dialouge

[Shuddr2Think]

i wish i hadn't lost this battle
which i have been fighting for
all these goddamned years
just to have some say
just to have a choice
to remain sane and
and this is how it turns out
(just as expected)
shes better than i could ever be,
(in all the ways i hate the most)
and shes less than what you deserve
(despite my now faltering opinion of you)
so i'll calmly sit in the background
and continue to smile
(teeth grinding and stomach churning)
im an extra
no dialouge to make you notice
my job is only to sit.serene.
and listen to the oh so obvious sounds
of you trying too hard
and if you see me start to break
please accept my aplogies
but sometimes my own imagination is
more than i can bear
and those silly half ideas
become truths when i am left
to my own silence and
honestly
i don't know why i care.
i never laid a claim
never placed my bets
(never really knew the truth)
and i wish i knew how to remain
calm, sitting here, always in the background.

 

[Queen Beat]

Still one of my favourite poets in this forum.

im an extra
no dialouge to make you notice
my job is only to sit.serene.
and listen to the oh so obvious sounds
of you trying too hard
Your work is subtly brilliant.