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I came upon Bluelight.org by accident. I was researching MDA and schizoaffective disorder, and post from Bluelight.org popped up. After reading the post I knew this site would be the perfect place to search for answers and contribute my experience with psychedelics and ultimately full blown psychosis associated with my diagnosis.

Nowadays I'm interested in psychedelics not merely as a form of treatment but a cure for schizophrenia/schizoaffective spectrum and bi-polar disorder. Heightened serotonin levels produces short-term psychosis associated psychedelics, however, for schizoaffective-depressive individuals as myself, psychosis is vastly different than tripping on LSD or psilocybin which is usually longer-term.

I hope you will join me as try to figure out how extended use of psychedelics may have contributed to long-term psychosis and a diagnosis that deemed me disabled for employment.
 
The website here is a lot of fun and being a part of it all can be even more fun here together.

Welcome and thank you for taking the time to sign up and join in and all, and also for the intriguing and interesting post regarding the forum info !!!


If I could go back to my younger years I would have pursued looking into the field of psychology as a passion. However life happens in hindsight at times. he he.

Not really but sometimes life gets busy and then we learn what our passions can be afterwards. ... Anyway. I feel it is never too late and everything can continuously

be quite a learning experience. 👍 Along with harm reduction as a support and safety net.



So yes thank you for joining in, signing up, and also learning more with us all as well. And for being quite deep in the interest of it all.

Welcome here to all of our open arms and all too. It's a great forum and a very good one ! Have fun with it but is a really truly a very good Forum to utilize.

<3;)

Sincerely though, and yes, thanks for joining.

:)
 
Syd Barrett the original founder of Pink Floyd or at least the guiding force. Before they achieved huge long term global fame; Syd was the driving force behind Pink Flyod.

He tripped alot on LSD and he unleashed schizophrenia in him and Roger Water took over. David Gilmore was brought in to help him. But soon he was almost a vegetable. He left because; well his mind was gone.

I am not saying this will happen to you, but people with serious mentatal illness, particularly ones that fall into the 'schizo' categories should avoid hallucinagenic drugs. Manic Depression can be treated but not cured. It can be treated just like 'schzio' type diseases. You seem rather lucid. Maybe a second opinion.? Otherwise trying to cure it with MDA sounds like a bad idea.

I know you mentioned that LSD and Psilocybin, and not using them in trying to find a cure; but there is no cure that I have ever heard of. Also every reputable website agrees.

Hovever the more serious ones; in the The Bi polar categories and schizo type disorders can be treated and controled. However not always without issues. Usually due to the medications and many hospitalization may be necessary to find best medicine combinations depending on the person.

I am sorry to be a downer about this but messing with you brain with psychedelics of any kind seems like bad idea. There is no cure. If you truley have these diseases of the brain and if you were to cure either or both of them; then you would deserve a Noble Peace Prize in the Physiology or Medicine; category.
 
However, pharmaceuticals can be prescribed in severe cases of Disorders. :unsure:

Maybe micro-dosing can be an option .... I was going to say a consideration ... but that was kind of Pun-ish I guess.

Good point, however, in having attention to mindfulness. <3 Thanx.

Don't be too reckless if having any doubts.


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I opt for a therapeutic perspective as an awareness as well. As a choice.

Much appreciated. 👍
 
OMG !!

Now I have to worry about the reverse effect. 😉😉😉<3

Most definitely.

Sorry but true. :eek:


 
They said it at the end of the video.

" Always trip Responsibly " ❤️‍🔥

Thanx.

👍


btw i like Syd. Okay 'Tripper' <3:)
 
Welcome to blueworld

I hope you get an answer or maybe something that can help or make life more livable or better and so on. But as mentioned no cure, just rx'd meds that can help or manage it better and mostly should never be mixed with psychedelics. But my knowledge to this is limited but that is why we have bluelight..

So search and ask away but always, do all the HR research you can before just diving into some protocol or exp that work for some dude some where..

All the best.
 
M!$TER-ED said:
, for schizoaffective-depressive individuals as myself, psychosis is vastly different than tripping on LSD or psilocybin which is usually longer-term.
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are you trying to say that the psychedelics are helping with your depression issues and you don't feel like the effects are having lasting negative effects on your life?

if i'm gathering correctly you are saying that you are having better luck with the psilocybin and lsd as opposed to the MDA? personally i have limited MDA use, but i found it to be more clear headed and easier to deal with... i'm curious if you have any idea of how much psychedelics you are taking. i think you might've taken too much MDA compared to the doses of the other psychedelics, and if you went into psychosis from that, there's definitely a chance with higher doses of psilocybin or lsd that it will cause problems for you. both can be really disorienting drugs.

mda can cause more of a crash than mushrooms or lsd for a lot of people, but generally i would say the other drugs are more disorienting at the standard doses... also psychedelics tend to bring out the voices stronger for schizophrenics.

i personally do recreational drugs as a diagnosed schizophrenic, although i wonder with how many drugs i do and how i can manage myself in public if this diagnosis is correct. like i clearly hear a ton of voices, but that's not the only requirement for schizophrenia... i think a lot of bizarre shit that i just talk to my therapists about and they think it's okay. i thought i was being gang stalked by authorities for a couple years and that was actual a problem, but even non schizo people get paranoid with drug use. i some how got over that though even using psychedelic drugs by being able to predict when i thought poeple were yelling at me outside my house with my inner voice that i had my whole life. the only reason i was able to do this was partially luck, but i had to realize that the voices i thought were people out to get me might not've actually been real. i didn't want to admit that it was my mind, but after sometime i could say "I know i'm going to here this voice at a particular moment" and then i just knew it wasn't real... some people start to think some really weird shit with schizophrenia even with out drugs though, and sometimes you can't really talk yourself out of it. like it can spiral pretty quick... like my friend who is also schizophrenic might have some pretty bizarre lasting beliefs that stuff happened to him as a child that didn't. i don't know if he'd have these fixed beliefs with out psychedelics messing with his mind. i've heard of people getting more delusional and having a harder time in life than that too.
 
my memory could very well be skewed from the disease and psychedelic use.. my friend actually believes something about his family which is pretty detrimental to their relationship though. what he thinks probably didn't happen... nothing negative is really going on with my life or relationships with people.
 
So far up to date my experience with psychedelics are limited to 2 gm of white golden teacher and 2 gm of XUM. My medication interfered with any positive effects of the experience. I stopped taking an antidepressant leaving 2 stimulants and a modern antipsychotic drug that helps with depression. The next time I take XUM I will abstain from taking the 2 stimulants while the antipsychotic drug I will have taken the night before.
A single XUM tablet is ½ gram while 4 tablets are 2 grams. I don't know if I will get positive results from reducing medication.however, I plan to take 4 tablets again to be on the safe side and work my way up instead of risking unwanted symptoms.

I posted information about my experience with MDA in the MDA section of this site.
 
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M!$TER-ED said:
I came upon Bluelight.org by accident. I was researching MDA and schizoaffective disorder, and post from Bluelight.org popped up. After reading the post I knew this site would be the perfect place to search for answers and contribute my experience with psychedelics and ultimately full blown psychosis associated with my diagnosis.

Nowadays I'm interested in psychedelics not merely as a form of treatment but a cure for schizophrenia/schizoaffective spectrum and bi-polar disorder. Heightened serotonin levels produces short-term psychosis associated psychedelics, however, for schizoaffective-depressive individuals as myself, psychosis is vastly different than tripping on LSD or psilocybin which is usually longer-term.

I hope you will join me as try to figure out how extended use of psychedelics may have contributed to long-term psychosis and a diagnosis that deemed me disabled for employment.
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Took me years. joined only until 2006. welcome little lurker !

Lysergic s are imo very productive med s, just like reggae.
 
i've never heard of XUM on this site or any where else. i really know nothing about it. i googled and i don't think it's a psychedelic. google is saying it's an anti-inflamitory drug. i don't know if anyone else on this site has opinions on that and how you are dosing.

sometimes anti-psychotics totally block the effects of psychedelics definitely... sometimes getting off anti-psychotics or even taking less and taking psychedelics right away the psychedelics will hit very strong.
 
i just read the OP's mda thread, and i'm curious if the OP has done drugs since the 70's too... i'm kind of confused what is going on with the dates. how long have they been on anti-psychotics? i'm not really sure what's going on with this person and what i would recommend them. they were IV'ing mda? i don't often hear about that. i don't know if they know their doses or what. i'm thinking maybe they might have a better chance taking 2gs of golden teachers with out the meds or lesss meds as opposed to the IV'ing mda. i said mda is more clear headed than psychedelics, but i wasn't dosing like that at all so i generally have no idea.


have you been on disability and unemployed since the 70's? was that when the psychosis was?

if you've been on meds for a long time, i might just skip the extra drugs and lower the doses of meds and try meditation or something... i don't want to tell you what to do... please share more about your life and maybe others will have some more insite on this.... even people diagnosed with the same mental illnesses can handle drugs differently, but the more we know about you, maybe we can possibly give better in depth advice.
 
Dont be a Syd and take too much then ?????


i thought the sht was safe ❤️‍🔥

I really truly do !!!!
 
kiely said:
Just a little bit. :ROFLMAO: Thank you.

( I think it's safer than sugar :ROFLMAO: )
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Depend s on the person and amount s, but in general, yes.

How come when Trips where torment s,
now i am old they produce relaxing Euphoria.
Like Psychedelic triple long lasting bk-MDMA.

Wish that was also still available and Khat.
Weird people those Dutch Ban is no Blanket,
its selective not Lysergics/ Tryptamines/ Dissociatives.
Left out, so it seem s. Seeing is believing so lets wait.

As our government just fell down. :cheerz:

But a Tree like Khat illegal,
just to fuck up the Somalian/ Ethiopian refugee s.

That is my country, as Coke that you can find at government party s.
Or high places, where plates go round. And the mayor likes a good line.

Gimmi Khat over Coke, 1 its a softdrug 2 you know its not.
Carried in someones ass :ROFLMAO:
 
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