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soulfly

soulfly

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come on baby
don't be afraid to hurt me
dig them in deeper
i want to feel the burning
run your claws up and down my back
don't stop until a red drop of crimson falls
this pain is what i want...it will help remember
if at all possible, please try to leave a scar
while it may be difficult to explain in the future...leave your mark now, for you may never get that chance again
i've waited so long for this, and i never want to forget it
i never want to forget what could have been
i always want to remember what will never be
please don't stop... you're not hurting me
what will hurt me is when you go back to your life...back to your world which may as well be on another planet
where hopes and dreams and a very real love consume your days
where i become a backup plan, where i become your #2
someday i will become your excuse to hate what you have
someday i will become your scapegoat, and the one you run to when there is no one else
not out of passion, but out desperation
this day, though....none of that will matter
tomorrow is another day, and another bottle is waiting to help me sort it all out
tomorrow, i'll feel worse than i did the day before
but for these few hours, you are mine
and i can pretend in my fantasy world that this is what i will be coming home to every night
after a long night of work...feeling tired and bitter
hating this world and everyone in it...
i will come home to you, dressed in frilly things...
your tiny, warm body making me forget all about my trivial problems
giving me strength to battle through another day

but, the reality is, that in a few hours....you'll be gone yet again
with more pain and more confusion than when you got in your car 10 hours before
soon, you will begin to hate me...and i will become the root of all the problems in your life
you will wish terrible, horrible things upon me...and my ghost will come back to haunt you again and again

for now, though...none of that matters
i will play pretend, i will taste what will probably never be
i will drive myself crazy...and i will complain to my friends about how nothing ever goes as planned.... and how everything i want always seems to be running in the opposite direction
tomorrow...everything will be the same as it was before i saw you

so, now is your opportunity to change the landscape of my life permanently
dig your nails deeper, sweetheart
now is your chance to add another piece of artwork to my already tattooed and scarred body
even if you're not here, i will know that you were for a few hours
i never want to forget you...
claw me up.... leave your mark
because any day now, you could be gone...
and all i will have to remember you by will be these scars on my back
 
I really wish that I had the words to say how I feel right now, having read that. All I've got instead are blasts of emotions and my own scars to remember.

Our scars tend to be more reliable souvenirs than any other - you never forget the pain that put them there. Joy is a much greedier beast I think. There is never enough of one thing to fill the desire, happiness will always change it's focus and keep you searching. But it only takes one of each scar to explain a thing.

And don't forget that you're supposed to meet me for coffee.
 
its not often than in this forum, i cant find words. and its ever rarer that something you might have written, i cant respond to. but i've been trying now to respond to ANYTHING for several weeks, and everything just keeps getting deleted at the end. either it was too sappy, or too mean, or too whatever... but i couldn't find 5 fucking words that could show i ever bothered to read.

so once again.. i'm left with little to say. this person that you write about obviously hurt you really bad. but i've always known you to be a strong person, and you dont need to let some stupid girl get your down. you're beautiful... talented... and deep as an ocean. whatever scars you have are there to remind you that you got through whatever shit life threw at you. and this girl, or the one before... they were part of the bigger picture.

there's some girl out there who can give you everything you deserve. and this girl that you write about, obviously cant. so forget her... she probably wasn't worth it anyway.

i wish i could tell her what she passed up. and you're right... i'm sure someday she'll be kicking herself. i know i would be.

for what its worth... i hope things work out. i beleive in fate.
 
soulfly, i read everything you post in words, but i can never really figure out what to say in reply.

i wish i could offer you some comfort, some respite from the way you seem to feel all the time.

aj the femme
 
Wonderful work - thank you. It awoke great empathy in me - as Dagny said, "blasts of emotions and my own scars to remember". Very powerful, emotive piece.

:( Smiley
 
wow...im going to say to you now what i always hope someone will say to me when they read what i write....it is the most perfect compliments a writer can recieve, because the art is the expression, and if you express successfully and with panache you have communicated.....and that compliment is this...

i know what you mean.
 
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