Detox/Can't do this alone

[ReadySetWait]

Hi.

I am currently using low (5-15 mg) daily doses of oxys, down from 30s daily. What started out as recreational and occasional slipped down the slope of habitual and necessary to maintain and I quickly realized walking away wasn't going to be without absolute anguish.

I am done, so totally done. I have no control over my life with this beast on my back. I'm somewhere between proud of myself for tapering down and brow beating myself for still playing this soul-sucking game.

I am appealing to anyone who has had any experience with subutex as I have never tried this route, and needless to say, never succeeded otherwise, so all of my dreams are pinned to this hope that I have in these (5) 8mg subutex, delivering me from this nightmare once and hopefully, for all.

I am here seeking encouragement, kind words and, fingers crossed, any wisdom/expertise/advice for the best plan of attack regarding when and how much to take to ease my struggle.

I am a mom, also work full time, stressful job, and the impending battery acid stomach has got me all "doom and gloom" and starting to freak out a little. My last pill was about 10 hours ago and I have zero strategy.

Thank you so much!

RSW??

 

[Greene0Kelly]

Yeah. You should be proud of tapering down subutex. And I proud of you, too. I don't know about subutex really. I'm sorry. But I have a question. Have you decided that you wanna get clean of it? Heard/Research about NA near you? For sure, they can help you.

 

[ReadySetWait]

Thank you so very much for the kind words, N/A is a great option I hadn't considered, but will give that serious thought. I am completely done with any and all narcotics, never want to depend on anything from a bottle just to get through my day.

Found out that I need not 1 but 2 molar extractions. This ought to be interesting..