Giving.
This girl kept on staring at me near my work. I worked in a strip mall that was mostly Hispanic, at a pizza place. She was hostessing at a restaurant beside it. She was wearing these tiny skirts, had blond hair, but was clearly Mexican. She looked freaky.
I approached her, horny, asking her about herself. She gave me her number. I noticed she had at some glance an appearance of male. She had a tiny amount of facial hair. I wrote it off... Some girls have that. And she's not White so maybe what little hair shows up better. I was horny. Didn't care.
She spoke hardly no English. She took me dancing at a Hispanic dance club, with her friends. I was the only White person there. She had a friend with her who also looked a little freaky, and was tiny. I had an idea to get them both in bed. Both were very nice to me. A man came up to me asking if I was with the Blond, and I said tonight I am. He seemed genuinely impressed. She dressed nice. Great body. A bit overdone looking back.
I had a few drinks there. I took her back to her place so she could get some things after. We kissed in the car, and that was when something finally clicked as 'off'. It was in 'her' taste. Soon she said that "I'm gay"- "I'm a guy". And instead of stopping, I said "okay", "I want to fuck you".
She/he was nervous. Was afraid I had a roommate/that there may be a problem. I assured her- no problem. I was slightly inebriated and curious. I wanted to try anal. I didn't care at that point who with. And I was curious about sex with a tgirl.
She blew me a little in the parking lot. It was better than any girl up to that point. He/she played with me while I drove back. I was wet and it felt amazing. Like a high.
I stopped to get condoms and some lube. We got back, and walking up the steps I commented on her skin... Her form was so very female, and her breasts I asked if they were implants, to which she said "no, hormones", I put pandora on and some electronic, and stripped her.
It was interesting. It wasn't hard to enter. I really enjoyed it going from behind, but she he seemed to want to face me, which I didn't like as much, because I was more into the 'female' of 'her', and admittedly it was different.
It was a really interesting first time, and I had her over a couple of nights later. Something about this person was definitely female. But she smelled male. It was intense. But not a spiritually fulfilling as if I was with a girl that I loved or something. She wanted to stay in Indiana all of the sudden (visiting from Wisconsin). Seemed to want to pursue a relationship with me. I had to explain to her in slow English that it was just fun for me, and that I'm not 'gay', but open. I still had the ideal of a female, with potential to have a family, and something traditional. I still have a hierarchy.
Honestly though it was wild and I sort of wish she was still around at times. But what I wanted wasn't really fair to her/him. I just wanted to use her. I couldn't accept her as 'her' fully. I was only interested in getting off.