Hello, I am new here and don't quite know how this whole thing works, but I have read a lot of posts and articles on here before and I don't know what else to do.
To anyone who is reading this, here's a little about me:
I am a 29-year old female, who is strung out on heroin. I have been struggling with opiates, in general for about five years now. I have been to jail, extradited cross country, 14-month residential treatment program, probation and after I got clean for two years and finished all of my legal requirements, I started taking Vicodin for a toothache last November. From there, I quickly escalated back to oxycodone. I started going to the methadone clinic and then had to move out of state, so I had them ween me off (against medical advice, of course) and moved. I used Kratom to help through the withdrawals and when I moved back to my hometown (old people & places) I started back with the opiates. This was in February. Soon after this, I started back with IV use and got back on methadone. About three weeks into that, I was given an ultimatum by my family to stop the methadone (my father doesn't understand, and so he doesn't like it). So, same thing, I had them ween me down and I came to Nashville to detox. I brought a few things with me to help through the withdrawals, but didn't even make it a few days before I found a resource. That resource is supplying me with heroin. I went to a psychiatrist to get on medication management and was given a script for bupenorphine/naloxone. After I found out that the script would cost me $200/wk (no insurance), I quickly realized that I could not afford it. I have a very supportive boyfriend here, who wants nothing but to see me get clean. He doesn't do drugs and he wants to help in any way possible, but also he is having trouble understanding what I'm going through. I haven't been entirely honest with him about what I've been doing everyday. I want to stop, but can't push myself to even make it through the dopesickness. I am currently trying to obtain health insurance, so I can find a doctor that I can afford along with the prescription. I have put my boyfriend through a lot over the years and he is about over it. I don't know what to do. I'm not sure I'm even posting in the right place. Please, ANYONE, who has ANY advice, please share. I hope I didn't break any rules here. I appreciate anything that anyone has to say and look forward to it.
Big love,
Ren
To anyone who is reading this, here's a little about me:
I am a 29-year old female, who is strung out on heroin. I have been struggling with opiates, in general for about five years now. I have been to jail, extradited cross country, 14-month residential treatment program, probation and after I got clean for two years and finished all of my legal requirements, I started taking Vicodin for a toothache last November. From there, I quickly escalated back to oxycodone. I started going to the methadone clinic and then had to move out of state, so I had them ween me off (against medical advice, of course) and moved. I used Kratom to help through the withdrawals and when I moved back to my hometown (old people & places) I started back with the opiates. This was in February. Soon after this, I started back with IV use and got back on methadone. About three weeks into that, I was given an ultimatum by my family to stop the methadone (my father doesn't understand, and so he doesn't like it). So, same thing, I had them ween me down and I came to Nashville to detox. I brought a few things with me to help through the withdrawals, but didn't even make it a few days before I found a resource. That resource is supplying me with heroin. I went to a psychiatrist to get on medication management and was given a script for bupenorphine/naloxone. After I found out that the script would cost me $200/wk (no insurance), I quickly realized that I could not afford it. I have a very supportive boyfriend here, who wants nothing but to see me get clean. He doesn't do drugs and he wants to help in any way possible, but also he is having trouble understanding what I'm going through. I haven't been entirely honest with him about what I've been doing everyday. I want to stop, but can't push myself to even make it through the dopesickness. I am currently trying to obtain health insurance, so I can find a doctor that I can afford along with the prescription. I have put my boyfriend through a lot over the years and he is about over it. I don't know what to do. I'm not sure I'm even posting in the right place. Please, ANYONE, who has ANY advice, please share. I hope I didn't break any rules here. I appreciate anything that anyone has to say and look forward to it.
Big love,
Ren
