seem
The world actually owes you nothing
We all have our pain
Our pretences
We all hurt
Take from me all I have to offer you…
But stop pretending you feel more pain than anybody ever has
MY disappointment in you scares me
I am so tempted to turn my back on you
Disolve into one of your miserable memories
But fortunately for you
I care too much
and my annoying optimism and faith in humanity always comes back and changes my perceptions.
[ 13 August 2002: Message edited by: clue_liss ]
[ 13 August 2002: Message edited by: clue_liss ]
