Engine_Of_Chaos
Bluelighter
I don't know if this will get much attention but what the heck. I want to talk about the shameful things people have done for drugs. I been doing a inventory of my own shameful sins and know that I'm not alone. It's part of my drug use as much as using is an I feel should be acknowledged. I know I am not proud of the things I've done past or present to continue my use and I'm sure no one else is either. I will say that I feel I am a good person.. kind to others, respectful, well mannered, honest, would help a friend in need etc. But there have been times ALL that has went out the window when I wanted what I wanted and was going to get it no matter what. I have always tried to not hurt others or involve others in a negative way to get or use my drugs. I will admit to being a very very good manipulator.. and no one realizes it. For instance my life right now.. from outward appearance no one really knows about my drugs.. except the ones I get from an use with. What I use, where I use, how I use, how much I use.. its all a big ass secret. Anyways I want to see if this thread picks up any traffic before I start coming out with all my DLS's. Here's one to start this: I try to make friends with old people in hopes they have pain meds in can aquire by them giving me some.