Different

[drug_wench]

I always knew inside that I was different
I played strange games alone back as a child
They put it down to quiet sensitivity
And they were all so shocked when i turned wild

I was angry though I didn't know it
My fear won over so that i repressed
The darkness and the growing hate inside me
And deep within my soul I was distressed

When I finally broke my rein of terror
The dam of hate inside me burst and spewed
I turned into a person that they're scared of
Shouting, fighting, dangerous and crude

All I wanted was to be a kid again
And take away my new-found evil mind
Instead I shattered into tiny pieces
There's still so many pieces I can't find

Out came the doctor with his tricky questions
And suddenly there's artificial calm
Still the anger burns beneath the surface
And to this day I'm causing so much harm

Alone at night my head is juggling guilt
With indulgent hunger in my veins
Running after selfish, senseless prizes
Nowadays I just accept the pains

The nosy doctor's branded me a sickness
Now I'm just a label in their minds
I'm not at all like others by that company
In the human world it takes all kinds

Though my brain is wobbling, zapping nonsense
There's peace in creativity I've found
My difference can be just as good as evil
And it's the good that keeps me hanging round