Did i ruined a friendship with speed?

[aivaras]

Hi, i wanted to ask some help, i was addicted to speed for about 3-4months, and then i managed to stop, the last time i did speed was a week before christmas, never touched it after, but yesterday i [snip] bucks on the street with my friend, we wanted to get some good 'ol reefer first and then go to the city centre, it's really cool at the evenings, but we didnt managed to find the dealer anywhere near around us, but we needed some sort of high, because we planed it all day long, and then suddenly we saw a tweaker that i knew walkin' near us, i asked my friend - if we would try speed(it was his first time) will he manage to Not get addicted and help each other? we both agreed to do that if it happens, so we asked the tweaker for a 1g.after 7mins later we got a light purple, with hints of white powder that was mostly in a rock form, it breaked up easily, and we some, then took some after about 30minutes, we felt wonderful, i did too, after a long break.We talked so much, and we were both in euphoria, that turned into a long talk about our lifes, and i we realised that we belong together, because neither of us had so much same shit in life.after few hours i left the spot, went home, didnt slept, but still felt good, just euphoria and the good feelings weared off, so we met today again to take the leftovers that was about 0.5g, we both didnt sleeped but still felt quite good, we took the leftovers and then we said - its done, no more, we dont have any money, any connections, and we have a promise.But he didnt felt the magic from speed today, and after the effects he said he feels bit paranoid and anxious.I didnt got that kind of magic that i did yesterday too, but now what im left with is a craving for euphoria, and that magic again, becuz i know that tommorow i will feel emotionally empty, and all i will think of is that magic. My question is: Is it speed that connected us yesterday so much, and will it be the same? and mabe there is some way to leave those cravings behind?


PLEASE ANSWER, IT MEANS A LOT TO ME.
Thanks, Aivaras

 

[hydroazuanacaine]

hi,

this feels like it might be better suited for The Dark Side. if you want, i will move it there. also, i am going to cut the money part out of your post, as i think you are pricing a gram of speed, which would not be allowed.

i don't know the answers to your questions though. it just sound like you are feeling really down right now. as you know, that's what comes after the high.

 

[kokaino]

We aren't counselors here, we don't know if you've ruined a friendship or not.

You might be able to get away with something like this in 'The Dark Side', but BDD is not a place for these kinds of threads.

Closed.