Mate im also coming off 3 weeks of 150mg serequel its day 3 and now im withdrawing thought id escaped as it was only 3 weeks but never slept ,hot cold all day and night slight neck cramp and headache, its bad but im lucky I wasnt on it longer as I been reading some major horror stories of this horrible thing, noone told me that just 3 weeks would do this its like stopping meth man just hope it dont last much longer any advice welcome, and I got pip medical tomorrow at 9am bastards.
You can pretty much blame it all on the benzos and the opioid w/d. I'm sure that sometimes it feels like it's coming from all sides and it prolly is, just don't lose sight of what got you here. Harsh yes, but important. You poisoned your body and your mind for how long? I'm 15 years clean of cocaine and heroin and to this day it still leaps up from the back of my mind to surprise me with a craving or a flashback of fixing up so just for the sake of the discussion you need to put yours situation into perspective. You sound pretty new to the sober life which makes this time very important and very pivotal in treating your disease of addiction. All the shit you're going through right now is necessary and it sounds like you know it, that's awesome. You are doing all the right things.
Anything, literally ANYTHING, other than doing a pile of heroin and handfuls of xanax right now is OKAY. I don't give a fuck if you are breathing and sighing and watching TV all day, although video games are much more fun, it's OKAY. I would suggest spending at least 15 minutes a day out on your stoop or whatever you have to sit on out front of wherever you're staying. Don't get too isolated because that can turn into big problems later on down the road as you risk developing varying degrees of agoraphobia. Bring a book with you or a tablet to write on when you're out there so you have something in your hands to do if you feel like it. Bye the way, this is a very good time for journaling, if for nothing but to just get the shit out of your system, it's also something good to look back on to see how far you've come and how you've done it. I'm sure you've heard this before, "It get easier." Well it does, and you certainly have that to look forward to. And see if you can break down your 'brave face'. Don't be worried to express yourself fully to your doctors. You will get better treatment that way. Communicating with them better will help them make better informed decisions about your recovery. Keep them involved as possible because in many ways, they are your ticket out of this shit.
When i got sober i stopped everything for four years. Everything except coffee and cigarettes. I was on psyche meds though, effexor and seroquel and I liked them very much. They may have helped save my life. I understand that there is a lot of contraversy on this site as to whether psych meds are beneficial or just a big pharma scam and we should all just be smoking weed and micro-dosing lsd for our depression. I should mention that I was diagnosed Biploar I/schizo-effective disorder at this time, the double whammy as I like to call it. Turned out my addiction sprang from a need to self medicate my un-diagnosed depression....later I found out that this was textbook case material, very common.
So no booze, no weed, nothin for four years It was one of the best things i had ever done in my life. In fact after having done it, I'd recommend it to everyone, addict or not, at least once in their lives. In any case the meds started to poop out so after that four years I started smoking pot again. Great decision! Pot along with my psych meds made everything all better! So that's the only other drug i do other than my psych meds. I never went back to any of the other ones. That's my story. Good luck with yours
