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Describe your love life:)

If I can love why would I love.

Everyday it is fading away; fading away to nothing. I can't describe it, but I think I'm not fit for a love life: when all its hope is too distant for me, I can't grasp the concept of love yet I may be too young or it's not for me.

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My love life is kind of twisted right now.
I am really into this guy Jahi, and he is so sweet, but hes a total blood from new york. We hit it off for a week or two, no sex, just makin out and shit, he wanted to take things slow. then all of a sudden he texted me "lets just be friends we're better that way". I was sad and angry because i knew he was really into me and i still have not found out why he dumped me.
About 5 or 6 days after he broke up with me there was this kickback/party at my friend Micheal's house, and jahi was there, he acted like nothing had happened and that we had never dated and that we were just friends. So.. like a dumb bitch i decided to make him jealous by cuddlin and makin out with this guy Justin (I was rolling for the FIRST time that night so i wanted some looove) and me and justin didnt have sex, we just made out all kinds and cuddled all night, but jahi didnt even get jealous. didnt even notice. didnt even care. I was heartbroken. But now, Justin and i are sorta dating, but not really, and its all so very confusing, because there is also this guy matt, and hes into me and I would so date him and hes been telling everyone hes going to ask me out,and the guy i used to buy all my weed from? ya he wants me too... I just feel like no matter where I go, no matter how i look or speak or act, guys will always want me and its driving me insane! I just want ONE man who makes me feel whole, who makes me feel safe and secure, and who i know would never hurt me. Is that too much to ask for?
 
I have a lot going on right now in that department, my head is kinda spinning. Mind you this is after many years of being alone. Started with "the cable guy" while I was living in South Boston. He was born & raised there in the projects very different from my upbringing. We fell in love and shacked up for awhile, but ultimately are too different. I'm still trying to extricate myself, though. I moved to a different state and am dating (!! I never thought I would) and really enjoying it. Really into this one guy. Also have an ex I still see, and a good friend who send me pictures of his penis (ooo it's a nice one too). I think when you're a bit older it takes the pressure off (I never got married or had kids) you can let loose a little, you know yourself better. So hang in there folks! Life can surprise you! :D
 
[In response to Fox420] No, it's not! Of course guys will want you cuz it's about sex, but you gotta control the situation. Jahi sounds like a playa -say buh bye. You're right, gameplaying is stupid. Be yourself eventually you'll hook up with the right guy for the right reasons, and he'll be as into you as you're into him.
 
Asclepius said:
Mari. this is not said as a 'pat on the head cliche' but any guy would be lucky to have you. Seriously, your attitude; on line anyway, your motivation and integrity are flooring!(ya we all are multi-flawed!) He obviously isnt the right guy for you...there must be someone more compatible in life, who can work with you. Am not being patronising here; fair fucks to you for holding it together and I hope if you invest in someone again; it will be in someone who is worthy of that. <3
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Thank you for your always well-balanced response, Asclepius. <3 I didn't take it as cliched or patronizing. Thanks also to PI for your good wishes. <3 And thanks for the offer, ChickenScratch, but I must take a pass on that for now. ;)

My (now-ex) guy and I have been texting back and forth, as he is not the type to talk it out. I have an app on my phone that can ban him forever. My last, and possibly final, text message (in response to him waking me up at 6 am with some serious fail texts) was as follows:

We all make mistakes. We all have a need for love and forgiveness. Personally attacking me for the argument you initiated that ended things between us will not solve yours.
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Absent a miracle, my love life will be on hold indefinitely. I hope I will love again. I would like to find the right person for me, who loves me unconditionally as I am. I don't see that happening anytime soon. :(
 
^Well whatever you do don't go searching for it.. The only true love I've had is my current love, she dropped into my life as nonchalantly as a perfect stranger. I mean there was an obvious mutual interest when we first met but neither of is were plying for attention or desperately searching for a lover. We simply met and put all other prospective love on hold indefinitely for eachother.. She blew away all expectations and simply outlived all other females in my mind.. It was easy to find faults in the others, not so much with her. She laughs easy, she is ferocious in bed but with all the class of a true lady. She commands respect, she deserves it. She's faithful, she's beautiful. Everything she does blows every single other female I have been with out of the water, there are no others in my eyes. I want her and only her, I am satisfied completely by her love..
 
it's jumped from in limbo with a bit of nookie, to a week of rampaging...and only girls I'm attracted to too - granted one of them is more insane than I, but with her it will only ever be sex...so that's cool. fucking great week...but nothing loveydovey - just hot...to the girl from tuesday - "Relaaaax" ;)
 
Been in a happy, yet loveless relationship going on 6 years. Happy because we're great friends and do almost everything together, but loveless because we don't fuck, sleep together, or make more than a cursory attempt at being a couple.

So two days ago while my girlfriend is away, I invited my ex out to dinner. Of course, I knew it wouldn't just be dinner because she's a complete slut (I mean that in a good way) and she came over. Her entire existence is a scrap yard of failed relationships and broken hearts, but I've always been crazy about her. So we fooled around (I didn't realize I missed kissing almost as much as sex) cuddled and had sex (sort of, I had bad nerves so the performance was rather pitiful on my part) and she left last night.

So I feel like shit, and I'm a bit heartbroken for the millionth time, because I know I'm just an infrequent rest stop on her rampage of female bullshit. But she's 7 weeks pregnant now with some guy's kid, so we will see how that all works out. I'm just glad it's not mine.
 
I never would have imagined that i could deserve a fortune like him. He's tall and has dark curly hair. He has the best laugh and the best smile. My boyfriend doesn't have a dime in his pocket to give me, but he gives me the world everyday. We spend a lot of time together- he's my best friend, and some what of a hero to me. I look up to him a lot...He's very open minded and likes to adventure with me. I tell him all my secrets and i receive his. I know i have something so pure and so rare. I've been through a number of relationships, he is quite the treasure. We're so compassionate towards one another; there's a lot of passion, laughter, bliss, honesty and warmth in what we have.
Not to mention he really knows how to please his girl, he always does everything he can to give me what i need as far as sexual pleasure.
i'm the up most grateful for him. I hope we never set apart, i wouldn't know how to live. it would take a long time for me to get my life back on track if i lost him. im truly the absolutely most lucky girl out there. i can't wait to start my life with him.
The ocean is the mass of my love for him. <3
 
Oats said:
I never would have imagined that i could deserve a fortune like him. He's tall and has dark curly hair. He has the best laugh and the best smile. My boyfriend doesn't have a dime in his pocket to give me, but he gives me the world everyday. We spend a lot of time together- he's my best friend, and some what of a hero to me. I look up to him a lot...He's very open minded and likes to adventure with me. I tell him all my secrets and i receive his. I know i have something so pure and so rare. I've been through a number of relationships, he is quite the treasure. We're so compassionate towards one another; there's a lot of passion, laughter, bliss, honesty and warmth in what we have.
Not to mention he really knows how to please his girl, he always does everything he can to give me what i need as far as sexual pleasure.
i'm the up most grateful for him. I hope we never set apart, i wouldn't know how to live. it would take a long time for me to get my life back on track if i lost him. im truly the absolutely most lucky girl out there. i can't wait to start my life with him.
The ocean is the mass of my love for him. <3
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:D aaaawwwwwhhhhh
 
Still totally in love with the same man after 17 years. Didn't plan on being with him for this long, I really thought I would get bored somewhere along the way, but he still gives me butterflies in my stomach. Has stood by me through my illness,and has never wavered and I got what most people search for all their lives, sickening but true. If we went our seperate ways tomarrow, I could honestly say there would never be another.
 
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