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jethro1000

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So im on my week 7 of my long comedown.
I took half a large jelly capsule and divided it into 3 parts and took it for 3 consecutive days. I am new to drugs.
I know many of you will think that it is a very small amount of mdma to act like it really caused this long comedown. Maybe taking it in consecutive days depleted my serotinin 3x. I just hope it didnt damage my receptors.

Day 1 after felt really tired and emotionally sensitive. Slept the whole day

week 1:
Had 3 panic attacks went to ER. They found nothing wrong
i didnt really knew what panic attack was until i had one. I was Very anxious about everything.

week 2:
i could not go out of the house. Simple routine like going to the groceries makes me have panic attack. But i forced my self to do my usual routine that made me know how to control my panic attacks.

week 3-4: enrolled in the gym. Took vitamins. i was feeling 90% Normal i did go out had some drinks i thought i was back to my normal self though i was emotionally sensitive.

Week 5: my anxiety was back with vengeance. My body feels nervous without a reason, heart pounding 24/7. I Was really worried 24/7 about my health. Loop of anxiety thinking i destroyed my life/brain. panic attacks were back but i was able to control it though i have this constant feeling tension on my neck that feels like it is choking me. I know it is caused by anxiety. I was hospitalized for 3days gen checkup was done. Had a GP she prescribed me valiums and antidepressant wc i didnt took. I was afraid that it will cause my brain more damage. Extreme depression. Suicidal thoughts.

Week 6-7: there are days that i would feel fine about 90% and days that i would feel etarded anxious depress. Extreme mood swings. And ther wer days that i would feel anxious and down in the morning and would feel perfectly fine in the night.

My questions are:
Is it a good sign that this anxious feeling is fluctuating?

Do you think having this small amount of mdma could cause damage? Like damaging the receptors?

Do you think ill be back to my normal state 100% soon?

Sorry for my long post but im really worried because in exactly 20 days ill be migrating somewhere in middle east and im afraid that i will become retarded there since leaving my girlfriend and having a new job and environment will cause me more stress.

Can you give me advice. Took 5htp for a week but i stopped i dont think its helping. Im still having my workout 7 days a week. Vit. Healthy food.
 
How long does a long comedown usually takes? I mean how long does the serotonin comes back to its normal state
 
As far as I know no studies have been done to get an average value for how long it takes for serotonin to fully replenish post roll, but yours should be pretty much back to normal.
I doubt your problems are serotonin related, most extremely long recoveries are generally psychological in nature.
Once anxiety and depression manifest, they can take a long time to recover from regardless of chemical balances in your brain
I attribute this to the fact that anxiety and depression both feed off of the thoughts created by them, ie. depressive thoughts will make depression worse.
It's a pretty vicious cycle
 
Jethro, I have just recovered in 4 weeks from 4g of MDMA that I took over 4 consecutive nights. So you can straight away put away your thoughts that any damage you have done is permanent because it is not true. Your one pill would have a max of 150-200mg of MDMA (if it was a super strong pill). People heal at different rates, but people always heal back to full health.

The brain, if it's serotonin axons are destroyed from a heavy dose of MDMA (not possible from your small dose), it will rewire itself and can even produce more connections then previous.

When I was recovering, I was having panic attacks and major derealisation and depression from the first 2 weeks majorly, then nothing for a week. On almost week 4, after I was feeling 90%+, I had a random panic attack and anxiety out of the blue, so I can relate to you and I believe it's normal and a sign of healing.

Holy Toast is right in what he says, negative thoughts will definitely produce panic attacks by fear and anxiety at the thought of uncertainty (not knowing whats happening to you and never feeling anything like what you have felt recently).

I have been where you are but I took MUCH more then you bro. You will be fine, I promise :)

For me what helped was realising its only a temporary chemical imbalance and everything would heal back to 100% (this is true and the faster you believe it the faster you will feel better), and gym + a healthy diet of veg, fruit and protein.

Gym really helped clear the depression fast and help me think straight as it releases feel good hormones and exercise is also known to help the brain heal and reverse some mental ailments.

I wish you a speedy recovery and we all look forward to the day this is behind you and you can look back and smile about this experience. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger! It truly fits with this experience.
 
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There's also countless threads of people who have taken a small dose, like yourself, or a large silly dose, like myself, and everyone always heals back to 100% in the end. Time is your friend :)
 
John-Anon said:
There's also countless threads of people who have taken a small dose, like yourself, or a large silly dose, like myself, and everyone always heals back to 100% in the end. Time is your friend :)
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Thank you so much john-anon this has really made me appreciate life more. Brings me closer to god. It may sound cheesy but tbh i just really miss myself.
 
Strangely enough, although I'm not a religious man (but I definitely believe in a higher force), I did pray the last night before I slept asking for a speedy recovery: woke up and felt better then ever.
 
No bumping please, your thread was still on the first page and your question has effectively been answered.
Long recoveries have been common, but things will get better.
Whatever you choose to heal yourself is your decision and if prayer is a way which seems to be very helpful, all the power to you.
Spirituality can be a powerful tool for those who believe, and is a perfectly non harmful tool in attempt to stay away from drugs etc.
 
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