• HEALTH & RECOVERY
    Welcome Guest
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules Thread Directory 1 Thread Directory 2
    Mindfulness Links Addiction & Mind
    Sober Living Partner Program (SLiPP)
  • H&R Moderators: VerbalTruist

depression eats my soul

dude, if by 'sleep' you mean to get on opiates or benzos or something, then know that will only worsen your depression for the long run. you won't ''pass the time under the influence'' or something, you'll just get out of it (if you do) with increase of the excisting depression.
please try therapy, excersicing, shit\sociaty\activities\whatever that improves your mood (as fool as it sounds) i too depression as well now, suffer social phobia, generalized anxiety, personality disorders, etc & just kicked an opiate\benzo habit that started for that exact reason; but i just have to say that because i see how it can help if you're dissapointed by some drugs &\or can't use the others, & you believe it can help you. dunno, try something, but don't do that... rather try to go clean for a year & see what's changed...

if you didn't mean nothing by 'sleep', than i'm sorry for the mindfuck dude. but still maybe there's some point in my post as i say it from my experience and what's goin' on with me these days as well.

anyway free to pm me whenever you would want to talk buddy! there's my messenger address in my info, you always wellcome...

peace!
 
Last edited:
i did just mean sleep but a lot of what you said makes total sense.
i have considered taking lots of downers.... infact anything i can get my mitts on.
but it isn't the way. i'm going ok with regards to depression. going to start seeing a therapist who specializes in anxiety / social phobia problems so hopefully (fingeez crossed) i'll show some improvement in time.
cheers man :)
 
I can totally relate to just sleeping a year and forgetting about everything and anything. When depression has hit me, the best part of my day was sleep and I could never get enough because I enjoyed staying unconcious and when I woke up I fell back into the aboherent depressive Hell. Waking up without the initial feeling of the lightning strike of pain was not happening, and I just kind of lived and suffered in a hope to die. It was fucking Hell.
 
monstanoodle said:
i did just mean sleep but a lot of what you said makes total sense.
i have considered taking lots of downers.... infact anything i can get my mitts on.
but it isn't the way. i'm going ok with regards to depression. going to start seeing a therapist who specializes in anxiety / social phobia problems so hopefully (fingeez crossed) i'll show some improvement in time.
cheers man :)
Click to expand...

Well i can try to advice something - that i kinda advice to myself now a days.
Think about your future - your a young man (well i guess, at least), even if all the drugs made to deal with depression can help - how your whole life will look like if you choose now to become hopelessly dependent on random on\off lable antidepressants to live? Using drugs you're fucking yourself up just more for the long run. Try to get clean, for like a year - the time i believe your brain preety fully recovers, and just struggle with it ''on dry'' - cold turkey.
Belive me this way you would win many things: first - this is the shortest way to get yourself better, second - this way it becomes better without returning reverse, third - your mind and soul learns to combat it and work it out - even if you suffer, and develops a kind of immune system this way, and many many things like this that the important of them is that you actually getting better without actually just delaying the problem, and leave maximum of a chance to yourself to live maximum healthy life in the future. sometimes it's even good to suffer, you just gotta keep yourself blindly believeing that YOU GETTING BETTER as the time going on...

Good luck bro! I really hope you & myself are gonna make it!!!
 
Last edited:
i've read a book on yogi philosophy. it mentioned a lot about breathing techniques and such. but when in the states i'm in, it's hard to maintain a focused mind. and that's what's required to really gain the benefits of it.

but yea, last few days have been good. i tidied my room big style went n met loads of friends. today is a lazy friday at home with some weed...
 
Sometimes I feel like that too. I sleep a lot actually and relish every moment of it.
 
just had a "punch to the gut" so to speak which has cascaded be back down to the pit. fuck this shit, "when i thought i was out... they pulled me back in.."
 
feels like it sometimes.
tonight it's just me, a bottle of wine and 210mg of codeine phos.

roll on the 1 man "party" :|
 
hey... seriously, take care of yourself. i can guarantee you it's not the end of the world, because if it was we would all be dead right now instead of posting on bluelight.

make some music :)
 
i've no inspiration when like this. decided i should only take 90mg if i'm drinking
she basically doesn't think we'd be a good couple. i've been led on to fuck. used almost. well, another few years of fearing relationships is assured.
 
you know i've had that response from a few people. you speak truth miss pixi :)

still gunna be a betch to get over tho
 
buh-bump bump it up!

came across this thread and just wanted to see how your were.

don't flip out dude. women are in abundance. you are the prize.

but yeah, it's supposed to hurt. you think you're the first one to ever break up with someone you felt strongly for? hell naw. billions have gone thru worse than you have. the worst you could do is sulk in it for too long. life's beautiful with or without some hot ass, big tittied, pink pu-..nevermind. you'll be alright, man.
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top