*=Regulator=*
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About 12 months ago due to certain situational difficulties (mainly my father having treatment for cancer) my doctor put me on Aurorix (moclobomide), which is an MAO-I anti-depressant.
Being then uneducated about the effects of combing MDMA with an MAO-I, you guessed it, I took the two together.
I had a severe hytertensive crisis as a result and ended up in hospital.
My syptoms as a result of Serotonin Sydrome were:
Tachycardia, Hypertension, Convulsions, Hallucinations.
That was about 8-9 months ago.
Directly after I began suffering from panic attacks, anxiety and suicidal depression. I was forced to leave university and move back home to live with my parents. Immediately after this I switched my medication to Aropax (Paxil - Paroxitine) an SSRI.
My depression and anxiety plataued out a bit after this and I began to piece things back together to the point where I was working full time in a good job and living a relatively happy existence (besides a terrible, abnormal lack of control after heavy drinking). I still never thought I was as happy as I had been before that trip to hospital though.
Over christmas I went away to stay with a friend and during this period I got sick and couldn't hold food down, sleep or drink. As a result of this I had to go to hospital and get a saline drip and cut my trip off early. I'm not sure if the 'sickness' was just severe anxiety as during this time I was very anxious and depressed.
After this setback I soon got better and went away again and was fine (although I drank a lot). I then decided that I was doing well enough to stop taking the Aropax and with my doctors monitoring, I began slowly reducing the dose untill I was down to half (not sure what Mg) every other day. Besides the horrible withdrawal effects I was doing OK.
Then a couple of weeks ago I found out my dad had to have more treatment for his cancer and I became very anxious and depressed again. I had one or two days where I was terribly depressed and near suicide. My doctor decided that I shouldn't have stopped taking Aropax and decided to change my medication again to Mitrazipine (it's an anti-depressant - a newer one - not sure of its generic name).
Since the changeover I have had several very bad days within close proximity of eachother where I have found myself thinking that I will never get better and had tearful episodes and had to sleep in my parents bed (embarassing for a 21 year old). This brings me up to present day
That's the background info out of the way (sorry for the length).
Anyway, I am concerned that when I went to hospital all those months ago after the e/maoi combo, I ruined my seratonin receptors/producers and that I have fucked up my head forever. I am seriously thinking that I will never get back to normal and that there is nothing I can do to fix it (I don't smoke, or do drugs and I excercise everyday). I drink on the weekends and increasingly more in the week as it is the only thing that takes away the pain in my mind. I don't know anything about neurochemistry so I'm hoping someone who knows a bit more can help out. Have I ruined my brain forever?
[ 09 April 2002: Message edited by: *=Regulator=* ]
Being then uneducated about the effects of combing MDMA with an MAO-I, you guessed it, I took the two together.
I had a severe hytertensive crisis as a result and ended up in hospital.
My syptoms as a result of Serotonin Sydrome were:
Tachycardia, Hypertension, Convulsions, Hallucinations.
That was about 8-9 months ago.
Directly after I began suffering from panic attacks, anxiety and suicidal depression. I was forced to leave university and move back home to live with my parents. Immediately after this I switched my medication to Aropax (Paxil - Paroxitine) an SSRI.
My depression and anxiety plataued out a bit after this and I began to piece things back together to the point where I was working full time in a good job and living a relatively happy existence (besides a terrible, abnormal lack of control after heavy drinking). I still never thought I was as happy as I had been before that trip to hospital though.
Over christmas I went away to stay with a friend and during this period I got sick and couldn't hold food down, sleep or drink. As a result of this I had to go to hospital and get a saline drip and cut my trip off early. I'm not sure if the 'sickness' was just severe anxiety as during this time I was very anxious and depressed.
After this setback I soon got better and went away again and was fine (although I drank a lot). I then decided that I was doing well enough to stop taking the Aropax and with my doctors monitoring, I began slowly reducing the dose untill I was down to half (not sure what Mg) every other day. Besides the horrible withdrawal effects I was doing OK.
Then a couple of weeks ago I found out my dad had to have more treatment for his cancer and I became very anxious and depressed again. I had one or two days where I was terribly depressed and near suicide. My doctor decided that I shouldn't have stopped taking Aropax and decided to change my medication again to Mitrazipine (it's an anti-depressant - a newer one - not sure of its generic name).
Since the changeover I have had several very bad days within close proximity of eachother where I have found myself thinking that I will never get better and had tearful episodes and had to sleep in my parents bed (embarassing for a 21 year old). This brings me up to present day
That's the background info out of the way (sorry for the length).
Anyway, I am concerned that when I went to hospital all those months ago after the e/maoi combo, I ruined my seratonin receptors/producers and that I have fucked up my head forever. I am seriously thinking that I will never get back to normal and that there is nothing I can do to fix it (I don't smoke, or do drugs and I excercise everyday). I drink on the weekends and increasingly more in the week as it is the only thing that takes away the pain in my mind. I don't know anything about neurochemistry so I'm hoping someone who knows a bit more can help out. Have I ruined my brain forever?
[ 09 April 2002: Message edited by: *=Regulator=* ]