I don't know where I'm going... My lifes been at a dead end for awhile. I don't even know what I want anymore... What I'm looking for out of life if anything at all? Sometimes I just want to pack a backpack and leave. I've been thinking about it for awhile now and I think I may just do it. After January 25th I have no obligations except for going to work whenever I'm scheduled but I've been thinking fuck it lately. Why go to work anymore? I just need to leave but then I tell myself no you can't throw that away. Yet, being where I am now is not helping and I hate having to drag myself out of bed to only live a life I don't care to live.. No not a suicidal comment but I want more out of life. I want to do the things I was going to do but I don't think I can accomplish it where I am now. So I'm going to decide whether or not I'm going to just leave. Leave all this bullshit behind and actually live for me and not for others.
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I want to leave this area.... The only reason I live in this god forsaken place is because I ended up homeless and I really just hate it here. I also want to go to university like I was suppose to. Right now I feel like a failure and I have nothing going on in life.
I won't leave my job like that, at least I hope not... But more and more, each and everyday do I want to pick up and leave. Without saying goodbye or without anyone knowing where I go.
I won't leave my job like that, at least I hope not... But more and more, each and everyday do I want to pick up and leave. Without saying goodbye or without anyone knowing where I go.
I'm not going to do this just yet... I'm thinking about what I'm going to do right now. I don't know if leaving my job will be smart but I don't even want to stay in this place so I guess it doesn't matter. Yeah, I can be assistant manager soon but I really don't know if I should just stay here because of that. And I always get in a phase like this but each time the idea becomes more and more of a possibility.
If I do decide to ill leave my job on good terms but I'm not sure if ill tell my mother. If I would leave I'd leave her a letter or something. If I ever told her ahead of time she would go crazy even though she will either way. Again this is only a thought that's been in the back of my mind for awhile now.
If I do decide to ill leave my job on good terms but I'm not sure if ill tell my mother. If I would leave I'd leave her a letter or something. If I ever told her ahead of time she would go crazy even though she will either way. Again this is only a thought that's been in the back of my mind for awhile now.
As long as she knows that you're okay, then it'll be fine. She might be miffed at only being told in a letter - I know that my mom would be pretty unhappy about it - but sometimes a clean break with your old life is needed.
When I was working at Starbucks, I was offered management positions on three separate occasions. I thank all that is good and decent that I never took them up on it; I know too many bright people, many with professional-level degrees (engineers, nurses, Master's degrees) who got sucked into management there and will likely never come out. School is expensive, and a bachelor's degree just isn't worth what it used to be, but unless you're planning on staying in your current industry forever it is a far better idea to get out before you wind up in management.
When I was working at Starbucks, I was offered management positions on three separate occasions. I thank all that is good and decent that I never took them up on it; I know too many bright people, many with professional-level degrees (engineers, nurses, Master's degrees) who got sucked into management there and will likely never come out. School is expensive, and a bachelor's degree just isn't worth what it used to be, but unless you're planning on staying in your current industry forever it is a far better idea to get out before you wind up in management.
Yes, ill let her know that ill be okay. When I feel its the right time to do so I will end up calling her.. This is if I do leave of course. I'm thinking about even just leaving for just a short time period and ill comeback home once I feel I'm ready or maybe I won't.. Just so much to think about first before I do. I almost didn't one night and was about to leave but that would of been stupid of me.
I do not plan on staying in this type of work for the rest of my life.... I know if I do there's no way I'm going to be able to go to school. Especially with all the hours I would have to work and then I would trick myself into saying I will quit when I have enough money for school. We all know that never really happens and you keep on working until the thought of college is no longer there. The manager here now says she's been working there since 2003 and started off just like me /: I was like there is no way I'm going to be her.
Thank you for your words of wisdom though
I do not plan on staying in this type of work for the rest of my life.... I know if I do there's no way I'm going to be able to go to school. Especially with all the hours I would have to work and then I would trick myself into saying I will quit when I have enough money for school. We all know that never really happens and you keep on working until the thought of college is no longer there. The manager here now says she's been working there since 2003 and started off just like me /: I was like there is no way I'm going to be her.
Thank you for your words of wisdom though