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Diphenhydramine - Experienced - Ego Death On a Non-Recreational Dose

perpetuallylost

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Location
Milwaukee, WI
Substance: Diphenhydramine
Dose: 100mg


So on this evening like almost every other evening I was preparing to go to bed, and about 30min before settling in took a dose of 100mg of diphenhydramine in the form of a generic sleepaid, and fell asleep shortly there after.

+2h

Got awakened by a nightmare. On waking up I noticed some minor visual distortions that I associate with the delerium of being on a recreational dose of diphenhydramine(150mg+). This did not stand out odd to me. What stood out odd was the fact that none of my physical sensations or my mental state were anywhere near normal. My body felt wispy and part of the air with reduced sense of touch, and I was in a paranoid state thinking my world was falling apart. These sensations and thoughts were other then some minor differences in the mental exactly the same for me as if I had taken a high dose of LSD.

+3h The sensations have remained without change. In attempting to sleep I find myself darting and getting more paranoid in sitting still.

+4h Manage to fall back asleep.

When I woke up in the morning I felt perfectly fine, no hangover that i would associate with having taken to high a dose of diphenhydramine, and just perplexed about these happenings.


Erowid ID Number: 73372
Erowid Author: perpetuallylost
Erowid Title: Ego death on a non-recreational dose


I need opinions of this...could the sensations I had be due to delerium?
 
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TRPPNASS_DSCOMONKE said:
im simply curious as to why you classify this as ego-death?

The mental state I was in plus the physical sensation made it for me very similiar to some egodeath experiences I had...I'm just not the best at describing it sorry about that. Verbally going into things isn't more forte which is why I dont tend to write alot of trip reports.
 
sorry for the double post didnt wanna edit incase you already read the other one. The best way to describe the mental really isnt anxious..its more my soul falling apart at the seams and me mentally tearing apart every aspect of my life and my place in the world. Then breaks down from there simply to I don't matter, and I just am.
 
Generally, from my personal experiences with ego death, my opinion is is that if there is a "you" or and "I" that is thinking thoughts, then there is still some vestige of ego remaining.

How did "you" feel when you had the realisation of "I just am"?
 
I've done normal, or just over, doses of diphenhydramine to try to sleep after doing speed before now, and yeah, it's just wierd. Visual distortion, and if I managed to close my eyes I'd end up thinking I was somewhere else in the house, wandering round the living room, with 360 degree visuals with SO much detail it was nuts.

If I had no drugs at all and was really, really bored, I might even think about doing it recreationally as it was kind of interesting, although at the time i just wanted to get some goddamn sleep and it wasn't helping at ALL!
 
IzaBadger! said:
I've done normal, or just over, doses of diphenhydramine to try to sleep after doing speed before now, and yeah, it's just wierd. Visual distortion, and if I managed to close my eyes I'd end up thinking I was somewhere else in the house, wandering round the living room, with 360 degree visuals with SO much detail it was nuts.

If I had no drugs at all and was really, really bored, I might even think about doing it recreationally as it was kind of interesting, although at the time i just wanted to get some goddamn sleep and it wasn't helping at ALL!

Well good to hear im not the only one getting seriously fucked by a low dose. Was beginning to think I had blown a screw loose. And really really bored and no drugs is what got me to ever try a rec. dose...and it was such a bad idea...delerium is about as much fun as the word sounds lol.
 
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