depression after overdose

[PlurPsyed]

Yesterday I experienced a near fatal overdose and was rushed to the hospital. I was told that I was out cold for 20 minutes and my breathing had stopped. This was the first time I ever experienced anything like it. While I'm glad I'm alive I have been feeling melancholy all day, tearing up randomly and wondering if it would have been better had the paramedics not revived me. I'm also embarrassed and the few friends I've told about this have been generally unsympathetic, telling me it was all my fault. Even my mother told me it would have been that big of a deal if I had died. Anyone have any advice on how to cope after experiencing something like this?

 

[T. Calderone]

That has to be rough, I imagine you must feel like crap. Especially since you don't seem to be getting a warm reception coming home. Can you check into getting some counseling? I think that would be beneficial for your own well-being also to show your mom that you're not going to do this again. Please stick around! How did you overdose if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

It's quite normal to be down after such an event, whether it be because you feel like you 'failed' in your attempt or because you realize how close you came due to your habit. An OD is a turning point for many addicts because they realize that if things don't change they'll wind up dead.

I'd go see a counselor as T. Calderone suggested, but before you do, I'd work out where you want to go from here (in regard to your use).

Families (especially non-using ones) can be pretty heartless when dealing with someone who OD'd. A lot of the time they can't see that it was accidental and immediately blame you for it.

 

[PlurPsyed]

That has to be rough, I imagine you must feel like crap. Especially since you don't seem to be getting a warm reception coming home. Can you check into getting some counseling? I think that would be beneficial for your own well-being also to show your mom that you're not going to do this again. Please stick around! How did you overdose if you don't mind me asking?

I was taking adderall a few days in a row to study. Sunday a friend of mine listed me some h to come down. I don't take it much but the amount I took was about quater of what I normally take. Next thing I know I'm on my bedroom for surrounded by paramedics and was rushed to the hospital. They told me it took two shots of narcan to bring me back. I don't have insurance for counseling and as far as my mom knowsi only told her about the amphetamines.

I Keep wondering why that happened. How such a small does could have done that when I've taken much bigger doses before and was fine. The person who gave it to me said he didn't even expect me to get high. Needless to say I'll be laying off the h for a long time. Even the nurses at the hospital were complete cunts to me. One kept telling at me for moving my hand that had the sale drip cause I couldn't stop shivering. And she kept harassing my friend who went to the hospital with me. He was sorting by my side r the whole time and three hours into it she tried to make him leave for no apparent reason. We had to call the doctor to get her to back off me.

 

[spork]

I had a very similar experience. It was a small amount as well and it wasn't something I ever thought would cause an overdose. You just have to be really careful with H because you can't tell how pure it is or if you're even getting heroin at all. With my experience, I think it may have been fentanyl but I'll never really know for sure.

I was really depressed afterwards as well and like you, I kept wondering why I was still alive and even wishing that I hadn't been revived. It's been over a year now and while I still have a hard time believing that even happened to me, I'm no longer wishing that the overdose was fatal. There was a reason why I was left on this earth and I believe it's the same for you as well. Take it as a learning experience and know that you have more to achieve in your life.

I see that your location says New York. If you're under 26 and your parents have insurance, you are still covered under that. It might help to talk to a therapist about this if you can. There also might be counselors that you can talk to at school for free of charge. You can always PM me as well if you want to talk. Take care

 

[angeleyes]

PlurPsyed... hope you are feeling better since yesterday...

Some people may not be sympathetic but no one deserves to overdose, as clichéd as this sounds (its the truth though) everyone does deserve to be happy and I bet you everyone would be incredibly sad if you weren't around to make things better in their lives.


Just try and savour every moment from now on, embrace the sunshine, feel the wind flowing through your legs, seize the day for sure that is what I've decided to do with my life, like a crazy Dr. Hoffmann enthusiast with a vision and a gut full of passion with the glint in my eye, hope everything settles down for you quickly, stay safe out there.

 

[PlurPsyed]

thank you so much for sharing. Its nice to know I'm not alone in this. I added you as a friend but for some reason can't message you from the mobile site. Look out for a pm from me after 5 pm est when I get home from work. I'd really love to talk more about this

 

[PlurPsyed]

PlurPsyed... hope you are feeling better since yesterday...

Some people may not be sympathetic but no one deserves to overdose, as clichéd as this sounds (its the truth though) everyone does deserve to be happy and I bet you everyone would be incredibly sad if you weren't around to make things better in their lives.


Just try and savour every moment from now on, embrace the sunshine, feel the wind flowing through your legs, seize the day for sure that is what I've decided to do with my life, like a crazy Dr. Hoffmann enthusiast with a vision and a gut full of passion with the glint in my eye, hope everything settles down for you quickly, stay safe out there.

I'm feeling a little better but I still feel this weird distance from the world around me. It's this feeling of loneliness I just can't seem to shake

 

[stardust.hero]

Yesterday I experienced a near fatal overdose and was rushed to the hospital. I was told that I was out cold for 20 minutes and my breathing had stopped. This was the first time I ever experienced anything like it. While I'm glad I'm alive I have been feeling melancholy all day, tearing up randomly and wondering if it would have been better had the paramedics not revived me. I'm also embarrassed and the few friends I've told about this have been generally unsympathetic, telling me it was all my fault. Even my mother told me it would have been that big of a deal if I had died. Anyone have any advice on how to cope after experiencing something like this?

The world doesn't understand mental health or addiction. It's almost like a continuous downward spiral since when you need and want the help the most it's almost always never there and you are left alone to fend for yourself and try to cope with it.

Just remember that you aren't alone, it's not fair of your family or friends to treat you in that manner -- you deserve respect and support.

 

[Maya]

^yes I definitely agree with this, mostly, most people will not understand so I am quite lucky in a way that my family has supported me even if there were times when they were ready to give up on me. Like what Stardust already mentioned, we are all here for you if you need help and support. We will be your family.

 

[PlurPsyed]

^yes I definitely agree with this, mostly, most people will not understand so I am quite lucky in a way that my family has supported me even if there were times when they were ready to give up on me. Like what Stardust already mentioned, we are all here for you if you need help and support. We will be your family.

Thank you that means a lot to me Im not even sure where to turn for for support. A lot of info geared thowards people who have been in my situation is tailed to addicts. Im not an opiate addict. I dabble in it once every few weeks for the past 3 years but its not my doc by far.don't think Ill be fucking around with it ever again after that experience.

 

[PlurPsyed]

so I just wanted to post an update. It's been a couple of weeks now since this happened and I still keep thinking about it fairly frequently. Like I'll be going about my day and all of the sudden thoughts will start looping in my head and they usually lead to me concluding that maybe if my friend hadn't called the paramedics that day and nature had taken it's course, it might not have been so bad (I'm not suicidal) and along with those thoughts comes this weird desire to feel that sensation of nothingness again. These thoughts are really bumming me out. You guys think they'll just pass on their own or is there something I can do to help me move on from this?

 

[Gado]

I overdosed once in my car. I was out for abour 3 hours or so. No one revived me or anything. I wished I would've died because my life was going to shit. I was addicted worse than ever at that point and I couldn't stand my life anymore. A few days later my parents found out I was using. The next day I got on Methadone and I've been seeing a therapist. I feel so much better now than ever. Consider a therapist, it's cool talking to someone who can offer an outsiders advice.

 

[PlurPsyed]

I overdosed once in my car. I was out for abour 3 hours or so. No one revived me or anything. I wished I would've died because my life was going to shit. I was addicted worse than ever at that point and I couldn't stand my life anymore. A few days later my parents found out I was using. The next day I got on Methadone and I've been seeing a therapist. I feel so much better now than ever. Consider a therapist, it's cool talking to someone who can offer an outsiders advice.

hm, are there any free public therapy programs for something like this? My psychiatrist has actually been urging me to see a counselor for quite some time but my lack of insurance has been a deterrent for me thus far