Dirty Jersey Part II "JERSEY WE GO HARD, WE GO HARD"

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hey szodiac, at least you can fuckin tell who it is postin. I had to change my name even tho I didnt want to, long story, but I made a thread in the lounge and everybody was like who the fuck is this fag? LAWL, Khadijajajaja? Lets flame the fuck outta him! I was like yo....ITS ME YALL...DC moderator...from jersey??? And people was still like...Who??? I had to spell it out for them...and in a couple other forums that happened too, people had no idea it was me haha....I see you a lil bit quicker than the rest huh ;) at least somebody here is...


Anyways wats good with u huh?
 
I saw there was new posts in this thread and got excited, but nope. Thanks for wasting 2 minutes of my life on those two useless posts.
 
yea i hear u atl, i came back to check it out too and same shit.

Man, get yo asses outa here and post in the roll call thread if all you got to say is " 973 yo", real talk...

and Im 973 all day but I know that sayin so dont make a good post.

anyways yo, wats good with u lately atl? I had some serious satisfaction the other day when i went to my boy whose a rangers fan and said "yo i got 2 words for you....HA HAAAAA!" :D

BTW, who else feels like this spring-but-summer-around-the-corner weather is like the perfect season for dope? I aint touch that shit in way over a year now but its like damn...for some reason this time of the year always just brings back mad memories and makes me feel like one for old times sake. Of course that aint on the agenda now that I got the high of seein my beautiful boys face when i wake up in the mornin but Im just sayin its weird how the weather can play with ur memories, the smells in the air, just the feeling of shit as the seasons change gettin ready for summer that makes you wanna nodd. Summer is the best dope season so i guess its just my old ways still in my brain somehow that is mistakenly sendin signals out like "yo time to get ready for the summer nod party yo"
 
^im sure you know this..but dont do dope if you have a baby

Please..you will regret it

It sounds like you aint tryna get strung out, but it sounds like youre entertaining that thought, knawmean? I aint tryna be a dick

Dont entertain that thought, cause we all know just one time aint happen..turns into months, years, im sure you know whatsup..you said you been clean over a year, thats amazing real talk..you on mmt or bmt?


I just got on subutex, shit lifes been way better tbh..i dont have to hustle aka street life, i dont worry about the pigs, most of all i dont worry about that next fix

I bet im preachin to the choir, but i hope you hear me out and do the right thing......you know
Peace girl
 
It's just the same old shit, different day, Lacey. Def glad to see the Rags and the Pens get booted in the 1st round. I was disappointed that Buffalo couldn't oust the Flyers, but taking them to a game 7 was better than I thought they'd do.

I'm a little bummed that I'm stuck on probation for the next year, but it's for conditional discharge I got for a poss. of hypodermic charge in January. I figure they won't hassle me too much since it's conditional discharge, but I really don't like the idea that I could be forced to piss in a cup at a moment's notice, ya know? Fuckin' $833 worth of fines for that too... Most of that is because of the conditional discharge, but still, that's a lot of cash when you're unemployed.

I got a roof over my head, food to eat and a bed to sleep in every night, so I really can't complain about anything. As long as I got all that, I can't complain about nothin' because I know my Mom don't gotta let me stay at her place. She's even been pretty nice about me fucking up with catching that charge and shit, so I just gotta take the good with the bad, right?

Anyways, how you been lately?
 
Well, in Union County you can opt for saliva testing if you don't like cups of urine. You should look into that, if only for the principle of retaining your dignity.
 
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Well, in Union County you can opt for saliva testing if you don't like cups of urine. You should look into that, if only for the principle of retaining your dignity.
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Saliva test can be inaccurate..a person i used to know was trying to get into a methadone clinic, and he was an addict..shot up night before, the morning of the test..i was staying at his place is how i know..well they swab test him..and heroin doesnt show up..only meth

So he couldnt get his methadone cause heroin wouldnt show up on the saliva test..they thought he was just trying to get methadone to get high..its fucked up he wAs trying to straighten out his shit and not possible because of those saliva tests

Anyone else heard about saliva tests being faulty?
 
^ Yea, I have passed a lot of saliva tests while dirty. I was already off probation so didn't care, but never came back positive.
 
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^im sure you know this..but dont do dope if you have a baby

Please..you will regret it

It sounds like you aint tryna get strung out, but it sounds like youre entertaining that thought, knawmean? I aint tryna be a dick

Dont entertain that thought, cause we all know just one time aint happen..turns into months, years, im sure you know whatsup..you said you been clean over a year, thats amazing real talk..you on mmt or bmt?


I just got on subutex, shit lifes been way better tbh..i dont have to hustle aka street life, i dont worry about the pigs, most of all i dont worry about that next fix

I bet im preachin to the choir, but i hope you hear me out and do the right thing......you know
Peace girl
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No, I aint doin no dope. I aint considering it. I was just reminiscing. dont mean Ima go out and do that shit.

But for the record, no, i dont know that "you do it just once and it becomes years." For me, that just aint true. After i got clean, i used a couple times, like 4 times over about 8 months. And none of thsoe times was a "relapse" or a "slip up." It was a carefully thought out, planned thing that I saved up for and set up ahead of time, that I did for special occasions, etc.

each time i used just once, had my fun, and then that was it. I never kept using, I never fell back into it, I never said "just one more" or nothing like that--Not only that , but i didnt even WANT to keep using--it aint like i had to control myself to not use--I honestly didnt WANT to. So before you say "yea,, well wat happens when you lose control?"--theres nothing TO control--there was no desire to do it again, to keep usin. Thats how you know when you finally beat your addiction--when you can take it or leave it. If you cant use dope, becuz it has so much power over you that just one use will make you go right back into addiction, then you aint kicked the habit. But once you can do that shit and be like "eh, it was fun, but watever" and then not think about it again for another 6 months, then you know you in the clear. Thats where Im at now and where I been at since I kicked.

I know that sounds crazy but word bond, thats the truth. Since I got clean, I had absolutely no problem using in moderation. I still aint gonna use, but if for some reason i did, i sure as hell wouldnt fuckin end up back beatin the block again.

And yea, I been 100% not using no dope at all for a year now, but I count my clean time since i KICKED dope, which in a few months will be almost 2 years now. I count it becuz i been livin the clean LIFE since then. I been addiction free since then, I been livin normal since then, and I think its absolutely fuckin ridiculous to go back counting to day 1 if you use for one day but are still the same person whose right back livin the same clean life the next day like nothin happened.

that dont mean that Im gonna use tho. So dont even worry about that yo :)

But im just pointing out that my reason for not using AINT becuz I cant control it. I learned enough from my addiction to know i never wanna go back there, and the incredible strength and insight into myself that I gained from kickin the addiction enabled me to not be that way no more. NA and AA and rehab might say using in moderation for a former addict aint possible, but I know that it is cuz I done it, and that aint no denial its just real talk. Another thing that alot of folks here might think is interesting is that theres also recent scientific studies that prove that a certain percentage of addicts are able to quit and then use in moderation, responsibly, with no problems.

Like I said--I dont use becuz I dont want to, and I dont need to. Not becuz i HAVE to not use otherwise ill fall back into it again. That aint a problem for me. After I kicked dope it was like somethin just clicked in me--I just didnt WANT to use more than occasionally no more. It wasnt interesting, it wasnt fun, it didnt feel good. It just wasnt all that great. It was good enough that it was a good time once every few months, but not something that I ever woke up the next day and thought "I wanna do that again".

Anyways yo, I appreciate ur concern, but its misguided. you definately aint catchin the vibe that Im thinkin of doin that shit. and maybe for you, you just take one shot and then you find yourself back on the bottom 8 months later addicted to dope again, but it aint like that for me. But right now Im mad happy with my son I really dont need to be doin that shit, so please dont even worry about it yo. :)
 
Khadijah/Lacey

Im glad that my worry is misguided..i was concerned, and speaking from my experience in the dope game

For me, just doing it one time would have me right back at my addiction..i finally bottomed out and put the breaks on after 8 months

I cant imagine just bein able to use just once in a while, thats crazy how you can just do it once a while..props to you for bein able to do that

Mad props for bein clean for so long..thats where i want to be in a few years..i too am sick of addiction sick of it all


Im glad youre not gona do dope, and that youre there for your baby boy
Peace
 
It sucks people had to sell things for a quick buck and capitalize on it under a monicker. Very un-harm reduction-ish.
The wrong type of RC falling into the wrong hands and then passed onto naive kids basically.
It was predictable from when those type of RC's just started coming into the light.

..And so we lose a little.
 
No13, theres a Jersey Roll Call thread. Go post there. You been askin that for a while now with ur other thread that got closed etc. check out the roll call. thats the spot for "im here in jersey, anybody else also here?" This thread aint for that. Look at the top of the forum theres a sub forum called "roll call" and youll find the jersey thread in there.:) this thread is more of a social thread/jersey discussion thread for the jersey heads on here not for comin in and postin "609 holla" or "Im in the 973, who else", thats exactly wat the Roll call thread is for tho.
 
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