Venting Describe your struggle in three words or fewer.

But isn't that why you are so proud of yourself?

I know we are !!
Yes. It's an accomplishment, and I will own it. But it's a forced clean time. I am indulging in a drug right now that is the complete opposite of what I am after,
But I do it, because I cannot get dope. So fucked up. Trading one for another, so cliche. I want to IV dope so bad. My veins are all coming back in. FML:mad::cool:
 
withdrawing?

no
clue
whatsoever
Withdrawals are in the rearview mirror at day 50. It was mostly fent. But I am now substituting heroin or fentadope with coke!!!!!! I have never touched it nor wanted to, as it is the exact opposite of the way I wish to feel. Just substituting. Its good shit, but not what I really want. And I have the benzo issue to address
soon. But, fuck, I will take 50 days off the pseudo smack. I haven't been messing around with the coke for long. And y'all would laugh at the size of the lines I
am doing. Baby lines. So, hoping when it runs out in a few days, I don't have much of a problem.
 
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