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depression does make the world look grey

do you think then it is more you just don't think about it rather than the study saying you actually see it different?
what do you think the best ways to treat depression other than just give folk pills and send them on their way, do you think there is another way to help people out of feeling like that?
just curious. I know a friend who has depression and she has had it for 4 years adn I just don't know what to do so basically get her out as often as possible for good walks, I know at the time she feels a bit better but it is not lasting. she is on medication but it does not seem to work tbh.
 
I used to see the world through black colored lenses when I was depressed, or when it comes back. But now I have so much more clarity.
 
I've had depression since about the age of 13. I've been prescribed a lot of different anti-depressants and mood stabilisers, and none of them were very effective. I've also been in therapy for the past decade, with no real results either. To me, being depressed has practically become my "normal" state of mind - and good days seem to be pretty rare, strange occurances. It's fucked.
 
Romie1092 said:
does anyone else wake up and think you would rather kill yourself instead of go to work? i hate this shit no one should have to experience this bull fucking shit.
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I used to, I was working in a lab where I wasn't using the skills I learned in other jobs, and I hated what I was doing on top of my depression.
 
I'm diagnosed bipolar and I have been an addict for 40 years.When I am depressed,the world does lose color.I don't clean my apartment,bathe,I wear the same clothes.I clock watch until it is time for me to knock myself out.I drug myself to sleep as much as possible.Everyday I think of suicide.I am jealous of my friends that have ODed.This is tired,I am tired.Antidepressants don't work for me.I am sick of people telling me to cheer up,that life is not so bad.I didn't chose to be bipolar.I haven't killed myself only because I have two children and people that love me.I don't want to hurt them more than I already have.I can't work,how can I work when I can't get out of bed?But I am bored.I wish I would get a terminal disease and then I could die and no one would feel like I copped out on them.
 
adicabrady said:
I'm diagnosed bipolar and I have been an addict for 40 years.When I am depressed,the world does lose color.I don't clean my apartment,bathe,I wear the same clothes.I clock watch until it is time for me to knock myself out.I drug myself to sleep as much as possible.Everyday I think of suicide.I am jealous of my friends that have ODed.This is tired,I am tired.Antidepressants don't work for me.I am sick of people telling me to cheer up,that life is not so bad.I didn't chose to be bipolar.I haven't killed myself only because I have two children and people that love me.I don't want to hurt them more than I already have.I can't work,how can I work when I can't get out of bed?But I am bored.I wish I would get a terminal disease and then I could die and no one would feel like I copped out on them.
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Have you considered something like ECT?
 
ElCityRoller said:
The world looks drab, nothing seems worth doing. You don't take care of yourself or others. I'm there at least 5 or 6 out of 7 days in a week. It has ruined my life again. Medication does nothing. Things that shouldn't hurt you emotionally hurt you anyway. It's no way to lead a life, but I can't get out of it. It's 9:27PM, and this is the first I've been out of bed all day. I hate it all.

Fuck bi-polar disorder. It just seems so bloody hopeless.
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Right there with you man. I have OCD and possibly bi-polar but I am constantly fighting my OCD depressive thoughts. They just dont seem to go away. It fucking SUCKS! I seem to hide it well though, most people wouldnt know that I think the way I do. I must admit though doing psychedelics once a month seems to make things better. I know people say not to do them when your feeling down but they seem to work for me . They actually make all the bad thoughts go away and replace it with good thoughts. And when the bad thoughts come up they help you deal with them. If I may recommend something I hear ayahuasca works wonders and it might change your life. I myself have not tried aya but have done smokeable DMT and that itself has changed me alot. I am planning on a aya adventure soon then im taking a break from drugs for a while because I now know I have hppd now and wanna see if it subsides at all if I stop.
 
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adicabrady said:
I'm diagnosed bipolar and I have been an addict for 40 years.When I am depressed,the world does lose color.I don't clean my apartment,bathe,I wear the same clothes.I clock watch until it is time for me to knock myself out.I drug myself to sleep as much as possible.Everyday I think of suicide.I am jealous of my friends that have ODed.This is tired,I am tired.Antidepressants don't work for me.I am sick of people telling me to cheer up,that life is not so bad.I didn't chose to be bipolar.I haven't killed myself only because I have two children and people that love me.I don't want to hurt them more than I already have.I can't work,how can I work when I can't get out of bed?But I am bored.I wish I would get a terminal disease and then I could die and no one would feel like I copped out on them.
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OMG that sounds so bad, but the fact you wish you had a terminal illness so your family would not think you copped out is one of the worst I have read in this thread.
Can you think of anything that does make you feel more in control, more relaxed as obviously the anti depressants aint working.
I hope you dont get a terminal disease, and hope you get a good doc you can talk to to see if there is something more that can be done.
 
anybody else who depressed also feel this huge amount of anger too?
Im depressed as fuck and i hate it so much. i remember not being depressed when i was a little kid, maybe thats why i act like a child all the time, cuz i was happy back then, my mind seems to think it can somehow travel time haha that by acting the way i used to when i was happy, somehow ill be happy again. It doesnt work by the way, all it does is make people angry at me for acting like a kid and trying to be happy my way. Which in turn makes me mad because how dare they tell me how im allowed to be happy and how im not allowed to be happy.
My anger also stems from deep seated feelings of having been wronged and cheated out of big parts of my life. Honestly, feeling very depressed and hopeless all the time while also feeling angry and like youve been wronged and betrayed by family is just a really fucked up exsistance :(
is it wrong that Psychedelic drugs make me happy? Im amazed at it as well, sure, i like body drugs, but, all in all Psychs make me happier, they put my mind at ease and calm my nerves....after the trip is over anyways haha
 
I have been wanting to reply to this but I kept getting a "method not implemented" whenever I tried to log in.I downloaded a new browser today so I could come back on Bluelight.I missed it.

The comment about being pissed.Yes,I am pissed too.I just went to a reunion (40 year grammar school) and most of my classmates had gone to college and had good jobs.They owned houses and went on vacation.I am on disability "cuz some days I just can't function.I can't make plans because I don't know if I will be manic and want to do everything or too depressed to move.Depression is much more prevalent,ratio about 30 depressed to 1 manic.I hate that I don't have control over how I feel.

I used to have a voice in my head that said "Need a bag of dope" and now says "Kill yourself".It repeats over and over.I wish I could choke that little b**tard.

One new thing I have noticed that is relatively new is not being able to learn new things.I bought a scanner and a camera and have to have my young neighbor come over anytime I want to use them.Has any one else had this problem?I don't know if it is bipolar related or the pills I take.
 
Sweet P said:
I actually remember reading a study showing that people with mild to moderate depression actually see the world more realistically than people who aren't depressed!
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yah me2. It was hella interesting. I think its cuz depressed people dont give a fuk about making things all rosey coloured. They are just like LOOK I dont give a crap about your fuking fantasy la la land bullshit. This is whats going on.

Depression definitely made me a more critical thinker, but only when it was mixed with up time too. When I was just purely depressed for long stretches of time, I couldnt think straight.
 
I recently unearthed a large depression off my soul with the help of good ole lsd and 2c-e. Being a realist definitely provokes sadness as the affairs of the world are horrifying. Try to find good in the world and harness it so that it may grow, Then one day we can all do our things and love each other in a pseudo-communistic anarchistic utopia. Right?
 
Sweet P said:
I actually remember reading a study showing that people with mild to moderate depression actually see the world more realistically than people who aren't depressed!
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thats because to be happy you have to place all the information you get into a framework to generate hapiness, an example being if something works out you attribute it to yourself/whereas if it fails you blame things you couldn't control (this is not realistic but is necessary for you keep motivated)

it helps to have a belief in something spiritual- i believe in the universe (and its magical ways) and that feeling love and giving it out will bring it back in time.

of course many psychiatrists would say that i am crazy to think these things but i'm happy so they can fuck off with their materialistic realism and drug based therapy's. ever think humans need a spiritual dimension to be happy?
 
I've totally felt that before...driving on the highway on the way to work. I've thought of driving head on into 18 wheelers rather than go sit for 8 hours in front of a computer doing shit that benefits no one besides my rich as fuck, miserly boss and his little, perfect daughters.
 
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