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Did Ecstasy change your life? MERGED

Has MDMA been beneficial in your life?

  • Yes

    Votes: 105 74.5%

  • No

    Votes: 22 15.6%

  • Other

    Votes: 14 9.9%
  • Total voters
    141
I used to be a much more judgemental person before I started using ecstasy....but after rolling at enough parties with strangers and getting to be really friendly with everyone, I've really lightened up a bunch. A lot of those people are ones that I would normally have judged but after seeing everybody through the mindset that e puts you in, I've learned to carry those same feelings into my sober life.
 
personally i don't think ecstasy has changed me more or less. it's just a fun drug to do around your friends or at a big rave.
nothing in too depth =P
 
I've def had fun on X, but my last time I over did it and I'm slowly recovering. Its been beneficial in a sense that I am completely detoxing my situation, no drugs or alch, eating healthy and excercising, but not beneficial in that its brought about a few weeks of depression, anxiety, and detachment from myself.
 
It's definitely changed my life for the better. I used to be a very anti-social and bitter person but after doing E quite a bit it helped open my eyes to the world. I find it much easier to start conversations with people and don't get all nervous around new people like I used to. It also helped me accept everyone as they are, no matter who they are or if they are completely different from me.
 
What Puntr said is exactly right. E is a good drug in the sense that when your rolling, you really do experience life almost to its fullest extent in the hours that you are high. You realize that you shouldn't take advantage of other people and yourself. It opens your eyes in the sense that you want to interact with people more and not be so anti social or shy or whatever you may be. It breaks down those barriers slowly and slowly that cause you be shy or a cynical person. Ecstasy is not a hippie drug either. Not one bit. As long as you do not abuse E and take your breaks in between rolling, there is nothing wrong with ecstasy.
 
I used to be a gaint asshole before I started using e. Now I only use it like once a month but now I am a much better listener and have more empathy for people all the time. I'm a guy, and in our large group of friends of like 25 people, all the girls come to me with their issues. Now I have no problem helping them. Also I seem to get laid more which is always a positive. I'm overall better with women.
 
Puntr said:
The way I see ecstasy and the way I describe it to my friends is like this:

In your mind you have these walls (mental barriers) which in a sense prevent you from doing things that you normally do when you roll, self confidence, openness, etc.

While you're on ecstasy, those walls are torn down.

In the days following the roll, they are rebuilt, but never completely to the top, meaning that (at least the way I see it) everytime I roll, I become closer to becoming a better person when I'm sober. And everytime you roll, the walls are rebuilt less and less.
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Very well put, this is exactly how I feel about MDMA.
 
What i think is that the way people act to each other on mdma is perfect, not the random backrubs :P, but the openness and friendlyness and non-judging.

Thats why ecstasy is so perfect, other drugs like alachol and cocaine may be fun but actualy increase your ego and want to fight. There is probably more deaths from drunks fighting in one year than every death related to mdma.

Mdma is a specail drug and has defiantly changed the way i look at life, yoiu see yourself on mdma and then think about your problems you have when your off mdma.
 
olskoolrollrz said:
mdma has allowed me to see the big picture in life ,,i used to be kinda ..narrow,but rolling really opened my eyes to what this world is really all about
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yeah, when i really think about it, it makes me wanna BURN THIS MOTHERFUCKER DOWN! CMON POOKY, LETS BURN THIS MOTHERFUCKER DOWN!!!! BURN THIS MOTHERFUCKER DOWN!!! (sorry, i just had to=D)

Puntr said:
The way I see ecstasy and the way I describe it to my friends is like this:

In your mind you have these walls (mental barriers) which in a sense prevent you from doing things that you normally do when you roll, self confidence, openness, etc.

While you're on ecstasy, those walls are torn down.

In the days following the roll, they are rebuilt, but never completely to the top, meaning that (at least the way I see it) everytime I roll, I become closer to becoming a better person when I'm sober. And everytime you roll, the walls are rebuilt less and less.
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that pretty much a perfect explanation of what it did to me. i used to be so introverted, i would barely even talk to my best friends when i was around, pretty much just observe what they were doing and only speak when spoken to. now, im able to hold and start conversations with random people. it's helped me SO much
 
I think it changed my life in the way that I don't care about any subject brought up in a conversation anymore. I also think it has changed my style sort of and has given me a better view towards fashion..

I think it has helped my emotions as well.
 
MDMA hasn't been beneficial to my life while I am not rolling. It hasn't hurt either. It just isn't one of the drugs that has opened my mind to something new - or in some cases something old and long forgotten. While I am rolling I definitely have an easier time in social situations; for me MDMA is a party drug and not much else.
 
So much. It helped in bonding with friends, and in the way I think/ feel- when I'm on it the euphoria is so amazing that I remember it afterwards, and remembering it reminds me that life is not all about sadness. It's helped me take a more relaxed approach to things too. I love this drug.
 
XTC has def. open my eyes
i love XTC and i have just recently quit
my brain couldnt handle it
been going through a depression in my life...although i would be depressed whether or not i did take XTC, but i am more depressed because of it. I know it took a big toll on my brain.

It did change my life
some ways good some ways bad!

was it worth it... idk ask me when im 60 and depressed and have alzchimers....if i spelt that right

good times!
 
I've been using E since about April off and on and it has helped me.
But if you ask me if ecstasy itself changed my life, I'd have to say no. It didn't raise my GPA or solve me family problems. It didn't get me a boyfriend or a job, which is okay because I'd be a fool to expect it to. But it's not what I expected from the drug that made it worthwhile, but what it made me expect from myself. It showed me things about myself I had long since forgetting existed, a dormant side of me I guess.

I was 'severely depressed' according to my psychologist and I was miserable for so long I was beginning to think I was actually defective, with or without treatment. I was beginning to think that the most I could expect out of life and myself was a world of malaise where I don't enjoy life, but endure it's struggle until I die.

I also thought that after some traumatic experiences in my life had left me damaged to the point where I was incapable of falling in love again, or feeling true empathy and affection the way I did a couple years back. I had been single, alone, and I had lost most of my friends to do reclusive behavior. At that point, life was bleaker than it ever was.

That was until I met our man ADAM. It temporarily peeled back the scare tissue on my soul that had developed after being hurt so many times. There was still something beautiful and fragile there, filled with an incredible capacity for empty. And it was inside me, I couldn't really believe it. (I know how corny that sounds, but it's true)

I also became aware of how physical and emotional abuse and neglect as a child up until last year had damaged me a lot more than I thought it did. And that CPTSD might be the reason why normal everyday activities were so difficult if not impossible for me, and maybe that was why MDMA helped so much. I feel so much better knowing it's not my fault, and that there is help for this sort of thing.

But of course, without having made the decision that I didn't want to be miserable anymore, that I wanted to get back into the world and bond with people, the MDMA would have never worked the way it did. On the other hand, without the MDMA I would be much more discouraged not having any recent example of true happiness to know it was even possible which would have made recovery much slower and more painful.

Do I need MDMA in my life to be happy? Every so often, yes. Do I need to be constantly high on MDMA to be happy? No, because the things I learn from it wear off long long after the drug does. For me, MDMA is more like my 'appetizer' for life and happiness. I do it every couple of weeks when a rave is in town and that's about it. But I know not to let it become the 'main course,' if you know what I mean. When it does, I'll know that's when I need to stop for a while.
 
Ecstasy: Change your life?

Can someone help me with this situation, I don't know if I'm going crazy or if I just had an outright epiphony about my life and my future. I have to explain my background in order for you to see how it changed my life.

My entire high school life I was that stoner guy, blazed every day, multiple times a day. Thought I wanted to do environmental science after taking an AP course in it. Then I realized sure thats great and all, but wheres it gonna get me in life. Sure I had some passion for it, but nothing strong enough to motivate me to learn on my own.

The first time (my 18th birthday): becoming 18, being my own person. It gave me this sense that anything is possible I couldn't even fathom how powerful my emotion and feeling became.

The second time: Took the molly with my sister and her BF and had a really deep conversation about where I wanted to go in life. I finally realized that this environmental science thing was a complete joke. What I was really interested in was my brain, how it can create illusions and how it can be create such feelings.

EDC, the third time (the ultra life changing part): The high, too amazing to be good. The comedown, so horrible I've never felt worse. But the odd part was on the comedown I had so many things click in my brain. Events in my life seemed to correlate, I felt almost like this neuroscience thing has established purpose in my life. In my entire life, I had never felt such powerful feelings of purpose and to an extent what I think might just be destiny.

It's been a two months since I rolled for the first time on my 18th birthday.
I've never felt so enthralled with life and I've never felt such motivation.

This fall I'm leaving for college. The intention is Neuroscience and Behavior and I'm positive it can happen, especially if this intense feeling of motivation holds and it's as real as it seems.

Any thoughts anyone? Similar experiences? I really want to hear them.
 
It made me realize that I missed my girlfriend and helped me get back with her.

On a side note, it made me realize what a truly disgusting, immoral place Las Vegas is.

I just don't understand hookers and johns. Maybe it is because I feel like I could get laid whenever I really tried but to me it just doesn't seem right.
 
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