Derealization- will it get worse?

[PeopleAreStrange]

Dude come on the derealization you experienced from reefer was so bad that you were contemplating suicide!?!? Sounds like a ridiculous exaggeration, but if it's true I would avoid weed (and most other drugs) like the plague from now on.

Being so disconnected from people made me feel lonely. My perception of time was skewed, I couldn't really differentiate between fantasy and reality. I'm 14, I need to get through high school. If I can't retain information, I can't pass.

In all honesty, it's not the detached feeling I fear most, but the fact that I can't concentrate. Getting through school and into a good college is my top priority.

i've smoked pot everyday for 3 years now and ever since I originally started i've always felt out of it. I can't remember what it feels like to view the world in a sober mindset, with no thc whatsoever in my system. It's not bad for me because I quite like it, but I have a lot of friends who have since quit because they couldn't handle the extreme day-to-day derealization that smoking too much bud gives you. If you don't feel comfortable with this feeling, I'd suggest not getting into it in the first place, easier said than done though.

I'm glad you know what I'm talking about. I tried explaining derealization to a friend who smokes regularly. She says she's never felt it. I can't help but feel it's because there's something wrong with my brain in the first place, and marijuana worsens it.

I remeber after i took 28 pills of benadryl the next day i had this unreal depression that "felt" like a suicidal depression. but weed? your just smoking toooo much. alot of people have higher tolerances to weed, alot of people have lower tolerances. unfortunatley this doesn't really play out in the real world, as everyone usually takes the same amount of hits regardless, i mean cmon man, how can you turn down a hit?? you a pussy or something? *sarcasm

Yeah, hah. Everyone's always teasing me about how "tiny" hits I take.

yeah that sucks i sometimes feel like that too
nice avatar btw

Thanks. :D

if you suffer from ridiculous derealization stirred up from your cannabis use, you just have a problem with how you perceive reality, and you need to step back and look at what you think isn't real, isolate the thought behind the feeling of the world being "unreal", tell yourself it's no help to YOU by letting this impact you negatively, and let go of your fear, then you'll be able to deal with those thoughts, and you'll be one step closer to enlightenment.

Yeah, being afraid of the derealization only makes it much worse.

You should vaporize the weed. It would be perfect for you.

Would that really make a difference?

 

[SpellmanT7]

Getting through school and into a good college is my top priority.

You seem to understand the importance of a 'long-term-view' - now all you need to do is ditch the smoking until you achieve your aim and resume bud-based activities when you hit your goal.

 

[freaktech]

You should vaporize the weed. It would be perfect for you.

why? Effects from vaporization are milder than smoke effects? simply with vaporization reduces the harm for the lungs, no? mental effects would be the same...

 

[jam uh weezy]

I find vaporization INCREASES the high a lot. Less of the cannabinoids are destroyed by flame. It was almost too much for me at the time.

 

[ASquishyApple]

It doesn't make me feel paranoid, never gave me a panic attack. I just dislike how the disassociative feeling lasts for days, it's unsettling.

that's how i reacted the first few times i smoked however it was basically gone in the morning once i woke up. after my first few times i never had that feeling of dreaming again on weed alone.

its a difficult decision to make especially if it makes you depressed to the point of contemplating suicide. but i think if you don't actually have the intent to ever carry out suicide (i have gotten very depressed at times and have often contemplated suicide but i know i'd never have the balls to actually go through with it) then maybe you could give mary a chance just don't smoke so much. start with 1 hit and see how that goes then go from there

i also found for me that setting my expectations of how the weed will hit me once it does actually helps produce a more pleasant experience (although i feel this limits the experience somewhat so i don't normally do it unless i have been recently having uncomfortable highs for whatever reason)

 

[burn out]

i had all kinds of derelization the first several times i smoked. although it scared me deeply, i also thought it was pretty cool. if it makes you want to commit suicide i would say dont do it though. weed can lead to long lasting, possibly permanent changes in your baseline awareness, although it usually takes large amounts to cause this.

 

[PeopleAreStrange]

You seem to understand the importance of a 'long-term-view' - now all you need to do is ditch the smoking until you achieve your aim and resume bud-based activities when you hit your goal.

You bet, I'm going all out once I'm done with college. :D

that's how i reacted the first few times i smoked however it was basically gone in the morning once i woke up. after my first few times i never had that feeling of dreaming again on weed alone.

its a difficult decision to make especially if it makes you depressed to the point of contemplating suicide. but i think if you don't actually have the intent to ever carry out suicide (i have gotten very depressed at times and have often contemplated suicide but i know i'd never have the balls to actually go through with it) then maybe you could give mary a chance just don't smoke so much. start with 1 hit and see how that goes then go from there

i also found for me that setting my expectations of how the weed will hit me once it does actually helps produce a more pleasant experience (although i feel this limits the experience somewhat so i don't normally do it unless i have been recently having uncomfortable highs for whatever reason)

I know I won't commit suicide. I'm an atheist, so death is sort of... inconvenient? I just don't know what to do.

i had all kinds of derelization the first several times i smoked. although it scared me deeply, i also thought it was pretty cool. if it makes you want to commit suicide i would say dont do it though. weed can lead to long lasting, possibly permanent changes in your baseline awareness, although it usually takes large amounts to cause this.

It is cool, isn't it? I don't mind it for a short period, but as I said, after days and days, it's distressing.

 

[DHope]

If you are 14 and school is really important to you and weed has this much effect on you then my recommendation is that you skip the weed for now. What you experienced sounds like a combination of teenage angst and a low tolerance to weed. Also at your age you haven't learned the mental control it takes to avoid some of the less enjoyable aspects of MJ.

I think if you waited another ten years you might have a completely different experience with weed. By that time you will pretty much have college under your belt and probably a decent paying job so that you can try some really good weed.

If however you MUST smoke then maybe try a different strain. Different strains of weed have different effects. Some make you feel all loggy and down. Other strains make you a little energetic and still others screw with your mind and causes extreme paranoia without the buzzy body high (had a couple batches like that before).

Whenever I get some with the extreme paranoia properties I remind myself that I just smoked weed and it can cause paranoia. You can also grab a bite to eat. That always seems to break me out of a paranoid state. I've heard it has something to do with the way weed affects your sugar levels so a little to eat will moderate the high somewhat.