hey first post, this is really my last resort asking strangers but it might be worth a shot. i'm a 27 year old male living in the united states. i have suffered from debilitating anxiety/depression my whole life and it has really caused a lot of chaos in my life, as well as my family.
things have been manageable but still painful up until the past few years, really a bad to worse situation that i'm having a extremely difficult time with currently. about six months ago i decided i needed to seek out some type of solution so I found the best doctor in my area (not covered by my insurance unfortunately) and went with a open mind and honest heart.
i explained my issues, how i self medicate; i smoke weed daily and drink 1-2 times a week. immediatly she told me i need to stop smoking weed (and cigarettes) and drinking responsibly was a better solution than smoking. she also prescribed 50mg/day of Zoloft and 50mg of Vistaril to be taken throughout the day.
the first four weeks were okay but after that i could barely function, i work from home and pretty much lost all motivation/ability to even leave my house, at all. small projects and old hobbies just collect dust, unable to sleep and when I do it's the most intense trippy dreams, i felt more exhausted when i woke up most days.
i returned to her, explained what's going on, she said that's common and doubles my Zoloft. i reluctantly go on with her regiment only to feel the same. my next visit, i explain the situation and she prescribes Prozac in place of the Zoloft.
this was four weeks ago, i never filled my prescription for Prozac or returned calls for my follow up, stopped taking the Zoloft and Vistaril. i really didn't have much faith in doctors before but now it's even worse since this experience has effected me so negatively. i have been off all prescription meds for over a month and still feel beyond horrible. the worst part is smoking weed is not nearly as therapeutic and actually puts me in bad moods now.
i'm on the verge of losing my job and family. i just don't care about anything anymore. i'm supposed to be transferring to work back in HQ in a two months but i feel like i just can't do it in my current state.
how can i seek help without ending up worse, this isn't the first time i've tried to improve my quality of life only to end up with more intense problems. anyone that has any insight to finding the right doctor or different ways of healing the mind please let me know, thanks for reading.
things have been manageable but still painful up until the past few years, really a bad to worse situation that i'm having a extremely difficult time with currently. about six months ago i decided i needed to seek out some type of solution so I found the best doctor in my area (not covered by my insurance unfortunately) and went with a open mind and honest heart.
i explained my issues, how i self medicate; i smoke weed daily and drink 1-2 times a week. immediatly she told me i need to stop smoking weed (and cigarettes) and drinking responsibly was a better solution than smoking. she also prescribed 50mg/day of Zoloft and 50mg of Vistaril to be taken throughout the day.
the first four weeks were okay but after that i could barely function, i work from home and pretty much lost all motivation/ability to even leave my house, at all. small projects and old hobbies just collect dust, unable to sleep and when I do it's the most intense trippy dreams, i felt more exhausted when i woke up most days.
i returned to her, explained what's going on, she said that's common and doubles my Zoloft. i reluctantly go on with her regiment only to feel the same. my next visit, i explain the situation and she prescribes Prozac in place of the Zoloft.
this was four weeks ago, i never filled my prescription for Prozac or returned calls for my follow up, stopped taking the Zoloft and Vistaril. i really didn't have much faith in doctors before but now it's even worse since this experience has effected me so negatively. i have been off all prescription meds for over a month and still feel beyond horrible. the worst part is smoking weed is not nearly as therapeutic and actually puts me in bad moods now.
i'm on the verge of losing my job and family. i just don't care about anything anymore. i'm supposed to be transferring to work back in HQ in a two months but i feel like i just can't do it in my current state.
how can i seek help without ending up worse, this isn't the first time i've tried to improve my quality of life only to end up with more intense problems. anyone that has any insight to finding the right doctor or different ways of healing the mind please let me know, thanks for reading.
