Detoxing off Oxycodone, day 1..feels like years

[MJicandoittoo]

Hi...so, I just joined finally. Been "lurking" for ages but finally going through my own detox. It's funny, I didn't really plan this but I've been thinking about it for a long time and then I just got so frustrated I decided it was time.

I have some Kratom to help me that I'm only goin to take during acute withdrawal because all I need is another addiction.

I was on between 80-100 mg a day. Didn't get to taper much, just down to 40mg one day then 20 one day.

The worst symptom is the anxiety. I know that that won't go away right away but I hope this intense, can't even breathe and definitely can't sleep anxiety might at least subside a bit?

I don't even know what specifically I need with posting. I've had better experience with Kratom before than I'm having now, maybe because I got it from a different place idk. I just want to stop feeling like death and it's only been a day. I've always gone into withdrawal real quick..I'm hoping and maybe it's delusional that maybe because of that, the symptoms might end a tiny bit sooner than "normal" too. :/

I don't know. I know this post doesn't make much sense but I'm so screwed up right now lol. My family doesn't know I'm doing this right now, I just can't handle talking to them or anyone else right now. Guys I don't know what I'm doing right now..I'm just so scared :'(

 

[lman_15]

In my opinion detoxing is going to be a bitch no matter what you do, the minutes seem like hours, hours seem like days and it can de dreadful at times but, if you stick it out it'll be worth it. Just remember it's only a matter of time, you just have to wait it out. However, there are some things you can do to make it better:
Advice:
Drink lots of fluids, water, gatorade, etc. stay hydrated and help flush your system
Eat food and don't starve yourself, it can be hard at times with the lack of appetite but, try to force feed yourself if need be
Benzo's if you can get your hands on some benzo's I'd advice that you do to help with sleep & anxiety, don't over do them & don't continue taking them after the physical symptoms have subsided (last thing you want is to get hooked on them)
Imodium for the diarrhea
Run a hot bath and lay in it, it'll help your muscles relax (when I detoxed I probably spent 1/2 of my week in a bathtub cuz it was the only time I felt semi normal)
Jerk off, it'll take your mind off how shitty you feel

 

['medicine cabinet']

Yup. Bitch no matter what. There are plenty of meds that can help make you comfortable, more or less depending on your tolerance, but it sucks the one medicine that can make you feel great will just set you back and negate any progress. All the advice above is super. Pretty much everything i would have said. Esp the last part lol...fapping out is a great way to take your mind off and get comfy for a little. At that point during wd you pretty much only have to whip it out and let a warm breeze pass by and youre done lol. Yea to say its short isnt even fair, its super quick but it does work for some temp relief. Good luck to you man.

 

[caseface99]

Welcome to Bluelight!

Unfortunately, it's been said - Withdrawal is a Bitch, no matter what. The good news is you don't have to go through it more than once if you truly don't want to, and try your best to avoid relapse!
Do you have a regular physician that you see? On top of the Kratom, there are a few prescriptions that can ease your pain quite a bit. Gabapentin, clonidine, sleep aids, etc. Over the counter you can also get Immodium AD (active ingredient Loperamide Hcl) which will actually help a lot. Take a few times the recommended dosage on the box, I usually started with 6 pills and went from there, as needed.

Have you ever considered AA/NA meetings? They can really make all the difference along with working the steps with a sponsor - It's saved my life but I know it's not for everyone. There's non-12 step alternatives such as LifeRing, or Smart Recovery meetings. I really suggest developing a support network if you want to do everything you can to avoid relapse!

Anyway, Stay strong! Try to keep a positive attitude and remember - This Will Pass! It doesn't last forever! Even if it may seem like it does. Keep your head up, and like I said try to build a support network!

I sincerely wish you the best of luck. If you have anymore specific questions feel free to post or even PM me! I'd love to help. Keep it up!

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey how are you doing?

 

[caseface99]

No response in a minute. I hope OP is okay.


Even if you've relapsed, let us know what's up! We'll always be here for you. It's a sober addicts duty to make sure a helping hand is always ready to extend to those who ask for it.

 

[honeebee]

Hey OP, hope you are feeling even a tiny bit better. I found this site earlier in the week when I started W/D from a 5 year 100-120 mg/day oxy habit. I thought it wasn't a problem since I hadn't upped my dose in a couple years and the meds were prescribed to me for legit pain, a degenerative disease. The truth is that I took them whether or not I had breakthrough pain or any pain at all. And this shouldn't have surprised me - I've abused drugs and alcohol for over 35 years, on and off but mostly on. Started these oxy's when I'd been clean and sober for 2 years, I thought that since it wasn't street drugs and I was functional and mostly because they just made life easier and better with no obvious side effects , that it would be ok...hahahaha. Anyway I went to pick up my scrips 9 days ago and found out there's an issue with my health care which could take up to a month to resolve, and my scrips are $400/mo, so I took what they would give me as a partial - 12 15 mg tablets. Tried to taper but they only lasted 3 days. Today is day 5 CT and honestly it still sucks but not quite as much. The first 2 nights were unbearable, I took everything I had on hand to try to sleep - flexeril, melatonin, benadryl, trazodone anything sedating I could find, but it was just sweats and chills, and legs thrashing all night. The RLS is what I hate the most. Then diarrhea started and the fever and chills, weakness, widespread aches and pain, sneezing, anxiety blah blah blah. I've not eaten much and have been lying down literally all week. Tomorrow I'm going to force myself to walk outside no matter how sick I feel. This is def the most dopesick I've ever been, idk why, maybe because i was on a maintenance dose, maybe bc of my age...anyway I didn't mean to co-opt your thread! I just know that earlier in the week when I was SOSOSO sick it helped me to read on this site that other people had gone through it. It can be lonely and scary beside the massive physical discomfort and debilitation. I'm hoping that I'll be sane enough not to go pick up those pills when my insurance is back on board. Having a regular free supply of opiates is like my dream come true/worst nightmare...I'm betting you feel the same...anyway hang in there. You absolutely can do it, and on the other side, remembering how sick you were can be a huge deterrent to relapse. Oh yeah, the hydro therapy is really helpful - hot showers and baths. GL!

 

[caseface99]

Hot showers and baths for sure!

Kind of embarrassing, and some may not believe me - One time while detoxing heroin I got into a hot bath, laid down, took a few deep breaths, and... Well... I came!

I have no reason to lie about this, if you don't believe me that's your prerogative! But it happened once. It was quite something..


OP hasn't responded by the way.
Praying for him tonight.

 

[honeebee]

of course we believe you, anyone who has gone through it knows what you mean -- why hangover sex is so good...
I hope OP is doing OK and being safe however his detox is going...or not...